There I stood looking into your eyes,
I saw a world in them
Where I want to reside,
All this while the sun came and went,
Countless times our wishes with stars,
Went into the black night,
Was it you that caught mine?
i wait for a memory of you
All the times I imagined of how it would be,
I never thought it would be so right,
The moment comes,
Into the night you look for a star to safely send my wish ahead,
Send me back my wish with a kiss,
So I never forget,
For I may never know how it feels,
The truth of what others say,
There's nothing better when it fit so perfectly,
Your hand in mine.

If I could explain to someone,
They'd fall in love with you as I am,
I find you so irresistible I
Want to kiss you and say,
I don't tell the world about you,
For they'd fall in love with you as I am.

Could we just lay on the roof,
And gaze at the stars,
Slowly they'll pass as we spin around,
We'll hold hands and I'll smile as I wonder,
How in the vastness I found you,
Nothing short of a miracle.

Hello my friend,
We meet again,
Just a smile to greet each other,
Then the catching up on life begins,
I didn't realize when we went from life to talking about life,
Running down memory lane,
Like lifelong friends we talk of things like we’re old men.
A sense of comfort seeps in,
As you allow me to be me,
Never asking me to be who you’d want me to be,
And I know this sunny day will go stay in the books of my memory of life,
A time worth more than any possession could be.
So we part with a smile,
Until next time, when it’ll happen all over again,
And we’ll meet like we never parted

You are the sun to my earth, my first prize.

We came together,
To rebuild from the pieces,
Left after the storm.

Let's take a journey to some place new,
Some place with mountains, rivers and the sky blue!
I heard there is a place we know, where trees tickle the clouds,
Where the winds carry an intoxication that makes everything so light,
Come with me on this adventure, we'll jump and skip and climb,
The waters of ice will sooth our bodies, the mist will sooth our souls,
We'll have tea in nature's lap, we will gaze at the stars and know our place in the universe,
It sounds so good I too wondered if this was true,
I have seen with my own eyes and I wondered where it was I had arrived,
Some call it Himachal, some call it the valley of god,
Hot springs with sulphur made me feel like I was made of air,
Every breathe was an appreciation to my being alive,
The people so kind, never in a rush,
It's all true, let's go!

The crescendo rose, the final act upon them. The fluid motions of dance, poetry in motion, just stole the viewers away from their seats. As she rose to the finale, about to make the final jump, like all the other times she knew not what was going to happen, if he’d catch her. She jumped anyways, not because the show had to go on, because she saw in his eyes the assurance that he’ll not fail her. So she jumped from above, to fall into the arms she trusted.

Sometimes, I hear
What occurs is for the best,
Then, could someone
Tell me how,
That when I fall in love
I fall and hit the ground?
Could someone tell me why,
The one I love,
I can never call mine?
Why every time I reach out,
I get burnt?
What is there for me,
But the scars?
Why do I see her through the glass,
Unable to reach out,
To the other side,
First distance wore me out,
Then time separated,
Last she told me not to love her,
Could I ever explain,
Once written
The words wouldn’t erase,
As my love always slipping away,
I see in despair
And wonder in pain,
How is it for the good,
When every time I fall in love,
I fall and hit the ground?

Excellence, in my humble opinion, is overrated some times,
Critiquing society while being a part of it is a little hypocritical,
Life is often suffocating, making us feel worthless,
Like we have achieved nothing in our lives,
But it takes so much courage and strength to be oneself every day,
Let the stray voices bring you down not be heard
And remember you are who you were born to be,
You didn't have to be able to fly to be my Superman

Don't make me live without you

A good day has been long since had,
There was no dark cloud in the sky,
Or something such, but the absence of one.
With the lack of rain and something more,
Passed day after day with habitual motion,
There was no cloud, there was nothing wrong.
The everyday was so uninspired,
We begged for rain so that we might again,
After the gloom appreciate the sun.
But we denied ourselves contentment,
Because we discovered something beyond the sky,
Then in passing we sought each other,
Hoping to share something more,
Like how we were happy with the sky,
Then the rains, then back to the sky,
With the lack of we learned to appreciate pain.  
With the chaos of unplanned fun,
We called it a good day again.

Pretending for so long,
I guess I forgot to live.
Can't say where it all failed,
When I got used to the despair,
Staying awake searching for myself in the dark,
Sleeping off the day light,
Am I broken?
Or just without direction?
Voices in my head tempting me,
To escape to fantasy,
Living wasn't supposed to hurt so much,
Be such a burden...
There is no reset button.
I stopped learning with this saturation.
Its time to wake up and take the blame.

There is an uncertainty that resides within,
Where meaning should be,
Forehead weighed down by a frown,
Where bliss should be,
A dampened spirit lies in wake,
Where belief should be,
Escaping the world,
The world where I should be,
Looking away from what is,
Looking for where I would like to be,
There is ignorance at purpose,
Where doing should be,
There is a Depression,
Where life should be.

I can't feel the world outside,
It’s heat trying to reach me.
I’m trapped in this Styrofoam house,
Where my identity bathes in itself,
Out of touch from the world is a bad place to be!
I’m not necessarily alone,
But sometimes in this Styrofoam box I’m lonely.
Not too bad, just a little irritating to the skin.

One day will come again,
When we will waste the night,
Talking about distant things,
Watching the stars cross the night sky,
Away from the world we'll watch the sun rise.

Under bulletproof glass
I'll keep our dreams,
When the night is right
They will find our eyes,
In them I'll see you,
I'll see you soon.

Fear is interesting.
It strengthens some.
Makes some irrational.
Cripples me in my tracks.
I fear, that I am not good enough.
Not for others, for myself.

"Lets make a deal",
I said to you,

"That I'll miss you,
When you're not around",
I hoped you'll miss me too,

"It would be nice
To have you around,
Time and again",
Truthfully I wished forever,

"Everyday, even if
It is right at the end,
I want to hear all about yours,
So I don't miss a thing",
And may be you'll want to hear about mine,

"I know I can't protect you,
The world is too big,
But I can be there
To unburden your thoughts,
To ease the pain",
When you smile everything is right,

"You don't want the world
At your feet, I can live
With giving you my best,
In this incompleteness
You are my missing truth,
There, I said the obvious",
Does it scare you?

"In return of your side
Of the deal, I promise
For as long as I live,
I will love you,
All things in the world,
Cannot compare to when I can say,
I'm yours",
Yours to keep

Happiness, contentment, peace,
They are all but petty,
When I am dying,
Drowned in the void
Left by you
When you stole my heart.

I asked for you,
To melt me
With your fire.
I asked for snow,
To numb the truth,
Instead this December,
The sky gave company to my tears,
Drenched my soul in the rains.

The warmth from the light kept his mind on track, he thought of one thing as the light grew brighter, the fire catching all the wood.
Light faded from his eyes, he slipped into the last ever memory he had of her. He wished he’d died, he wondered why it wasn't the last memory of his life.

She was sitting beside him on the couch, her feet in his lap. She looked so beautiful in the soft light, her eyes shone with a sparkle alive with the dancing flames.

He looked to her and said, “Always, I always am unable to tell you… You know?”

“What do you mean? What do you want to tell me?” She asked him playfully, almost teasing him.

“I mean, I like… No, I love you…” He shied away from her piercing gaze.

“Aww” Chuckling at him, she asked, “Why don’t you look at me, and tell me what you love about me?”

Like a different person, but not quite, he slowly caressed her feet, lightly kissing them, “I love your feet, yes I do. I love your legs,” He spoke in whispers between the kisses he planted on her. “I love your soft thighs, I could rest my head there all day, looking up at you laugh. I love your soft belly. I love these soft hands. I love every bit of you…” He whispered last as he began to kiss her softly. “You know how long I've wanted to tell you that I love you?”

“No. Tell me” Her voice slipped out as a caress to his ears, as from closed eyes her lips tried to find his, as he toyed with the space between them.

“I've loved for much of the little while I know you, since the day I realized you are the one I want by my side, when I look besides”
Kiss.
“You I miss when I see my empty hand. You who’s taste I’ll remember in my mouth”
Kiss.
“You I want in my hands here, forever.”
Kiss. She tried to get up, she saw her phone ring.
“Don’t go. Don’t leave please”
Kiss.
“I love you so much, you make me feel like the world belongs to us. Mine to win”
Kiss.
“Don’t go”
He looked into her eyes, that sparkled with the dancing flames from the fireplace.
He looked at her one last time.

Chasing the hands
While they run away,
Tireless
The musings of every day,
Their charm wears off of me,
I noticed those cracks really late,
The cracks in my house
Showing signs of weathering,
The cracks in my behaviour.

If I woke up one day to not remember you

Your hushed laughter so sultry,
Makes me want to kiss you over and over,
And taste you top to bottom,
You **** thing

Mist that bears on my mind,
I sift through to gather my thoughts,
Like sand they escape my grip,
Making signs along the corner of my vision,
Mocking me, teasing my failure to grasp them,
I know an idea lies therein,
If only this fog would lift,
Where is the sun that can cleanse my being,
Free me of this mist?

From our birth we travel,
To our home,
To school,
With family and friends,
Discovering new places,
In the process discovering ourselves,
From mountains and continents,
Across the oceans we shot for the moon,
Soaring through the skies,
One day we may journey to a another planet,
We endure, till we travel to our graves.
Forward is the only direction,
So keep walking,
Towards to our future.

Are you ready?
Ready for an adventure,
The adventure you always wished,
We can go anywhere you want,
Lying right outside your door,
A decision away,
Past a slight fear of the unknown,
Give me your hand,
Hold on tight,
I am about to open the door

This door between us,
I can feel you on the other side.
It pains to know this only hurdle between us,
Deadbolt, I’m locked outside.
I hate to hear your cries there,
I smile when I hear you laugh,
The times I wished I could break it down,
But this lifeless bolt to me won’t answer.
One fear I have, that you hold the key,
And you left me out.
Worst, you lost the key.

I'm Hurt.
Hurt that I couldn't do anything, do something,
I am sorry father, I am so so sorry,
That I couldn't be my best,
I couldn't be my best for you,
I know I have disappointed you and myself,
Now our time cut short. .
I couldn't say how much I love you,
How much I need your
A pillar of strength and safety net
How pathetic that I selfishly make this about me, even as I try to be honest to you.

Of memories with you I could have had,
That you could see me grow more,
So I can finally give you back even if a fraction of what you have done for me,
Threads and intentions left unfinished,
I am so sorry papa for everything that I did and everything that I didn't,
I keep thinking as you were in this sleep,  
From anaesthetic to eternal. . I keep talking and only hope you hear me

We need you, I need you, please come home,
Please papa, come home
How was it that it turned out to be the last time we met, the last time we spoke,
The last time from home you left,
This finality is so hard to accept,
I don't know how to let goz
I miss you so much papa,
It hurts so much everytime it hits me all over again. .

See you dad, I hope you're in a better place,
You know the doors to your home are always open

I wanted to write about my bed,
Of how I wanted to sleep in it always,
All inspired I fell asleep instead.

I reached out, but the stars are too far away

In my happiest moments I think of you,
To share my world with you,
On my sad days I want to protect you from the world,
On your victories I want to make you feel how special you are,
Every day when I wake up I want to tell you how much I love you,
Cherish how I am yours,
Even when you are never mine.

With pillows on our heart to save
From bruises and misfortune and that person we love,
Intoxicated to our toes in magic of our brains,
Holding hands to assure a future where you smile,
Waiting to make promises we will break,
But that didn't matter in the moment
Your eyes spoke to mine,
Afraid of what was coming,
Afraid that we were going to hurt later,
Yet, unafraid for it all didn't really matter,
The day stood still witnessing the sparks,
Flying from our lips as they collide.

Staring at the halo of passing lights,
Painting the walls I stare as I lay in bed,
It is not sleeplessness that keeps me awake,
It is the lack of your presence,
Like a child carefree in a mother's embrace,
Like a lover's comforting arms after a tiring day,
I thought tonight may be it would be nice,
To fall asleep with your arms around me,
So if I ever woke up in the middle of the night,
I could look up to find you beside me,
Lean in a little closer so you won't go,
Drift in to sleep without a thought for tomorrow.

Always seeking for the right love,
Pursuing the right life,
Wishing for stars and things higher above,
Guess I was never meant for that kind of story,
Too stubborn to give up what I saw as perfect for me,
I know I was right, may be they were wrong,
Or just misplaced at that moment,
Chasing dreams and desires of being something more,
Who knew it was so simple as getting a heart for what I got,
A heart that can beat through anything.

Shivers ran down my spine,
As I heard the song play,
Goosebumps tingled on my skin,
With the crowd we sway,
In the euphoria of having you besides,
Dancing I want the night to stay,
Have I gone mad?
So this is pure ecstasy

One day you're the birthday child,  
You just wait,
Wait for a while,
While I'm dying.
Growing old is okay,
But I can't live this way,
I fear losing you along the way,
It is imminent, this parting,
So won't you smile,
For today we're alive,
When I go, I will miss you,
Will it count, When I'm not around?
Will you ask me to stay,
Or take me with you,
To the other side?
I seek no eternal judge,
I just seek some nice tea,
Thinking about how you like your coffee,
Laying together and staring at the night sky,
I will wonder how we found eachother,
Right there I could live forever,
Always hoping for immortality with you,
While I'm dying.

I didn't realize it’s raining,
How long has it been?
Seems like the days ending…
Look, the city seems to be still,
I think I can hear its heart beat,
Or is it mine?
The murmur of the rain swallows and washes away all we say,
Let’s sit and talk, you know how I like to hear you say,  
Sitting at the window,
Hearing the rain talk its soft pain,
As it beats against the walls,
We wish our time away,
Chasing the droplets racing down the glass.

Like many others there was a child,
From a well of infinite dreams with others he picked some,
In the wake of unbound imagination,
He was a champion of his world,
He saw the skies as his playground,
His nascent mind held no limitations.
Growing older he was taught of the world,
Of what he could do, what man could not,
He learnt of gravity, how it made things fall,
The weight of the knowledge bore him down,
Plucking him from the skies, rooting him to the ground.
With a few broken hearts, failures to be someone,
Stranded in his reality, he looked to the clouds,
Questioning his learning, he began to unlearn,
Becoming from man to child again,
Gaining new perspective on his notions,
Gravity he saw, was not to hold him down,
But to hold the universe together,
Something he could overcome.
Reaching the skies he built his house,
Teasing the heavens, yet rising from the ground,
A monument to remembering who he is,
To never again be someone else.

Sometimes I am right,
Sometimes I am wrong,
I may not admit to you,
But I am not blind
To my mistakes.
I live with them everyday.

Chasing you up the hill,
Panting to a halt on our knees,
Soon lying on the grass
Even when we could see below
Our world, you lay and saw to the skies,
Like every time you lead me,
I'll follow you till I can't,
When I stop I'll remember you,
On a rainy day when I seek the sun,
I'll forget to worry over small things,
I'll remember you when I walk alone in cold nights,
I'll remember your smile that makes me warm,
I'll remember you so when you're lost I can remind you,
You are alright.

Heart-Beat
Heart-Breaks
Heart-Beat
Heart-Aches
Heart-Beat
Heart-Craves
Heart-Beat
Heart-Stops
Heart-Beat
Heart-Again.

Push and pull they play,
Water crashing ashore
Bursting into foam,
A silent murmur calling,
Calling for embrace
We leave footsteps in the sand,
The waves wash the ties away,
Playing in water like we belong,
Embracing the sea, as it toys with us,
Pushing us out, pulling us in,
Swallowing the sun.

Its all a vivid blur,
You danced,
There was surely some cake,
And a lot to drink!
A drink became 4 and I lost count
(Not that I'd admit to the number)
By the end there was spirit and happiness,
We didn't care for tomorrow,
There was us and the night,
May be it was the liquor,
But I was smiling,
As I passed out on your bed,
Closed my eyes and breathed in.

When you grow, when you learn to walk, you will stumble, you will fall. The sun, while it may get harsh sometimes, on the brightest day it will bring you a smile. The moon, the ocean and the tides, they dance their dance, and as it rains you will wonder, of how glad you are of your home. You may wake up to look at the empty side of the bed, at your empty hand, you will want some one to fill that space. You won't know why you want them so much, you will want to give them your everything. You will take comfort in knowing some one else is glad of your existence, a glint in their eyes when they see you, you want to hold that light forever. Some may break your heart, but that is okay, you will have your hands to build yourself a safe place. The troubles, they may seem to never go away, but you will sleep, and you will wake up to another day, another beginning. It is not a fight, don't waste your time struggling, just keep moving ahead and you will find you survived the storm and you find your own island, where you are king.

When you grow, when you learn to walk, you will stumble, you will fall, but through these paths you will begin to run, one day, you will fly.

Here i dropped through that crack in the floor, something had happened, what I didn't know. I see a world of miracles around me, a beauty of no match. There I saw a child’s first toy, like the most precious in the world to him, there I saw another held so closely, safe in her mother’s arms. I walked about in what seemed the world of fantasy, and I couldn't help but smile at all these things around me, everyone seemed to be happy, seemed to have that very thing they’d wanted all their lives… It was a very sunny place, with all the positivity.

Spending some time there started to build in me an uncertainty, as everyone seemed to be stuck in their moment of glory, I saw events happen over again, someone running into the arms of their beloved in a wild moment, and there seemed to creep an unspoken desperation in my conscience….

Travelling this somewhat twisted wonderland, I came across something that told me what I was doing here… There I saw myself with a woman without a face, with many faces, the woman I love… The pain was numbing. This was the wasteland of lost hopes and dreams, and maybe I am here because someone lost hope on me.

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I wanna lie in with you,
Caress you cheeks like its the best thing,
As I run my fingers through your hair,
Drawing you in for a kiss,
My hands run down your spine
I feel you like the work of art you are,
Tangled in your embrace like a blanket

Lacking intent like a rock lying,
On a beach getting weathered to sand,
Slowly witnessing my own demise.