Were we ever
Anything more than slurred
Words,
Whispered through liquor stained lips
Were we merely the
Frost,
That formed by night
On the window glass
Only to melt away
With the rising sun
A passing
notion,
In an ocean of thoughts
Washed away,
With the tide
Were we only a
Dream,
A product of a drug induced sleep?

Were We?

The bees and butterflies already came
I've no more nectar,
For you to take

**** me
If you will
Go on
Take of me what's left

Ash,
Once carried on a lilac breeze

Smoke,
From a limply held cigarette
Burnt
To the filter

Me
A distant souls memory
Remaining on a winds
Left swirl

My resin fairy gave birth
Prose, Her name
Wingless *******
In my pocket

She and I
The same

I looked at her,
That girl, who had grown into,
A woman
Watched her, everyday
Black eyes,
Broken bones
Trying to smile through tears
She always said his heart was
Spanish moss,
Clinging, choking,
Till it kills
She always said that physical death,
Was nothing like the death of the heart
Its worse,
No funeral,
No stone to mark its passing
Just dead
Like the years of her past
Troubled death
I didn't feel sorry for her
There was nothing,
Like the endurance I'd watched,
Nothing
Her tears,
Nothing
She was,
Past
Nothing,
What she may have been
Washed down the bath tub sink,
Like soap suds

Standing on the lake bank
Feet, in the muddy shore
Praying Gods forgiveness
Useless asking for more
Cold water washing
Over calloused feet
Knowing fate is coming
Demise soon to meet
Prayers go unanswered
No smile from heaven shown
Living in the darkness
Staring out, into unknown
There is no forgiveness
No mercy to be seen
The only pleasure felt,
Sun on water sheen
Life, a lonely road
Well known, and traveled
Standing on the lake bank,
Mind coming
U
N
R
A
V
E
L
E
D

I dwell in imaginary
Its pleasant there
I have wings
Though I still, am not loved

I'm tink
And I love he who loves Wendy
Thus, a small one
Unseen

I live in dreams
Deal in nightmares
That's my business
Off the hopscotch grid

My trees speak
Flowers play music,
I have many moons
and the sea is red here
Never blue

The "Lost Boys" play music
eat too much and sing
I fly perfect circles around their heads
They laugh at my leaf dresses

I have friends here
In my fake "Never Land"
And I don't have to pay them
or be something I'm not

I'm just "tink"
and they all like me that way
Even Captain Hook smiles for me
In this Land

My Never Land

She waits,
Her waiting started in summer
Honey suckle, started to grow around her ankles
Ivey, took root between her toes
Still, she waits
Fall,
Honeysuckle, Now bare
Ivey, ever growing
Trees, losing their leaves
She waits,
Winter,
Even as the frost climbs her bare legs
Snow, sticking to her eyelashes
Winter winds, blowing, freezing
Still, she waits
Spring,
Birds nesting, chirping in her long hair
Honeysuckle, flowers to her knees
Ivey, growing and green
She waits,
Hundreds of sunrises, and sunsets
Countless new, and full moons
Eyes upward,
Arms out stretched
Still, she waits
Again, summer
She is covered now,
A lady of green
Vines of honeysuckle,
And Ivey
Unrecognizable,
She waits.......

We're we ever,
But grains
Of sand,
Salt
More,
Less, us
We? But ideas
Of tomorrow's
Simple,
MAYBE?

The cry of the whippoorwill,
In the far distance
Day gives in to night,
With so little resistance
Stars chatter, with their twinkles,
Up in the blackened skies
And I, wait patiently,
For my love to rise
He laughs with me, cries with me,
I dance in his soft glow
Ours is the truest love,
I'm sure I'll ever know
He leaves with the sunrise,
For me, far too soon
And I am left to wait out the day,
For my love, the man in the moon

I spent the night with the man in the moon,
He smiled, and winked at me
I told him my secrets, blew him kisses,
Till he sank, in the milky way sea

So you don't see your kids,
You have no job
Poor you,
You're a slob
Im a 90lb woman,
Call me snob
While I wait tables,
At two friggin jobs
I support my kid,
And I do it by myself
I don't call my momma,
For a ride to somewhere else
Sorry If I seem dismissive,
Or unsympathetic
But don't expect me,
To pity the pathetic
If you don't care,
Why should I?
Spending money,
On the pills you buy
Pity yourself,
Then ask,"Why"
You have no car,
No life, you don't try
Yea, I do understand,
It's addiction
So get some help,
Dont blame, for your affliction
If an idiot like me can do it,
You can do it too
Raise your own kids,
Get a job, you fool
Uneducated?
Yea, I was
But I got off my ***,
And I did it, "cuz"
I had nothing
No family, no friends
And I worked my **** off
For a means to an end
I grow so tired,
Of all the excuses
Some people give
To justify abuses,
I hear my baby cry
Every friggin day
For a dead beat dad
Who just walked away
Forgive me,
If I seem "uptight"
But wrong is wrong,
And right is still right
God help it, I know,
I'm no better than anyone else
But no one can help you,
Till you help yourself

Everyday, I wake,
Powder my face
To hide who I am,
Cover my disgrace
I line my eyes with black,
As a symbol of discontent
And the fact that I mourn,
For things not meant
Blush, on my cheeks,
Adding colour, my soul lacks
Make myself a lie,
Front and back
Put on pretty clothes,
To better fit in
So people don't see me,
Then know of my sins
Every day,
With the same routine
Living my lie,
Not seeing what I've seen
Everyone else,
Seeming just fine
Able to leave,
The past behind
Not me,
I want to be like "The Drones"
Feeling nothing,
Just a bag of bones

I woke late this morning from too much "fun" last night
Yes, I was back down "L" street perched on my bench
I tried to wear colours, but they didn't show through the dark
And I put a clasp in my hair
I thought I looked a little less than dead
The cherry trees in the make-shift "park" are starting to blossom
I feel bad for them because they're stuck planted there
Perhaps this is why they weep
I thought of sharing my paper bag whiskey gift
But no
So I shared my tears instead

May the stars fall
The moon drown
The sun burn out
Mountains bow to the ground

May the sea boil
Flowers no longer grow
Let it be ash that falls,
Never again snow

May all that is outside
Mirror that with in
Let there be no more lies
To cover the sin~A

We two, ignorantly speaking
Of how fate and time brought us together
Whispering of words like eternity
And forever
Until the smell took over
Forcing us to see what fate really gave
We were merely two corpses thrown together
To save space in this mass grave

So I've heard,
As of late
That those of importance
Are considered too great
To be called "crazy"
Money, buys "eccentric"
Well, heavens me, I was unaware
I thought money, paid the electric
I prefer crazy
That, Surely I am
Loony as they come
I bare no scam
The things I do
The things I think
I'm well aware
I'm on the brink
My funny hats
The bluntness I speak
Yep,
I've reached the peak
The pentacle
If you will
And I care not,
Who foots the bill
I'll sing, dance
And loudly cry
I'll change moods in a snap
Not give a **** why
I'm not crazy
Just eccentric
And **** all your money
That pays the electric

I'd like to eat your heart
Rip it, right from your chest
I wouldn't bother with cooking it
Raw, would be the best
I'd like to taste your blood
Mingle it with mine
Feeling it run down my chin
Would almost be Devine
I wonder if you would taste salty
Heaven knows your heart would be tough
I'd only be returning the favor
And yes, it would be rough
I like to think of it this way
If I were to eat your heart,
I'd always have a piece of you with me
Inside me, never to part

I got carried away
By the last, orange, Autumn leaf
Away, with November
In a snow laden breeze
We both clung desperately
Me, to my roots, the leaf to its tree
But fate, had its plans
What will be, will be

I've heard many a story,
About the creation of mankind
And the way life was in the beginning
But only one, stays in my mind

It has been said for thousands of years
That in the beginning, we were while
And one day, the great creator
Split us, and separrated our souls

This being the reason
We search until forever
To find our other half
So that we may be together

Every soul a puzzle
Only two pieces, they contain
Searching eternally for the other half
A souls distant memory remains

A longing deep within us all
For our souls eternal twin
The other piece of our puzzle
Our lover, best friend

Its been said that When
The two halves meet
The very universe stops moving
And the earth quakes, under feet

I was lucky enough to meet mine
One fine, summer day
His soul called out to me
And my heart was whisked away

But alas! He belongs to another
Inside, my soul cries
Though he denies this with his lips
I can see truth in his eyes

I may have to wait
On and on until forever
Perhaps in the next life
My puzzle piece soul, will be together

There's a woman, in the basement, still
Her screams, they wake me at night
She eternally beats on the walls
Yet, no freedom, none in her sight
33 days, kept in the damp,
The dark
Those 33 days of night,
Have forever left their mark
Her finger nails gone,
From scratching at concrete
I hear her praying
To the creator, she wishes to meet
Her voice loud, though hoarse and cracked
Ringing forever in my ears
And somehow, I know I'll hear her screams
Every night and day, All the rest of my years

Shut the hell up
Put a smile on your face
Behave yourself
And tie your shoelace
Never ever
Speak out of turn
Or they'll set you on fire
Then watch you burn
Make sure and do
Just like you're told
Don't act out
Always follow the fold
Don't you dare
To ever rebel
Or society will make
Your life a hell
Comb your hair
And tie it with a bow
Never forget
We reap what we sew
Go to work
And pay your taxes
Or society can't afford
The men with the axes
Never give
Your opinion a voice
You dont decide
Society makes your choice
Follow the lead
Stay in line
Or you'll be payin
One hell of a fine
And never forget
You're owned by "The Man"
Or he'll take your house,
Kids, and life, cause he can

My love for you, my darling,
Had brought upon me a wrath
For my sin, I'll forever burn,
In the eternal flaming bath

If this is true, my love,
Then beside me you shall be
And together forever, we will burn,
In hell, for eternity

In The Star Light

I hear your voice,
In the stillness of night
As though you're right beside me
Yet, not in my sight
The stars whisper secrets,
The moon can never tell
Trapped in the velvet sky,
Eternity there to dwell
I lay, remembering dreams
Long since past
Spells of forever,
That only darkness casts
My longing for you,
Will never subside
My heart travels a path,
To which only dreams reside
Entranced by the moon
Bewitched, by the night
You exsist only in my dreams,
In the star light

My reality is fake
Stuff my mouth with bittersweet cake
Come here you, and take
All of me that's left
Pick me like crows
Because only God knows
You put out, my flames that glow
And I SCREAM!!!
In silence
At the violence
You bestowe
Upon me
And God knows
The godless heavens see
What you don't
Things that you won't
Make of me what you will
The empty sky will pay the bill

Long after time has stopped,
And man's lies have ceased to be
Still, my heart shall bare your name,
Through out forever and eternity

My soul is smashed
And I sold it in a back room
To the tune,
Of a generic remake of Johnny Cash
I choke, on the blood I bleed
From staying on my knees,
Sending God pleas
No heart, in me to beat
I should've kept the receipt
For the soul, I sold, in deceit
For spoken words, I've never had a use
Conversation abuse
So they deem me obtuse
I should wash my mouth out with soap
For the few words escaping my throat
Keeping my thoughts protected by a mental moat
And I'll continue to choke
On this blood I bleed
Staying on my knees
Sending God pleas
My soul, will never return
But I don't have to wait, for hell, to burn


Can you hear me SCREAM?

Would that I may,
I'd wear you
Wrap myself in you,
Like the softness of silken sheets
The velvet of a winter sky,
Kisses of a heavy snow
Because you,
Look so good on me....

What if you're the villian,
Instead of the good guy?
Perhaps your pleasure,
Is watching hope die

I'm the villain,
No good,
I wouldn't change it
Even if I could

I'm not really sure,
Why others "go bad"
But it was a broken heart,
That drove me mad

Killing hope,
Is my new obsession
Because I could not make love,
My posession

Misery loves company,
That's what they say
Well, it's true,
What more can I say?

I may see yellow,
Where you see red
Am I less than you?
Are you alive
Whilst I'm dead?
My thruth is my own,
As is yours
We all see it differently
When we look through other doors
Truth can never Be singular
We all see as we will
Would you lay it upon me
To pay your truths Bill?
While the sky moves for you
Perhaps for me, it's still
And maybe my "never land"
For you, is real

The black,
That darkens the night
The blur,
That dims the sight
The hope,
That's out of reach
The dolphin,
Dying on the beach
The demon,
Who dwells within
The saint,
Committing the sin
The blood,
In the ink well
And I am the devil,
Of my own hell

I'm jealous
Of that tee shirt
The way it so carelessly lays
Against his ink covered skin
I wish I were that
Tee shirt