Amanda

Amanda Nov 2016

Taken (a message to soldiers from the government)

I took something from you,
sweet stranger
you'll never get it back
the sounds of explosions
that causes the permanent
ringing in your ears
the weight upon your back
the smell of blood piercing your nose
the taste of ammunition
clenched between your teeth
the sight of your men falling to the earth,
never given a second chance
will never fade.
you cannot escape it, my friend
you had no choice
they had no choice
we never get to choose.

#war #lost #innocence #draft #government

Amanda Jul 2016

The Fall

When we were young, the world was our own.
But what would come with time, was completely unknown.
We were innocent, wild and carefree.
We used to play outside, just you and me.
But something happened, something large and bold,
Leaving our souls weak to turn cold.
I look outside, nostalgic and morose.
The grass we used to play on is dead, of course.
We cannot change time they say.
But I need just one more day
to go back and experience it all
Before that Great Epic Fall.

loss of innocence

Amanda Jun 2016

Love Clock

Clocks are striking
Mind is spinning
Falling down, I make no sound.
I cannot speak
With you near me, I feel so weak.
Love consumes me
With you, I feel so free.
With you, all I do is smile,
and I know I could stay like this for quite awhile.
The clock is ticking,
onetwothree
I need you here with me.
Endless time could I spend with you
Be mine, and I will be yours too.

Amanda Dec 2015

Eden

Once we were green,
Happy as can be.
Our youth a shield,
It was just you and me.
But something snapped within those years,
Leaving you, a wildflower
and me, in tears.
Later, your petals began to fall
and I have watched it all
Through careful eyes
While yours were blind.
Now your leaves look down upon the earth
For so many years you silenced your worth.
From the Garden, rooted here,
I watch my memories of you slowly disappear.

Amanda Dec 2015

Gone

Here I am,
There you are.
The humanity in us has fled,
Never to return again
It once kept us grounded for so long
But it has gone, leaving us to float along
In an atmosphere we once looked to for salvation
Emptiness fills the space
And we wonder how we've fallen so far from grace.
We drift farther and farther away now
But we are lost
We are gone.

Amanda Sep 2015

Everything is Forced

Every smile is forced
Every laugh is fake
Everything is a disaster, whatever I make.
I hate writing such sad poems
But this is who am I and where I belong.
"I will struggle to hang on,
don't you worry,"
I say as my eyes fill with water
and my vision is blurry.

Amanda Aug 2015

RIP j.d

I close my eyes
at 1 am
Imagine what you were thinking
when you knew the rope would win.
I picture the happy poet,
bursting with energy and life,
You're in a happier place, I know it
I just wish it were here on earth.
You decided to leave
and throw it all away
I just wish for one more day,
you'd had the courage to stay.
The cemetery feels so cold
even on this warm August day.
We cry and miss you so,
begging and praying that you wouldn't go.
Goodbye my uncle, goodbye my idol,
Goodbye a father, goodbye a brother.
I hope you find what you're looking for
And I'm sorry that life had shaken and frozen your core
to the point of no return.

#poem #sadness #death #loss #sleepless #rip