I wish he'd write a poem about me.
There's a millions of people who might,
but he's the only one I want to.
Why?
I don't know..
Maybe I like him,
maybe I'm just pathetic.
Maybe I'm just lonely.
Maybe he's the only guy who's been kind to me.
Maybe I just get too jealous.
I think I'm special,
but I'm really not.
Whoever he's in love with,
I hope she's better for him than I'd ever be.
I'm just too jealous of a person.
I just want someone to love me.




*I'm so pathetic

Every night i slip through the sands of time
And escape to the world of dreams
Only to be rudely pushed back into the harsh world of reality the next morning
And i just hate it

You say that you love me
So why don't your actions suggest the same?
All you do is make me cry
And yet you put on me the blame

I don't want no gifts
I don't want no fancy stuff
All i want is a little respect
I think that's not too much to expect

Mean what you say
With my heart...don't just play
You keep hurting me every other day
And make it so difficult for me to stay....
...in this relationship

So please stop hurting me
Love me like you used to
You weren't like this before
Baby...what's wrong with you?

Rekindling old flames and lighting half gone cigarettes is what I'm known for.
It never is quite the same, really. The taste is all but gone, the flint gone from the match before you can even strike it. The taste of you is just a bitter reminder, like kicking that habit for good and taking the first drag off a cigarette in six months.
Then I started over.
There's a difference really from starting an entirely new fire and trying to relight pieces of charred and half burned pine that got rained on. One will burn bright for a minute and fizzle out. The other will burn a lifetime.
That last drag on a new cigarette never tasted more like addiction.

Your life is impacted not just by the things you do but also by the things you don't do.

I had dreamed of this day for many years
I didn't think it would happen
But i secretly hoped that it would
At last...We are finally together!!!
You ask me as to when did i start loving you
Truth be told...
...It's not just now,Darling
I've loved you since the beginning of time
I have taken many a glances at you
I have admired you
I have always kept you in my prayers
We met on a few ocassions
I often saw you at the market place
You were never really noticed me
But it's not your fault
Perhaps i wasn't competent enough to express my love for you
You see...i was apprehensive of the outcome
I didn't think i'd be able to take a rejection
What if i lost my respect in your eyes?
All these thoughts constantly discouraged me from expressing my feelings for you
But then one day i somehow gathered some courage and poured my heart out in front of you
And it worked!!!
Now that we are together...
...i feel so blessed and happy
I can't thank God enough for bringing you into my life
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me
I know i can be a bit of a ***** at times
But thanks for bearing with me and sticking by me
I would be nowhere without you

It's been close to 6 months
I'm trying so hard to forget you
But i just can't
Your memories are stuck to my mind like a strong web
And the more i explore those areas the more it hurts
You reside in every part of my existence
And every effort to delete you from my memory is met with strong resistance
What do i do?
I simply don't seem to have no clue
I wish there was a way to ease the pain
Slowly but surely i'm going insane
I've tried medication
I've tried drinking
I even visited a shrink
But my mind just keeps wandering towards thoughts of you
Wherever go i just keep seeing you
I'm begging you
Please just leave my mind
Please leave me alone
I don't want you anywhere near me
I don't want to have nothing to do with you
Just release me from these shackles of your thoughts
Please....i beg you