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  Jun 2016 Apachi Ram Fatal
Imotional
Dad
Dad...

I do know I'm a terrible child
who doesn't know everything. 

I do know I want to do what seems impossible
and probably won't get to it.

I do know who I am. Mostly. 
I'll tell you one day.

I do know you care 
even when our views oppose.

I hide away in my room everyday
because I'm not ready...
to tell you who I am,
who I want to be,
what I want to do
and where I want to see.

I feel like I'm living a lie
sometimes I want to die 
or hurt myself until I feel like I am. 
I'm not who I am. 

I'll tell you one day. Hopefully soon.
This was going to be for fathers day but I couldn't bring myself to give it to my dad.
  Jun 2016 Apachi Ram Fatal
Ben
Randy was a roach
Of the american cockroach variety
He was a deep brown and had a sickly shine
To his wings and antennae
And he studied both of us
From a perch in our suitcase
In my girlfriend's East Harlem apartment
In the early hours of a sunday morning

"**** it! Get it out of the suitcase!"
My girlfriend yelled
Flailing her arms
As Randy reclined on our valuables
His antennae twitching

As in most crisis
I hesitated
And Randy burrowed into the suitcase
Past the underwear, collard shirts, and sunscreen

I dug in a frenzy
Rending my girlfriend's meticulous packing plan
And scattering clothes about
All in the name of meaningless destruction

But I couldn't find Randy
"He's probably in the collar of one of your shirts, or in a pair of my shoes"
My girlfriend speculated
And I started shaking the clothes wildly about the room
Wanting more than anything to extinguish Randy's life
To sterilize our newfound stowaways presence
But I never found him
And Randy boarded the plane with us to ***** Cana

While our plane painted dizzying contrails over the ocean
We speculated about Randy's
Most likely devious activities
"I bet he's eating the granola bars under my bikinis"
"I bet there is more than one in there"
"Maybe he's dead?"
"I bet he's laying eggs"
We both pondered over the fact that Randy could be Rhonda
And that we would open the suitcase to a scattering of near microscopic progeny
And we clutched each other in the cold, recycled air of the cabin

When we got to the room
Past all the tin shacks and open air bars
Where the locals sat in plastic lawn chairs
Staring at the tourist shuttles
That carted pale skin behind tinted windows
To decadently decorated rooms where the towels were folded into swans
We opened the bag to see if Randy
Had surfaced, died, or multiplied

But Randy was no where to be seen , a phantom
We unpacked everything under the utmost scrutiny
Not trusting any of the items we had packed so lovingly and repacked
Shaking cover ups and tee shirts like the wind shakes the leaves in autumn
But he never presented himself
And we saw none of his foul brood
We even unzipped the lining
But Randy had simply vanished
Evaporating into the humid, tropical air

I like to think that Randy is somewhere on the island still
That he has impregnated or has been impregnated
That he spends his days under the intense sun
And cottony wisps of clouds
Sipping Presidente
Sitting under an umbrella made of dried palm fronds
Happy to be away from the honking horns and crowded subways
Just like we were
Apachi Ram Fatal Jun 2016
Wickedness of the Evil Eye
Can Be a Beast on Lands

End the Prize and Cover Up
the Weak Like a Priest burdens

a King Beauty Sleep needs
to Finish yell Yiddish through

a Flute Fiddle help groom
Her way Away from floating Gloom

- In the Sky - Mouse of the Ark
Puppet of Time Flood a River

to Design Spawn Upon a Hill Come
String Spring She's done with the thing

Beauty sleep Pries Dont dare Cry
Make Up Articulate Regulate BE

A Starquake - Spark in Space
Talking in my Sleep
Apachi Ram Fatal Jun 2016
Times like this I hate
keeping my feeling
secrets I know them

forbidden angel Falls
in love with humans
My Halo glows Stronger  

brighter faster than unique
amalgamations grow
supreme I feel the

forgetful mind
suspicion and give
way to a gentle

tug of supernatural
Kinetic G-Oddly
Miracle Energy
Rapture
God Loving Humanity
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