I closed my eyes and plugged my nose.
Water filling in my ears,
And coming out as blood.
Ringing and getting louder,
When all I want is silence.
My toes can’t touch.
My heart begins to seize  
I’m sinking deeper and deeper
I can no longer see the sun.
I’m sinking deeper and deeper.
The water fills my lungs.
I’m sinking deeper and deeper
And I can’t swim my way up.
My mouth opens and water pours in.
I’m choking and coughing
But I’m not all at once.
It burns inside my chest,
Like a hell inside my lungs.
I close my eyes and sing to myself
That I’m sinking deeper and deeper
And there’s nowhere to run.
There’s an irony to this that
You may not understand.
But these bricks tied to my feet
Just hit the oceans sand.
Its okay now my dear
The feeling is gone.
Just know that when your drowning
There’s nowhere to run.

my sweet boy,
i love who i am when im reflected in your eyes when you look at me with adoration and affections that cost the sun and stars.
i love the way that the sun hints gold in your shades of grey and blue.
i love they way your hands protect me when i feel full of fear and uncertainty.
i love the way your kisses taste like honey and rain.
i love the way the hints of gold in your eyes reflect the sun
showing the universe that you keep captive inside your soul.
i love when you write little words of “i love you” on my skin with your fingertips,
tracing all of the places i want you to be.

Burning emotions
That we’re changing colors like
Cherry blossoms in bloom.

she is lemons,
boredom,
and sunshine.

Don't forget your the person wrapped in a bow
waiting to stop the tears and
put on your best show.
Don't forget the forgetmenot lying on your grave
all of the came from the last bouquet.
One thing is new in this,
I loved you forever and always,
the sad and the bliss.

Those moments have been stolen.
Those few seconds that we made for love
covered now in hurt and pain.
So easily put in place but even easier to take away.
Things we have said and now regrets,
and regrets that we can't put to rest.

there is no conclusion to this,
only a revelation.

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Late night whispers of endearment
Tossed past our lips onto each other
Slowly being lost.
Slowly being drawn away.
Slowly slipping through my fingers.
Slowly I’m losing you.
Slowly, I whisper your name one last time.
Slowly.
   Slowly.

I think its so easy to forget
those moments where we can just sit
and laugh and cry
as we have the hard day fly right on by.

we pretend that its simple when really it not,
sometimes its just easier to forget and move on.
But we cant lose ourselves in our
moments of peace.
Our moments of ease.
Struggles on bumpy roads and no where to call home.
Sitting here in my lap
are the moments that I've lost
too nothing.

she is ginger,
curiosity,
and thunder.

the stars and space,
makeup love just to know your name
and I can hear it
hear the stars explode
just when you call my name.

I plucked my finger
Against the thorns that are
Wrapped around your heart
And now my fingers bleeding
And your heart is now broken.

Oh sweet boy,
Dance with me beneath the stars,
Hold me until the sky falls and
Remember me when your yearning to forget what it feels like
To fall in love.

Sometimes, the best thing to do
when you have been hurt
is to set your past on fire,
and watch it burn.

Do you remember the freedom we felt as children,
the one that made our hair fly in the wind as we
cast our dancing shadows on the sidewalks in front of our best friend's house.
or how we used to roll down the biggest hills we could find
until our clothes were green and our skin was itchy.
And now I'm an adult who worries about how she looks in a mirror,
and questions if she could ever be enough.
Now I'm an adult who cries when she sees the pain in her family's eyes as they are reminded of the pain she caused.
Now I'm an adult with way too much love lost emotions that I've drowned in my own blood, sweat, and tears.
Now I'm an adult,
sitting on her bedroom floor,
wondering why she lets the years pass so quickly when she was a child.
Now I'm an adult.
And all I want is to roll down a hill again.

Even if you never learn to love me
just know
that you were worth all of it.

Lord, pull me closer,
closer than my skin.
Lord, breathe your life in me
so my lungs may breathe again.
Lord, I am here with praise and thanksgiving.
Hold me closer Oh Father,
then I have ever been.

I hope that you think of me
every time that you see yellow
and smell vanilla.

I hope the love that I left with you
smolders in embers
as you think of me in a distant memory.

I hope that the memories of my kiss
lingers in the back of your mind
as one of the dreams that we dreamed of together.

I hope I am not only the best thing that has happened to you


but that i may also be the person you hate the most,
because of the memory of me.

No matter what you do
Or where you run,
Those shadows that you thought
Were once casted behind you,
They under your skin.

Just when I think I have it all together
it falls apart again.
Just as soon as I gathered my shells from the sea the tide rips them away.
and just that easy
I begin again.
Without pause or break
I pull it back together
just so it can fall apart tomorrow.

memeories of mistakes and
fear holding me back
from the things
that could make me feel
alive.

I stood at the edge of the cliff,
wondering if the death
would be worthy of the fall.

She looks in the mirror and sees her reflection,
her reflection no longer lives.
Instead she suffers.

You my friend decided to harmonize with the devil,
Instead of sing with the king.
And that’s why your life is hell.

There was once a time when
The moon and the sun
Had fallen in love,
And now they can’t stand each other.

I am a lost sheep
Standing in the lights of a train
Speeding too quick
And you are the shepherd
That lost his life to save me.

My love was simple and pure,
we mixed well like tea and honey.
Finding him was an accident,
but loving him was not,
and there is not a missing moment to pass
that I don't remember him.
He rose to the top
and died falling.
And that is the end of our story.

The shadows of your frost bitten cheeks
Lay in the snow so nicely.
And the embers of your fire
That rages inside you when
You’re alone in the darkest hours,
Melts the ice cold brick around my heart.

Tears streaming down her rosy cheeks
And whispers of love that can only
Be heard in the breath of the wind
That is brought by her past.

She is held together by
tenderness and rain.
And this is her story.

Broken-hearted people
Do broken-hearted things.
They hurt people they love,
And leave a few seconds too soon.
But those people with broken hearts,
They’re the best fixer-uppers.
They have these broken pieces
That can fix beautifully into
Any jar, canvas, story and
Whatever else the heart desires.
And when they fit there,
It will feel like it was meant to be
All along.

The sun warms her cheeks,
and the birds and little wooden wind chimes
sing to her happy little lullabies
that harmonize along with the precious children at play on the back porch.

This year will be so much better than the last.

Curtains and draperies
of sunshine and
undeserving affection
sit on my shoulder
like petals of my favorite flower,
Complimenting me in
all of my best places and
drowning the bad in
something more than beautiful.

If you died tomorrow
I don’t think I would mourn you.

Losing yourself
Is nothing less than
Finding yourself again.

Even when I hide from you in the daytime,
You sneak your way into my dreams,
Creating a nightmare.

I remember on my fourteenth birthday,
blowing out the candle and saying to myself,
"I wont be making it past eighteen."

That was four years ago.

One day my shattered heart and broken pieces
Will be put back together
And my hands will reach out to
Touch so many lives
And one day the blood I have bled
And tears that have streamed
Will be mementos of all the reasons
That I will change the world.

she is sugar,
anxiousness,
and rain.

My knees sink deep into the cold tile floor,
My arms lift in praise and my soul sings.
“O Lord” I cry
“I know I am not forsaken.”
I know that my lament is heard,
I know that my passion is known by you Lord.
My knees sink deeper into the tile,
My tears flood the floor.
A song rises from my chest and I shout your name.
“This is yours, Lord, I’m all yours.”
I lay my head in your chest and I’m sinking deep in your presence.
My God, maker of deepest waters,
This is where I want to be, only if it’s with you.

even in your arms,
you've been out of touch.

My life is not found
until the earths death finds me.
My life will be forever,
in my second home,
the home that was meant to be first.
My place here is empty.
My filling is placeless.
My home is a garden,
filled with everything that
was robbed from me.
That I was deprived of.
Everything that fills my heart
will be made better.

My life is not found,
until I’m dead.
When I die,
I will be more alive than before.

The greatest joy I got from this
Was the fact that I am now free.

I remember laying in the grass
feeling the wind dance across my skin,
watching your chest rise with every breath
as he turned closer to me,
he whispers tiny songs of
sweet "i love you."

and that's when i realized i fell in love
all over again.

hey little snowman
sitting alone in your globe.
How does it feel to be trapped inside some place you call home?

You’re a weapon,
And weapons shouldn’t cry.

As each day passes
I realize that sometimes a day by day
can be too much.
That those baby steps that everyone
recommended,
they can be just as tiring as leaping
and jumping.

It’s not because im weak.
I don’t know what it is.

All i know is that i will take things
second by second.

she jumped across the night sky
from star to star
and the moon to the sun.
picking at Orion's belt,
and grabbing on to the little dipper.
she held her hands into the void
waiting to be taken into the
dark,
but instead, she stood by Venus and captured her glare.

Eclipsed memories find their way
Back into my mind again.
No matter how much I try
To make them stop,
They always come back…
Feeding my mind with poison.

The beginning of me
Was simply just
The end of you.

Open your eyes so you can see.
Let lose of those lies
So that you can hear.
Touch the hearts of others
To show them your love.
Awaken your senses
So you can feel me.
I am calling you to lead them back to me
And you cant do that blind daughter.