I
am
Ashly
and
I
write
my
thoughts
through
poetry

Counting my blessing
While I count the star's
Close my eyes
Making a wish as one falls apart
Shooting across the night sky

Blissful beauty
Colorful skies
Infinite atmosphere
Right before our eyes

Just because your
C R A C K E D
Doesn’t mean your
BR OK EN

Dream for you
Dream for me
But in the end
Let it happen
Naturally

Take me to the edge of the water
Where there’s no end in sight
Yet the sight is unseen
When you dream big and believe

I look out into the open air
Trying to have not a worry or a care
Yet in the back of my mind
I try to leave my worries behind
Letting them flutter away
Allowing them to escape
Out into the open air
Taking in the moments
Embracing them all
Not succumbing to the
Negative falls

Looking for lost time is just a waste
You can never get it back, post haste
Every
      Second
          Minute
                Hour
                   Gone by
The ticking of the hands
Is just the result of
                              Lost time

Don’t you wish you could stop time
Pause everything and hit rewind
Press play and watch today
Over and over again, living out your best day

I never had....

That positive pregnancy test

An ultrasound to see you or hear your heartbeat

Moments of happiness knowing our family was growing

Enjoyment of growing a baby inside of me

I never knew you existed, until you were gone....

I never had....

A part of your life is always hidden behind the surface
That’s ok, the sun and moon aren’t always full and shining all the time
Sometimes your meant to be closed off….

Follow your passions
Imaginative colorful dreams
Painting a picture
For all the world to see

Little red riding hood I will play
I'll take you on an adventure as we f*ck  all day
You tease me so
Getting me close
Run your lips down
Down my body
Making me shiver
Turning me on
Making me wet
I flip you over and slide it in
Riding it slow
As you beg for more
Rub me hard
Make me drip
Ride it hard
Like were dancing in rhythm
Hearing the pounding like drums on our bodies
Screaming at the top of our lungs
**** it feels good
Slow it down as we release
Our juices flow
Taste so good
Lets go again
You take the lead
You grasp my hair
And pull me close
Better get a raincoat because
               CAUTION
            YOU
                 MAY
           GET
                WET....

You can’t control the things that are out of your own hands but what you can control are the feelings within your heart…

When
I
Look
At
You
The
Whole
World
Freezes
And
Only
We
Dance
Under
The
­Star
Lite
Sky
Even
For
A
Moment

Fragmented
Therapy
One or two
Have a void
Between
Me and you
Carrying the weight
Unbalanced
Heavy too
Anxiety attack
Coming through
Darkest moments
Seeing the light
Deep breaths
Closing your eyes
Therapy sessions
Within yourself
Fill the void
Love, love , love
What you feel
Then you will
Be healed

Never losing sight
Never losing sigh
Never losing sig
Never losing si
Never losing s
Never losing
Never losin
Never losi
Never los
Never lo
Never l
Never
Neve
Nev
Ne
N
Never losing sight
Of what’s right in front of you
Be thankful
Be thankfu
Be thankf
Be thank
Be than
Be tha
Be th
Be t
Be
B
E
For what you have in life

A drop of love
A pinch of you
Mixing up the perfect brew
Under a spell
Drink it down
Screaming I love you without making a sound
You and I
So in sync
Love potion so wicked
Only the two of us can drink

I’ve heard the saying
“ Can you miss someone that you never met?”
This holds true for all the women who have had a miscarriage
But what about those suffering from infertility
“ Can you miss someone that you’ve never met or actually never even existed?
I believe so...
Even though someone has no existence but you long to meet, I do feel like you miss them in many different ways

Even through nonexistent form of a human being, the existence that you long for will always be, a non tangible thing, missing from me...

Empty chair
Empty wine glass
Emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you
A poem, a writing, a song, a cardinal, a butterfly, a penny, a dream....
All these things remind me of you
A strong and hard working man you were
I have the same traits, as I live for you
I hope I am making you proud in all I do
I talk to you everyday
          Do you even hear me?
In my heart, I know you do!
Even though you are no longer here
Believe me, it’s been a hard almost 5 years
Another day we celebrate YOU
For on this Father’s Day
I send my love to heaven for you
Broken memories will never fade away
I wish I had more time, wish you would have stayed
Unfortunately you were sick and there was nothing left to do
So I told you to close your eyes, relax and just let go
It was he hardest thing I ever had to do
But I am thankful I have many years, so today it’s all about you

An empty chair
An empty wine glass
An emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you...
        
         Happy Father’s Day Papa Bear

I thought I knew you.....



....guess I was wrong

The world stops spinning for a moment
You receive news of a friend who may not make it through the day
She was the type of person who could brighten your mood in any way
Prayers and love are sent to you
Just know we are all thinking of you
We love you lots and hope for the best
Please don't leave us just yet....

Second hand store
Full of things
Clothing to furniture and everything in between
Some see a gold mine for items so cheap
But other see comfort in someone else’s things
Think of all the memories when you step into the shop
Peoples past good or bad
All the memories to be had
Someone else’s junk
Is someone else’s treasures
Just take a moment and thank them for giving you a piece of their life
To make memories for you until it’s time
To give it away and make someone else smile
The journey of the second hand store is like a revolving door....

That first kiss

That one kiss

Means


EVERYTHING

Our illusions are boundaries that are not set in stone but rather illuminating colors of the rainbow

Through the path of chaos and destruction happening in the world
We need to all unite together and pray for everyone's safety
Gearing up for the worst to come
Hunkering down
Hoping for the best
Thoughts and prayers to everyone who will be affected
Let's all come together and be the light in the darkness that has been, and will be put upon us.

If.
Living in fear.
Is your only world.
Are you even living.
Within this world.
Only knowing fear itself.

Growing her wings as she makes mistakes and learns that failure is as beautiful as the day she was brought into this world..

I may not be exactly where I want to be but where I’m going is where the adventure will await me

There is no silence when I can’t turn down the loud volume of my brain working in overtime

Once in a lifetime you get the chance
To take a step back and just
D
A
N
C
E
Not having a worry
Just being free
Letting your emotions
Be wild and carefree

Don’t be afraid to dance in the rain
It will help you release all that pain
The words that cannot be expressed
Can now be pulled off your chest
Through the simple motion of movement
You’ll learn about your self improvement

Just dance
With this
One chance
To
D
A
N
C
E

Self torture from within
Frozen in fear,
Locked in
Constant battle between yourself
Always cautious, having doubt
Translucent energy surrounds your soul
You have the power, the control
Emotions flare at any given time
Just remember your ok, it’s all fine
The walk of life changes in time
No two paths are alike
Timing is everything when the time is right
You’ve got this, you have the fight

It’s ok to feel lost because sometimes being lost actually leads you to the path your meant to find…

Through the rain,thunder and lightning...
Take a moment to find the calm within the chaos of the storm
Relaxing your mind, body and soul
Just like the storm intended it to be
Powerful, bright and loud... yet beautiful, silent and majestic

Feeling like a kid when you walk through the gates
Walking down the path, your journey awaits
Imagination is running wild
Going back to feeling like a child
Eyes are glowing
Smiles so big
Feeling the magic
And wishes to be made
You fill your hearts with memories to treasure
Walt Disney world is my guilty pleasure