she responds in words as well
not in any beat but of the heart's,
she knows he can feel her,
no matter how far apart
she hears his voice in the sun
she feels his fingers in the sea
he's closing in on her
it's his, she longs to be

I find it easy not to love you,  
but after all these years, that only lasts about 30 seconds
For it is your love that does beseech my innermost thoughts, takes a grip on my senses, never to be set free,
Your beauty , not a parody,
unrivalled in its power to render human flesh lifeless, statuesque I stand,
You found me,  I was hiding,
you love me , I am now alive

I am not feeling well does not just mean the temperature you see on that thermometer,
it also means my body and it's burning desire to no longer be alive
I am not feeling well does not just mean my head feels heavy and I want to sleep,
it also means my heart is sinking to my feet and i physically feel it in my veins
I am not feeling well does not just mean I need a painkiller to take away the pain,
it also means i am dying to reach for the blade and tear my skin apart to feel something
I am not feeling well does not just mean the food I ate is making me feel like throwing up,
it also means my entire existence makes me sick to the point of death
I am not feeling well does not just mean I will feel better after I take this nap,
it also means i will take nap after nap after nap after nap hoping to feel alive again
I am not feeling well does not just mean my joints hurt and I need to slow down
it also means my body is tired of fighting a losing battle and i give up

because some days,
i wear my depression and
some days,
*my depression wears me

Don’t ask me
how I am
‘cause fine I can
never be

When you think
I’m happy and carefree
I’ve just drowned myself
in your company

When you see me
dancing in the rain
you fall in love
with me yet again

For me, I’m just
trying to lose
myself in the
dripping pain

When you see me
laughing hysterically
you think to yourself
you’ve found a gem

Me, I’m just
trying to hold back
all my tears that may
breakout my inner self

For you, I tried to
put on a happy face
and many a time
feel it too

But somehow
this pain is
far too
deeply etched

I don’t know
if these chains
are made by me
‘cause really
I try to break free

But every single time
I find myself
clutched more tightly
by these killing flames