I wish you cared
the way you care where you'll go for lunch today,
I wish you listened
the way you hear your favorite bass chords,
I wish you'd spend time
the way you waste away all your savings,

Show me passion, don't show off
Feel my heart beat like your sheets, so soft
I feel your chest rise and fall
Feel the way I truly care,
and in return, get nothing at all.
Why do you only care when it's convenient?
When did my standards become so lenient?

I wish you the best,
the way you wish away today
I wish you the best,
but with you there is no grey.

I know I am not as clever as you
I know you know I try
I know that i am fake
I know you know I lie

My insecurities you are blind to
You just assume I am fine
I hate caring, I truly do.
But like a brainless baby. I cry

I know I am not good enough
I know you think I am spoiled
I know I have no right to saddened feelings
I know at least you have that right

Why can you see right through me?
You simply deflect my spells
Why can't you see that its killing me,
The way you twist my mind.

But we are alike you know.
It's a saving grace that kills
Your joy and  sanity latch onto me
WHen together, we are one mind

One mind, with thoughts of a madman
I then feel renewed from my placid repertoire you scoff at
SO though you judge and know my fatal flaws, KNow this.
YOur sole and mine are the same, dark and wretched
Just like the two of us, together

A joke or a riddle
I cannot decide
which note I could fiddle
from which punch-line to hide

Questions pending
answers not true
the universe isn't ending
the ocean's not blue

Something new everyday
many books left to burn
smart enough now to say
that the wise never learn

Somehow ahead, but always behind
my life must catch up with my mind

Inside I am sleeping
outside of my head
my soul isn't keeping
what my eyes have been fed

In time I'll forget you
or so you might think
my memory is untrue
as my eyes tend to blink

Though I always remember
what was once important
if I could somehow dismember
perceptions mossy distortions

Then perhaps I will find
a part of me that went missing
before I rallied behind
this big boot I've been kissing

Oh that shame and the mystery
behind aiming at history

Who am I? I wonder
for the last time I was free
were the days I was younger
back when I knew me

But I didn't know then
that now I'd be thinking
of my innocent friend
imagining me without blinking

Because I was meaning
back when I was dreaming
to make someone of meaning
of the person now screaming

Inside can't stop fighting
with the author of the book
that I'm writing

You can use my chest to hear the ocean.
Swim in my veins and I will sail your eyes.
The earth is our canvas as we remember our trees' growing;
Like leaves embraced by wind, we are whisked to the skies.
The joining of lips will stop Time's grip,
Because he decides: "I shall take them never;
Forever paired." Impossibly split, even if
Fates river were to drown our endeavors.
I would fight the harsh rapids, aided by my will
To have your soul again within my grasp.
Death before failure; I would cry a horrid shrill
If another won you with his beautiful mask.
All above is a fiction often recited
By my thoughts to my soul, so lonesomely reminded.

We are the animal
That desired more
Than being an animal