i think i've finally done it
you're nothing more
but a sheer friend to me now
you're no longer what i think about
when i wake up
and fall asleep
i've finally been able to abandon
this unrequited and futile love for you

today i realised that
i've finally severed the affinity
that kept my mind so attached
to the thought of you
i can finally return
back to my insouciant nature
all i hope is that this lasts
even if i'm stuck in oblivion
and blissful ignorance

so the denouement of this episode
is that
this love was fraudulent
it's time to move on

farewell to those fruitless memories

i talked to you
i told you
all the things that i feel for you...
you said nothing on the topic,
so im guessing that's what you feel, *nothing

She shouted from the roof tops
Her love for him
And how it would never stop

He simply stared at her
In utter shock
nobody could ever love me
Or so he thought...

She smiled with her arms spread apart
Waiting for a response

He stood there silently
Unable to move but wanting to walk
Walk away from the lies
Cause he'd been hurt too many times

She begged and pleaded
Trying to make him believe
It's the truth she said

But he couldn't respond
Simply turned around to leave
women only hurt me
Was all he could believe
Too much pain and abuse
For those lies to become the truth

She sunk inside herself
Filled with pain and so many tears
After years of trying
She finally faced her fears
Only to be hit with rejection
Imperfections of love
Shown at there finest
She couldn't stand her thoughts...

He slowed his walk
Thought about the past
Suddenly came to realize
This life is your last
And there on that roof top
He may have finally found some hope
So he stopped his walk
Turned around to accept the truth
Only to find
That she had jumped off...

To think I've wasted so many beautiful words on you.
All these poems mean nothing now.
All of these verses just add fuel to the fire of my bitterness.
I'll douse them in gas,
throw them above my head
and set them ablaze while they rain their eloquent ashes down  upon my melancholy soul.
Arrangements once soft and light hearted
now fill me to the brim with negativity that I want to regurgitate back into your mouth and watch you drown on all the stress you caused me.
I want my pain to fill your lungs like fire and pepper spray,
searing through to what's left of your callous heart.
You never deserved me.

too attractive for his own good
too attracted for my own good