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384 · Jul 2016
A torn heart
andrew juma Jul 2016
He forages on my doubts
Keeps me sleepless with distress
The real me is envious of me
She is all he wants
Can she stand the real me?

I resent the disgraceful me
Can't look at my reflection in the mirror
He threatens my core existence
So I fight to keep him burried

He mocks, taunts and mortifies
Even as she tells me I have beautiful eyes
It is good she cant peep inside through those windows
And see the struggles inside

I keep him padlocked in the depths
Listen to music and tour nice places
But in the quietest of moments
He creeps back to me

Dampens my spirit
Telling me I am way below
Not good enough
That I will ***** up as always

It is worrying what he can do
Destroy a lifetime in a day
Turn love to hate in a moment

But I wont let him hurt her
I'll leave her if I have to
The struggle to be a perfect man
369 · Dec 2015
Reminiscent
andrew juma Dec 2015
Dont say i didnt tell you,
Dont say i didnt say that someone always ends up hurt
Another fled, the other i pushed away, but you stayed,
Its my fault you hurt, for lending me your heart,
You...i liked you alot you know
...i should have locked you out,
Pushed you away when you came in...
You ...your serene big white eyes made me think otherwise,
Know that i tried...know that i believed...
But the winds kept tagging hard...
You brought calm over me...
I thought i was soulless with my blasting rock music...
But you saw what even i couldnt see...
I have not obliterated you from my heart completely,
Even thought the winds change, you will always be here,
Though youre already gone
Because you Fridaad my heart.
365 · Dec 2015
R.I.P
andrew juma Dec 2015
She married him only last week,
Seeing his caskate makes her weak,
Her tears a constant drizzle,
The 'why' is still a riddle
He was the only son of a widow,
always by her side like a shadow,
A stray bullet went through his head,
She meant the whole world,
His soulmate ,
heaven could not wait,
the worst landing of a pilot
She wishes she could change the  fate,
The priests says rest in peace,
The relatives bead their farewells,
In their dark dresses as it drizzles,
Her parents are now 'the late,'
Her only hope and light,
She is the  new target,
She seeks  the love in the streets,
He  finds comfort in his drinks,
Her old  heart weakens in her mourns,
A dark emptyness on each soul,
As days pass it gnaws and grows,
A passageway for the Angel in Black ,
YCan one break  the cycle?
Another procession of black lays the caskate,
No one escapes the fate,
    Rest In Peace.







Sending…
they said human beings are like grass, like wild flowers, in the morning they grow and blossom, in they evening they wither.
362 · Feb 2016
Untitled
andrew juma Feb 2016
Rouse thyself up introvert
I know thou be just like me
Thou canst be heard in thy silence
Thou be wise in thy discreetness

Speak thee now
I give  thee the power of the ink
Write what thou thinketh
What thou learneth
When thy lips be sewn

Thy knowledge runs deep
In the deep of thy heart strength abides
Much more strength
That overcomes the voices

Write thy thoughts
thy formula for strength
Speak thy mind now

Before something dreadful
Takes this from thee
Something is looming
Stormy clouds are getting darker

The world is getting colder
Speak thee now
I give thee an uncorrupted art
An invaluable mouthpiece
I give thee poetry
Dear child
358 · Aug 2016
Love song
andrew juma Aug 2016
Somewhere in the town I heard a strange humming lullaby
That I've never heard before
As my heart beat It made a match to her humming lullaby
Her presence was unexpected
Now I feel protected
Just by having her warmth

She is the only one that understands my story
My worries and my sorrows
She gives me a feeling that no one else can

Her touch is so, magical
And the beat of her gentle touch is so classical
While she places some kisses on my lips I'm so,
gentle to her because her fragile touch reminds me that she is the only one

Possesing every inch of me
She modifies my disposition with her magical hands
So I hit play and wind her back

When my world seems gloomy
She arrives with the sun
And slowly she tosses the sun rays Reminding me that every is alright
I lay back and give her control

She beats the pain out of me
When i turn on my speakers
Her carresing hands so sensitive begin to touch

Exitement and anticipation builds
I hold her tenderly in my arms
And sink slowly away in her lyrical pureness
On our ecstatic trip to paradise

She meets all of my needs
So i ****** to the beat,move every part of me
Moment of total bliss
As I explore every inch of her curves

With her its a perfect world
With smooth lines she serenades
Chanting sweetly about my prowess
Twirling and jingling with fondness

Falling for her allures
I perform the hardest contortions
Marinade myself in her positive vibes
My hands tight around her

Rhythm changes,
We go high ,we go low
then higher like shooting stars
Breathlessly till we ******
And start on the free fall

She is my shoulder to cry on
My molly to feel mellow
Her love spell is so powerful
She does all that I please

She hypnotises me with intense lyrics
Reminds me of lost passion
Future love and magic
As we move along in slow steps

A love song
She is there whenever I desire her
She is forever youthful and beautiful
Her tune is full of promises

She lights up my blues
Laughs with me and cries with me
Till the beats fade away
Carrying with them my pensive moods

When the sun kisses the sky for good night
She makes sure that tonight the sky is full of star's and with the moon

Laying in my bed room before I sleep
She wraps her arms around me
Till we fall asleep

All I need in this world is her glitter touch of her soul
And her glitter soul
Forever in my world

DET & Andrew Juma ©2016
In love with a lovesong. magical collaboration. pleasure working with you DET!
350 · Aug 2016
Mirror by my bedside
andrew juma Aug 2016
Mirror by my bedside
Why are you in cahoots with the inner man?
Expose him
Give me a three dimension reflection

What you hide
When you feed my fantasy?
What sentiments you keep burried
Among a thousand reflections?

Plastic reflections you give me
Sunrise and sunsets
Thriving in impressions
You suffocate the real me,vainly

Can you see past my face?lets face it,
In darkness will you see a light in this heart?
In light will you reveal hiding gloom?

Lift off your make-up tonight, dont fake it
Show me where
Visions thin into illusions
Strip it all down, give me the explicit

An imperceptive liar you've become
You frustrated some
They smashed their fist into you, lied to you
Everything that you hide someday explodes

Show me you so I show you me
Be true
And I will be real
Don't care how long it lasts
342 · Mar 2016
State of the heart
andrew juma Mar 2016
Waves of sensation have washed your coast
Some have warmed your cockles
Others have made you freeze
And miss a beat

I have fought to protect you from both extremes
Fought with light and darkness for soberness

I have wiped my memories for your good
I have built castles in the air for you

I have held you to my chest with selfishness
And while she believed,
I didnt give away even a crumb of you

The result?
Depravity, loneliness
It ***** life out of me
Im going to live and let live
I surrender
Struggles
327 · Dec 2015
the feast of the beast
andrew juma Dec 2015
How my roots reached deep  i dont  understand,
Just a dip of the finger in honey was once
Then twice to hundreds of times,
I feel the thing taking over like a master sometimes
This aint honey any more
Now i feel im done, not defeated you know
Im done of my afflictions to this addiction
Time was true to my conviction before  accusation,
Many days waiting for the planetary alignment
A single focus was after enlightment ,
the light to the darkness was my endowment,
Evade its craving and fate of the cascate as the beast chuckles on the feast
Enraged i clench my fist,
tragic loves and terrible betrayals its taste
The missed flights and broken plans
Judge not lest you be judged,
The beast in me demanding to be fed
What it asks is unnatural and weird,
Pushed a catholic  for pork on lent
All my days fighting i spent
Sometimes i win this fight sometimes i lose to its palate,
thinning my wallet
But now am wise and i realise,
What am i even fighting for,
I call the shots  and therefore,
The beast imma lock him up in darkness for ever,
The might of the conscious is bigger
Imma tap just to a quarter
Replace this bad habit and tell the devil to kiss my ***
324 · Dec 2015
MEMORIES
andrew juma Dec 2015
darkness starts to fade
A time to get out of bed

she comes to me six  in the morning,
****** fragrance wafting,

eyes smokey, voice caramelized,
her gaze  making me hypnotized

arousing desires in the deepest places,
A tell of temptations

A godess,
That leaves you wordless

Her small ******* like a bunch of wild dates
Lips dripping wet

Inviting me in her tropical jungle
Blackberries ready for pluck

Her curvy thighs my delight
tantalizing piece of art

Sprawled over my bed
telling me she is mine

Unlocking secret pleasurables
free of all wearables

the golden old
tales of good times

a part of the past
That pops up in the future

And when youve grown old
You'll  say "the good old times...'

She will always visit from the past,
Feeling you with lust

Memories
Sweet memories are really sweet
314 · Aug 2016
*
andrew juma Aug 2016
*
Where do they go
Those who vanish from the face of the earth?
Do they find peace?

Can a broken heart be mend there?
Does wretchedness end or stick
Do they find new beginnings?

I can die for a fresh start
But one can never be sure
So I keep having these thoughts...
trapped in the dark
300 · Jul 2016
Bloody World
andrew juma Jul 2016
What are we really fighting,
Spending millions of dollars on weaponry budgets
Delivering moving speeches on war politics
Puffing with haughtiness boasting supremacy

Fighting ideology with bullets and bombs
Too busy cutting branches but leaving the tree
If we got it right we would be free
But now in all the bloodiness we saw seeds

The belief lives on even after names are erased
If we understood the enemy we would attack the roots
Remove myopia and led everyone multifocal lenses
So no one natures the vicious cycle

But right now we are missing the targets
Hating, marginalizing, obliterating with missiles
Dropping bombs on parks, hospitals and bus stops
Caught up in it are children and innocents

Maybe now its time for plan B
Since you can't bomb your way out of it
Lets build trust and address causes
Show strength in love and not arsenal

“ In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. I think it’s impossible to really understand somebody, what they want, what they believe, and not love them the way they love themselves. And then, in that very moment when I love them.... I destroy them" Ender's Game.
What are we really fighting?
295 · Sep 2016
the poetess
andrew juma Sep 2016
She glides across the sky at dawn
To come light up my night with her golden glimmer
Her nourising words heal my hurt
As the warm stanzas wrap around my heart

I love the way she sculpts the words
Carving me poetic wings
We mound the winds and chase after happiness
Across the early morning sky

One day I hope
My verses will find her lyrical womb
And make her pregnant with a dozen suns
To rein over the dark realms forevermore
291 · Mar 2015
The warewoolf
andrew juma Mar 2015
Lonely man...lonely soul
Keeps to himself a world of solitude
A world of secrets
....night crops in...
Birds flatter in the dark trees...long shadows....silhouettes
Night of the full moon, bats cry nervously.
Man seized with fever...sweating....groaning....
hair growing longer body growing bigger
Clothes start to fall off...a distant howling is heard..,a tail springs
Beast man falls on all fours
Jumps through the window...on to the rooftop... Deciding where the howling came from...springs down and runs fast into the woods...
Looking for his pack.far away from humanity....in the dark rim, he howls again, a thunderous roar...the alpha is around
The pack sits.... long snouts gazing at the   moon, watching the clouds go by...there in the night...the urge to test blood engulfs his wild heart.
283 · Aug 2016
The Rhythm of His Love
andrew juma Aug 2016
My heart beats to the rhythm,
It dances like a butterfly,
In tge glimmering glory of His love
Which flows like a waterfall from above

Oceans way from home,
My destination lost in the hazy horizons,
Engulfed in loneliness I still find peace,
My mountain of hope and belief still stands

The beat of His love makes my heart dance
A song of hope even in blues
I feel revivified like drenched leaves
After a midsummer rain

And I forget all the pain
I soar and dive like ocean tides
In the golden sunrise
When He commands dark storms to be still

Nothing can bring me down
To His name only I bow
He's the stringer of this song called life
The pianist who makes my heart to dance
281 · Dec 2015
the whisper of the moon
andrew juma Dec 2015
Ive ignored her on most nights,
acted like i didnt care
Because she was always there,
But in darkness i  miss her  shimmering
She goes across the sky
The light of day reflecting
Down on the empty street below
As echoes of bats  bellow
Her insistent persistance,
giving hope to thieves and watchers,
A little help to party goers
she cant let them all be alone
The moon
What a loathsome night it would be
Ghosts and demons reigning,
Like on a night she is hiding
Nightmares tormenting
Dutifully she  rises again
Calls out all stars in the galaxy
And begin the journey round the earth,
Round and round for eons
Before they invented neons
She  never discloses her age
But her beauty is vintage
In the dead of the night,
When stars glitter and crickets chirp,
I hear her whisper,
How much longer?
274 · Dec 2015
steps in life
andrew juma Dec 2015
When i was a kid
I did all i could
Till i crawled

Even though others walked
I struggled till i crawled

After i crawled,
I knew i had to walk

I worked every early
Step fall step,
step fall
Baby steps

As others ran
I concetrated on mine
Get these feet together

and roll, i rolled on
from walking, to running
To jumping

One at a time
No engineering of sort
To help me overpass a step

With zest i moved 1,2 next
With faith
And patience

Let them that fly fly
Let them that walk walk
Let everyone mind their step

— The End —