I sit inside my head,
Alone
Alone
Alone again,
No one to comfort,
No one to care,
No one to hold me,
Or play with my hair,
No one to listen,
No one to see,
That there is a darkness eating away at me.

I want to fill the bath tub up,


And fall asleep in it.

I fall into your grasp again,
Awaken me,
Flesh on flesh,
Iridescent moons,
I lick the wounds,
Cuddle--caress,
Please hold me again,
My thoughts turned grey,
Sorrow--aching,
Words that play,
The little violin in the hearts of all
Saddened girls.

Pounding my fist upon the wall,
Please tell me it will all make sense one day.

I stare into the mirror,
Afraid,
I am afraid of the girl staring back at me,
Drip drip drip,
From wounds on wrists,
My body craves being held,
In strong arms,
I laugh when I cry,
Those dogs still howling,
Weeping into night,
Frighten me,
Make me feel
Alive.

There above the clouds,
Above the trees,
The brightest light,
Waves hello in the night sky
Calling to me.

As if the wind,
Could swoop me up,
Send me out into that deep dark sky,
To hold that star,
I wish to hold it in my hands.  

How odd it is,
To look up at it so far,
To feel its presence,
Feels like home that star,
It lays snug in the inky depths of space.

As if some great power was calling to me.

I knew exactly what I wanted,
Could form the image in my mind,
Perfectly,
To live within my blue dream,
Smell it's lilac,
But never the ability to attain it.