Insignificant conversations
Faux-friendly smiles
The agonizing transition
Into a dull and lack luster routine
My reality: no job will ever be
As full of joy and excitement
No job will ever be as rewarding
No increase in salary could ever replace
The love so freely given
The love that gave me purpose
MOM is the greatest job of all
MOM is the only title that fits
MOM.
MOM was me.

I watch
I wait
I close my eyes
And pray
For the struggle to end
For peace to begin
I pray to you
I pray to God
I'm praying more
Than i ever thought
I look for you
In the light
In the dark
You are my whole heart.

Leti, my Leti
my beautiful little girl
your smile so big and happy
your hair dark and full of curls.
Leti, my Leti
my precious little girl
So full of life, so full of love
you're everything that's ever mattered
My entire world.
Leti, my Leti
Life, without you, has no meaning
The days never end.
But I push forward, waiting...
for that day in heaven...
Waiting for that day I will see you again.

I am not an option
I am a **** good choice.
Despite my scars and insecurities,  
I am a prize!

I built the barricades to keep people out.
And I want to let you in.
But I can't make myself vulnerable around you.
All the love I still have for you,
all the love I long to show.
you make me feel like I'm just an option.
Like you could take me or leave me and it wouldn't make a difference.

To think...you mean the world to me and I have allowed this.
I've allowed it; it's the only way I could keep you.
I need you more than I'm willing to admit.

After all that we've been through, you make me question my own heart.

But every day I must push onward, putting myself first.

I am not an option.
I am a **** good choice.
Despite my scars and insecurities,  
I am a prize!

Leave a door open for us
Even a crack will do

And I'll leave my window latch unlocked

****, boy
I really do miss you.