It's raining and it's pouring
I'm so sad I can't even write a poem
And I love writing

Rain rain go away
i'm tired of all the grey
its cold its dark
and i feel so far away
im in a place where the sun doesnt shine
And the breeze doesnt blow
and the warmth doesnt flow
I try to escape but I feel its too late
what else is there to say
everyday I get farther
and my mind foggier
and my heart emptier
and i think to myself that it could all change
maybe eventually one day
thats all
I said all I have to say

Pat pitter pat
They call you the kitty cat
Pur pur pur
I pet your glorious soft fur
Meow moww meow
I dont know what I would do with out my best pal around  
GUR GROWL GUR
My wonderfully evil little snuggler
Wait what was that
Oh yes
My favorite kitty cat

She deserves so much better
Keep it up
You might as well forget her

My heart is telling me to stay
My mind is telling me to go
My body can't decide which way to go

It's been two long years and a lot of love
My highschool lover, oh how we have come so far
We made a beautiful baby, and we own a beautiful home
We worked through it all, even when you did me so wrong

Everything is perfect, yet I feel as far from happy as I could be
Always questioning myself, wondering if I should leave
I never want to touch you, I know I'm treating you wrong
And for that i' m sorry

Today I smoked my first cigarette
Then a pack, turned too two
I've always been against it
I've reached a low
What's wrong with me? I cannot breath!

I don't want too hurt you
If I stay I may be unhappy, but if I go I may regret it
What about our daughter, she shouldn't be stuck with my problems
I wish I could just forget it

I couldn't bare too hurt you, but i'm hurting myself more
In my mind I'm fighting a terrifying war

Deep down I know my heart belongs elsewhere  
But I can't stand too let go
Too throw our perfect life away
But whats a perfect life
A perfect home
A "perfect" family
When i'm unhappy

Should I stay.. or should I go

Hello lonely madness
We meet once again
It's too soon, although I did expect to see you
Im just not ready

Hello lonely madness
The numbness is abiding, it never goes away
And when I think it does, we meet again some day
My mind is overtaken
My thoughts are overtook, my heart aches, yet I can't feel a single bit of hurt

Hello lonely madness,
Do you ever go away
They have another name for you
Depression is what they say
You take all the emotion
Not just the love but the pain
And leave me with nothing
Just empty and unframed

Hello lonely madness
Can't you go away
you've taken all my passion, there is not much else left to take
Do you want to see me lifeless
Or locked up in a cell
Maybe you shall get your way
Or maybe, just maybe i'll live another day