alex - Hello Poetry

alex 5d

years have come and past but I am not
going to let anyone stop me
my life is for my own and keeping myself safe
bringing my husband on the ride with me
this economy ***** but love is all that matters
I don't like the shiny things if I can't spend time with the
man of my dreams, protective and kind, and an ******* some of the time but who isn't we live for ourselves and for each other

#love #hope #dreams

alex Dec 2020

days are different now

Since i've met you Aydan,
i havent been able to get you out of my head,
your voice is always on repeat,
making me feel like death is just a memory
that I once had but faded like my childhood
you made me a better person,
once i vist you in england,
im going to ask you for your hand in marriage
i hope you say yes

alex Dec 2020

i take my pills and im happy all the time

sometimes death is something you wish for but it doesn't happen.
it is like a love you once had,
you don't stop loving them but you don't love them as once before,
I used to love myself but it started to fade away like a flower in the winter,
it dies till spring brings it back.
a feeling i've had for a while;
many would say that i am sad but kind others would say im happy all the time but my friends and girlfriend know that others see only the surface

alex Aug 2019

somethings never change

somethings are a certain way
somethings are a better way

alex May 2019

empty

you know when you get in a fight with someone you love?
though they aren't the ones talking?
but you still feel their presents everywhere and still able to smell them too...
well i have a empty feeling, my day of crying
staying away to not make my days worsen
making it worse for not talking to anyone
feeling that they dont love me
though they are ****** and sad
i messed up bad
i just wanted her to feel safe
with the gender she prefers
i'd die for her any day of the week
just to see her safe

#sad #depressed #scared #love #why #help

alex Mar 2019

another one for the ****

another one for the ****,
another one for the thrill,
another one for the lies,
another one for the ties,
another one for the love,
another one for the clove,
another one for the dark,
another one for the ark,
another one for the life,
another life that gone today

#sad

alex Nov 2018

wall's were down

All my walls were down
But now they are back up
I gave you my love
and I thought it was enough
but I guess you believed in the lies
Now I’m just as good as a bag of flies
Worthless to those whom know nothing about me
Worthless to thought whom know me
You broke me
Are you proud
I wanted to drown
I wanted to be six feet in the ground
But I need to be there for my family
And for my true friends that are left
I ******* cared about you
But know I just can take it anymore
I can’t be in the same room as you
I can’t look at you
I want to go and cry
And wish that I wasn’t alive
ever since Thursday I’ve been crying
And I just want the pain to stop
yes I’m the one who turn the note in
And I don’t care if your mad
I just don’t want you to do anything stupid
Because yes I ******* still care
Even if I shouldn’t
when we were younger you protected me
Now its my turn for you.

i need to get this out of my head

#help #broken #lies #untrusted