Of course
you'd choose her
with that pretty
little smile,
not me
with that crazed
look of mine.

Of course
you'd choose her
cute and small,
not me
pudgy and tall

Of course
you'd choose her
kind and sweet,
not me
a reckless wild treat

Of course
you'd choose her
thoughtful and smart,
not me
who would rather eat a ****.

When will I meet the man
who will choose me
especially with all my insecurities?

I don't like being alone.
I'm left unguarded,
the Darkness grins,
rising within me,
trapping me for the night.

Being around friends,
means safety,
the Darkness can barely touch me there.
So I put on that smile, as if Light fills me
when really the Darkness lurks,
waiting till again I am left vulnerable
without my armour, without the happy façade.

Stupid,
stupid,
stupid
love,
the
reason
our
world
is
tilted
but
also
the
reason
the
world
is
still
right.

Huh,
Suddenly I think someone does care,
Huh,
They’re looking not just to stare,
Huh,
They actually notice me there,
Huh,
Are they actually admiring me?

Huh,
wow.
I never noticed the many
little beauties all around,
waiting patiently to be found.
Huh, I never noticed that flower in the drain,
resilient despite the rain.

Huh, life isn’t so bad is it?

I used to be confident,
invincible,
felt like Supergirl,
thought I was on top,
untouchable.

Then I tripped
and
kept

f
  a
    l
       l
         i
           n
              g
                   f
                      a
                        l
                          l
                            i
                              n
                                 g

and
now
I'm
just
floating,
hovering
without
direction,
lost.