my dear,
if all you are
is matter,
i don't know how
you could ever believe
you're not important

I hate you
for stealing all my firsts-
my first kiss
my first touch
for tainting all my memories

for every new person will be compared to you
and I can't just drink the memory of you away
for you will always be first
you will always have that over me

I hate you for saying you love me-
who loves someone like that?
How can I ever learn to love-
when you were my example