Last but not lease this is my blatant descovery.

God is real because of what October the 31st have shown me.

I've been nuts that's what makes me a human being, cause when your not crazy they tell you stupid things.

I mean stupid things like the cartoon Mickey or yu-gi-oh you know it's there "card games"...

Psychics play the same game but I recognize that the weekend called it mind games.

If your not crazy they place things in your mental so you can become like a beat .. "Instrumental". M.J. Said it  a slave to the rythem babe.

I will not dance to the pattern that they want me to play we were made to sing and give praise not dance and not speak only if you were a puppet to what they say.

Dannnng..

Calm down zeal I believe your share to much without even knowing there doing,
I don't care I pray for you so you can be who God called you to be a Human BEING

Waking up to the hero and the villian.
I went to sleep with the hero and the villian.
The spirit I got the healin,
My mind reminds me I'm not different
Cause I was born with the same sickness.
Heros never die only for a good cause,
But it hurts to know I'm the one that's gunna set his trap up....I'm tripping.
But the Good in me is gunna be the one that's going to Win...losers ain't winners and heros always win.

Well quit kicking me under the table..

I don't have what you looking for!
Well what are you looking for?
What are you looking at? Didn't you want me gone ?
Didn't you want me just to be there
But when I'm there
Where do we go
We go to another
Oh my brother
You push me until I'm bothered
Without the R we are getting Further
I've seen this happen to me and Joshua
Please don't do this
I..
But if you wanna
I'm out of..
Reasons and breath cause
I've been chasing many in this life uhhh!!
Why do you smile at me?!
Why do I smile back and shake your hand?!
When did you comeover and layed with me like a lover?
When did you just sit at my house and kissed me because it was funny and until we cryed...brother?
They can think what they think brother!
Well quit kicking me under the table!
Take your plate cause I'm not really hungry..
I love company  more then I'm thirsty.
If you ever read this.
Yes I'm trippin..
No, I like your company more then I wanna go or do somthing.

I'm full

Digging myself out the holes in my head cause I keep tripping on myself like "this sh** is deep". How can I keep this going if I'm already gone and fallen into pieces of me?

I heard Bethany spreading rumors...
That i was a FBI undercover person.
Bethany use to sneak in the moments
When I was in the moment.
Before the secrets walked
And my heart became frozen...
The head hancho the skeleton of inhumanism
Perception of Bethany was never impersonation
It was closed caption and keep walking
The plan was never to engage a full conversation..never to get lost in your eyes and see what was under your these loose buttons..

Whats all that talking?
Guess I'm just bugging.
I'm Feeling the weight of my Future  I'm benching the Future I'm guessing..

Sitting Behind Me,
I can't remember the past if you let me I can stay in the chapter when I'm walking back to that story.
Insect in my mind whats all that talking?!
guess I'm just bugging..
Guess I'm just bugging..
I need to start trusting...
I need love to calming down from complaining..
I'm sitting right Next to Heaven with no keys it's Like sexting...
Freeing Me From Myself, God opens Doors I can't so please don't ask me.
I'm asking you to pray for me...I'll pray for you..End of Story.

Killed the bug but isn't it funny  that was my only friend on earth Ha..Guess I'm just bugging.
amen.

Guide me and lead me and teach me feeding off walking abd speaking in manners I'm peaking feeling my feelings it's crazy took me sometime just to love me I love you like loves theme loves being the ultimate pool cause most of us is swimming but lately I've been sinking in love waking up and finding everything that I need is that while my sentences rush at the door to my visions so my dreams are becoming reality so I'm more then dreaming!

Life has given me a spacebar,
why not control and Delete?
This War is like a Self war,
I'm Fighting myself and we....I and Me is getting cornered by the ESC..
but i have found the word escape
all i wanna do is escape.
but me keeps talking like its too late.

To  know i have to keep a smile on my face is getting really Tab and Shift just a lot of yelling and then Dip..
if you didn't get my drift.
i'll be the type writer on the lowkey!
God be the hands that control
I don't know me but you know I and Me has given up on myself cause i
keep typing restart.

I walk with braces on teeth
Thrift store 80’s the mink..
Brand new Camero watching fleets
Made a way
Made a way.
I was sleeping on couches
steady drinking and doubted..  
I was lost but I found’em
Make a way
Make a way
My sister delivered the baby,
My lover text me “it’s crazy”
Use to tell me not ready but now he tell me he’s ready.
Made a way made a way…

I use to think my worth was all in vain,
Until I stopped crying and worked for everything I have
Now My pain is champagne.

Thinking bout the future.
Got me walking kinda deeper,
The pains and hurt for free.
Payed for all of this if I think,
My past I tell on me.
Just to  see friends roll on me,
If there's a will I'll be the brake.
If there the gas then I'm the keys
I don't turn until I sink.
Never poured unless I drink
Man my life is looking weak
Maybe cause I chased the king
Or the stuff I wanted to be.
In the mirror I hate to see,
But I'm curious of who I might be...
I'm curious
I'm curious

It feels much better that you won't feel a thing.

My hands are getting cold by holding this pain.

The sky is empty tonight as my eyes change to the mess I have made.

To the mess I have made..
To this mess I have made...
To this mess I have chased.

Heart beats steel feet never looked to the grave,
For I'm numb to myself I thank God for God sake!
GOD SAKE.... God wait ..please take the mistake,
My last name has become "the mess that I made.

To the mess I have made..
To this mess I have chased
To this mess I.....wait

I'm numb and it's better to be chasing the mess that I chased.

...breath
..breath my last breath to the fool I was and things that I made.

The interesting thing about physics... Sceptics.
Is that were always looking for proof, but what will happen if we found it?

Theologies & hypothesis is like trapping love in a test tube or breath mint.

That don't make sense but even money now shows you the sinful abominations.

"and God Still dances ominous for sovereignty is Good for human dominance because we always wanna control something that we never made in this life of consequence."

A million miles away and there's thoughts about you here.

I lost my clothes on pictures and found I'm clothed with lustful tears...

Streams of a ****** has hit the air,
And now my demon runs over my ambition like lights with a deer.

Talk about stuck between the rock and your hard place..
Now I'm questioning the four play over the Internet, we both stay where no one wants to lay.

A million miles away!!!

And suddenly I notice this is only fantasy?! Your my typical "deity" ...wait let me explain

My train has stopped and now I'm off line and seeing your no where near my wonderings.

Your not God but I made you a God what God can tell me I'm perfect? I'm looking unto him for a Job and the things I prayed about some point in time that I felt bound by a....

Guy...who took my lust.

Wow moment of clarity, I'm doing the same with you Ricky


I can't do this no more as you slowly stop texting me and I get off line and just walk away like you never knew me...
..how bout I don't text back to the first message you send me.

What has haunted me has became my friend but now I'm in a time in my life where that friend has left and I moved into another  " ERA".

I see the white hair road around the corner,
But I don't wanna be in the same state I'm in when I reach it.
I wanna be a pharmacist I wanna be a electrical technian whatever happen to college ?
Right there I don't know what to say
Whatever happen to wait?
I can't no more I really wanna be in a good place in my life before I leave this's  place .
Not that anything is wrong with my mom & dad's place but it's my mom & daddy place.
Getting so des pressed I love that I don't really wanna call me lust in.
But I will figure out for Good time sake

Losing every friend he knows
What about them secrets though?
He don't tell nothing cause he's too deep involved
**** it...let it drip cause he got what he wanted from me
Open her legs I'm losing memories
I'm tryna find the way the truth the light you see
But the one who loves to lie is erected for me.
If I told the truth they would be scared of me
So much going on they like when I don't say anything..
Found my train of thought it's been a long time sense I've talked with my old friend integrity..

Staining at walls like are you gunna,
Close in on me?

These days feel more but there numbing me to the things that use to "get me"
But you don't get me I get me and that's the whole point
I stop playing hookey and started learning
That this is worse then only
For that word always makes excuse

But all that crap I said up there
Was to tell you that im leaving who I am.

I've taking off what I belive,
Now I'm just naked like Adam and Eve.
Media talking she want What I bring.
6 inches swinging the smell of prestige.
***** is longer but  let it all breath.
Surviving the conscience the world on it's knees.
******* up children...abortion to me.
Now that I'm payed I'm payed with there greed.
All that had is now on the link scroll to the left and you see what I mean.
Norp is so backwards if u know what I mean....

where should I begin... the time i blow the pleasure it gets but I can't wait
for the end.

Then again yes I can, that's pepsie he drinking mixed with alittle of friends.

Speaking of friends where have you been? Well I've been growing up and your
road has just begun.

Memories heard better stores then this I've torn chapters of life just cause i know how it ends..
Picking the pages up and putting them back in the book, I tape your face and i glued my thoughts
there so i will learn and live.

I'm a king untangling the things that would make me just a prince, when you see this me and time became so intimate it blows me and it carries my generation but eternity will always birth this.

I love to be in your arms and there's nothing for lust I leave it empty handed cause our friendship is what I hold deeper then that zipper in the dark.
Yes I trip I tripped of course but I swear and pinky promise to the north that I won't and meant that.
I feel oh crap my feelings
They spill until you get it
Then we, your prolly thinking that I or what I'm thinking that I bore you thinking that I ignore you thinking maybe don't have nothing for you but..

Clearly I do a lot to see my friends happy, let's see show we..

I got terminated from my job because we chilled that day.
My whole check didn't go to me it went to your face.
Plus your eyebrow plus that freakin look on your face.
And that look on your face makes me feel good okay I said it I did it I'm thinking let's move on.
When I call you wasn't busy we was cool like AC in a Bentley.
But tell me why I'm feeling like a Chevy the won't start up and then I ask my dad to come get me and he said the samething "why do you come all the way over here just to be friendly?"

I don't know Dad I don't know,
Now I'm laying in my bed thinking like maybe I should just back up maybe I should wait for you to call me
Maybe not maybe let's see I'm just watch from a distance and see if you even want me.

Not because my love is gone or shrinking,
Just cause I wanna see if were real homies..

Let's blow each other's minds
What's yours is mine I know threw all the wires in time well let's just count this slow let's rewind what's kind well cause I can't count on tomorrow I leave my house for rights some how I try to rewrite my wrongs threw all glasses of wine well let's just sip this slow...
I'm buzz off you tonight what's yours is mine I know you wanna see me again sometime? Well this is your chance to run.

When the **** calls your name late at night.
When your best friends are no where insight.
When your road is all about obiedence and suffering.
When your mirror is getting foggy again by your own doings.
What do you do when everything seems to be unreachable, incovence, tangled, just not moving?

WATCH CLOSELY THIS IS THE TIME OF PROMOTION, TIME OF SWEET SUFFERING..For think my friend when all is crashing there's room to be build up to change ways, to create a heart that says "I will stand, and be greater then who I was yesterday"!

Where should I begin?
Or should I say how is it gunna ends?
I say down 4 but why did it feel like one?
Me myself and I....I don't think I have best friends.
Broken by my own imperfection to hold a relationship.
So what's friendship?
Own his nineteenth birthday was like a car wreck.
As I hear pouring of water my dad is getting for work then.
I forgot to mention I'm turning twenty in 2months,
All that other random bable is not poetry at all.
My fault....

I thought it was working I thought it was cool to have time with a person and hear the good news all I wanna be is consistent with the things that I do but I'm getting older it's rare for a 21 year old to sit and talk to you. I don't act so "im cooler" and it's hard not to but I got things to do so forgive me if I'm late to the games and the times where u wanted me to go. But I will make them up please don't over look that...I will be doing everything I need to do this year I won't over look you if you knew what I do extra just to chill with you I hope you know this I will always Love you

Words fall off the pages

Two months in the comfort covers

Pillows were softer then wet kiss

How you lick your lips is my religion

Hands Softer then butterfly wings and there not even cold

I walked into the room dripping in Gold

A wave of heaven in your touch as a you softly read me first.

The birds carried you off as I remembered what it was like to be with you my love.

Tears fall even now when my knees were weak like the room though
As I gaze at your tomb stone.

I'm almost 20 now
Almost 20 wow
In his 20 how?  Did he make out those..

Teen years with some sprite
Scremo that's my type
Chase thoughts like all night
My head was running like a sick night,
Those sick nights were pleasant till the morning time....just like those..

Child days where my pockets fade
And that bus came.
Innocence oh innocence  I can call your name,
And yes I know I run away but I tell you I love when you chased me.
The pretty girl in the class couldn't faze me my zipper was still unchanging.

I'm almost 20 how?
Almost 20 wow
In his 20 now...I know something's I couldn't see from a mile in age
But it's ok
I was young now I am old but never have I seen the righteous forsaken.

Witches are there spells
Like liars are there tales

I can't lie to you and I can't decieve.
Casting my lying words on you can't even reach my tongue to speak.

Over every word I know one day I will behold the weight of a my tongue like cold dripping rain running threw my tears as I have prayed and said forgive me each day.

My body is dying everyday the breath I breath is the only thing that secure the intimate part of me...
..like underwear.

Under the wretched man I be,
I run so far away just to see I wanna be closer then blood in vains...

Crucify the earth that's in me,
I'll suffer for the Glory that made me..
I will Sacrifice the things that chains me.
Hell is coming only because heaven is descending
Renewing my mind cause I'm waiting to see you.
My demons tell me he's not coming for you and he can't save you!
And I look back at them and say
"Revelation 22 :4 The Lord rebuke you."

Takes time with a wounded heart,
Cause he haven't healed.

Takes time with a broken hand,
Cause he likes to feel.

Takes time with a hurting man,
Cause he likes the pills and likes the meal.

..well I'm half the man I use to be
...well it's more then chance that's saving me.
..well I'm bad with steps when I walk for me.

Takes time with a healing man,
Well his hand is healed.

Takes time with a wounded heart,
Well he loves foreal.

Takes time with hurting man,
Well he holds the pill and leaves the thrill

Well I haven't been the man I use to be.

Thought of a heart is frabicated,
Faith in a substance is sophisticated
The number of man is orchestrated
If sin is weighed then thank the waiter,
Plate of discuss has made you patient.
He fixed the problem that was illustrated.
He came because life is documented.
One comes to let you play with,
Illusions and confusion we will call that magic.
It's a sign it's warning if you go everything with him will be disconnected.
6 can be rehabilated, 66 is no contention , 666 is total of who is who will come and who will be defeated.

They will never be royal
And we won't ever be normal.

Cause they look for a title,
And we break all our idols.

Oh the pain of there succes,
Oh the healing of our downs.

Love is a battlefield for them,
Love is our gravity that keeps our feet on the ground.

Keep thy rod and they loose there place,

My rooms ***** and if you checked my history on my phone I bet that would be to.
But the king is coming and I'm cleaning up what makes look ugly to.
Can I go hear without you deleting my page?
Nooo! So I hope those who read this will slip in truth like a bar of soap.

THERES no where to run except to the only place your legs bend and your hands together...you know.
It's not that he don't hear it's just we been going to the loudest wicked places of the world and it's hard to hear the truth.
Listen!
Oh listen...before my tombstone.
No one else  can save you except the one that's on the throne.

Drink Isaiah 55 invitation to thirsty except drinking from "Sinkist" look at your soda can really close

Would let me take care of you ?
And do only things that only best friends can.
Would you let me wash your hair?
Can I breakfast sometime?
I mean we can just hangout go to a movie sometime... oooooohhh I give up!!!
Because to me that will be good
Nothing's greater then we do cause they can't measure up to my love.
Sense we measured what we hate about us...
Let's just put on cheap make up
It will be fun.

I deceive so many
Like a penny on the ground what would they try to buy with me?
I'm entangle like the Girl that's From Disney.

I was trapped with a thought would just keep on singing
"I know Best"
3 years now and i look down at the mess.
ashes
ashes
I can't keep High for that almost took my life
I'm not safe no where,
I just wanna
I just wanna get out here.
Cut the thoughts cut the actions and just Go there.
wanna See My Father!
wanna Meet New Promise!

Like a petal that is pink, showing my colors today
Did you care when I was green and I was growing to place
Yes my roots is with me look at the mess that I made
In the dirt yes I grew, in this dirt I became.
Do you believe me when I tell you I don’t like to be shady
That don’t give me any type growth

Let's see if I have the strength to write this.
Tripped by commas and periods that stop.
I feel like a run on sentence that's rooted like crop.
How can a man go from questioning questions but knowing the answer and still get lost?
Is it possible that I need saving every second of the clock?
It's timeless to love but love times the watch so watch how you love this time..
It will be wrapped up in eternitys mind.
And yet I say and fall and don't say much,
But even silence is saying a lot.

Deep scepters
Light measures
Star gazer
Rocket launchers
Storm chasers
Lip biters
New levels
Old texture
I can see it now.

He Died for love, he lived to see the measure.

Your handshakes are wanted
But your smile is much needed
I take trust joy and loyal over feelings.

My  house is the one by the water
And the fence with white gates.
Let my cat be my daughter and my friends come when I take half an hour just to get the shower because the hot water is great.

My producer blowing up my phone cause he said that I'm late, throw my skinnies on and muslce shirt and  I break.
Drive the speed limit cause God is the only one that I chase, when I make it he say " you got a interview with the A... He hands me my paycheck and says "I'll see you at 8"...

My brother Ryan text me and say "R U Ok" and I look up and then back at the mic and text "hey ..We made it!!!
"I'm coming pick you up okay."

Then he say "I'm already on my way!"

Man I can't wait for this day and this will be one of my days one of these days soon

My eyes have seen wonders
Walk threw my room.

I wake up with the cruss in my eye
And a *****...I'm just telling the truth.

Born in sin and I've seen the demons behind it!

White man,  oral, I was sixteen....after that we had ice-cream the flavor...chocolate.

Born again and I've seen the angel infront of me!

Gay, bi, straight don't even wanna talk to me, cause I tryed to be in there little cliques, party's, lifestyles and just to find out!

...to freaking find out!

I'm stuck in a place where I'm waiting for eternity and I'm to high for grass and I'm to low for clouds.

I'm not just existing like the rest of men,
I'm transcending to a eternity REALM!!









And the greatest thing about is I love it

You make me feel like it's magic
Caught in the tricks oh the tricks of you.
You make me feel like this is tragic
The wounds on my body my body cause of you.

Tell me when I'm trying, I'm trying to get over to you.

I just don't get it don't get why I'm up all on you.

Texting and calling
Oovoo and skyping
Well friend I'm trying to I'm trying to get threw...

***** to know you look at me snapchating,
But there is nobody nobody and you..

Look over me and think I'm not gunna be wound..

You only text me just to be tragic
You only Skype me when you wanna be magic
**** pics and body shots that keeps thinking you don't..
Love me like I think
Like I think you do.

Well I'm escaping escaping what you do why you do that you know.

Watch how I don't reply to bodies and bodies of **** Gold...

When I say you I mean me and when I say I , I mean I'm escaping your Body Control.

Glitter ain't Gold and
Small aint bigger
little belittled
pics of image
Sort of sorcery
Vexed or vision the visionary
Entertain the dictionary
Color the word Missionary
Detox from every touch
Even though you love the inventory
It's just a Selfie at the end of the day.

If Man Came from heaven and heaven that means Heaven will  embrace Himself..
then women really did come from man wouldn't it make  it reasonable and accepted that Man will be conceived by woman?
Breath it self is Living in words in a body the functions it needs living because it keeps redifying itself.
Atheist and christians are identical when they say the are not the same  faith of wealth but there existence is a intellegent quest.
Why would you make a Human that Don't believe In any remark of Humanity acceptance? And the atheist a genelogy worth of cells perfecting it self? Both have a blood issue and there genes know full well that there is something that Keeps wondering Into there Cells.

The Identical is Formed The  Difference creates itself but tell me what is so different between the Rocks and the Shells your Heart and My health? The approval Of men in other words Fame it self...
what Is identical i believe is the samething that will tell us about ourself cells.

Genuine the crafty but his faith for real
Square to society a dog with a tail
Running from life means I'm killing myself.
Suicide thoughts come to think of my health.
Darkness decade the slightest of hell will give a good atheist a kiss that God is real,
more of moscato makes my feelings come out
Pour me some more I'll be spilling myself.
Laughing at nothing the walls are to chill
He's looking like honey his brother is milk
Might wanna taste or I'll just take sip
See this is what happens if I took a pill
Can I be honest ?
I wrestle *****
my mind when it's sober wonders but push
Drunk the wonders are pulling me in

That's why I stay with a belt
I can smell blood then I go for the ****
Something takes over then it's over for them
You wonder why I don't like to comeover.
You know full well.

I'm genuine here's the details

Lips like autumn
Mind of envy
Call from momma
Kiss so empty
I don't know
What to say
In here alone
But you're with me ?
Money problems
Talk is cheap
F the car
Be home with me
F your feelings  
Who's texting me?
Lost a heart
Kept a seed
Pour the liquor
Pour my honey
Drink the whitest
Do you love me?
F the  milk
Where's my  honey
Where are you ?!

Sr_gino I want you my Bezellé,
Lips like morphine I'm high off your speech to.

They tell me I like you no I'm just like  you
Busy all the time and my girlfriend left me...now I reach for any drink cause they understand me ya know..

I fall so hard for your accent
I try to play it grown but all I want you to do is listen.
Can't feel I'm here your there not erected..

We all have our obsessions
Sometimes..sometimes.

You drink to let go
I'm here oh I know..
Give me time again

We all have our obsessions
Sometimes...sometimes..

...sometimes I wait to see if your gunna text good morning like the olds days...
Looking at my phone like one day he gone text me.

We all have our  obsessions...
Sometimes...sometime.

Drowning in these thoughts again,
Good friends with gills now were selfish.
You slipped I slipped that's what these hooks do they **** us from our lying lips.
My words stand over me sometime I guess that's why you don't understand this.
I just Can't stand trips! I fall worse then august in this thoughtful seasons.
Rowing threw my head my actions propose to some of these guilt trips.
..now I'm sea sick.
But all life's puzzles will fall in to pieces. I asked to come and walk with you on these thoughts with faith so I may be descent.

As you calm me...my words whisper
"There's no greater friend other then Jesus".



Just to be honest, even now my knees creases.

Touch from  the angels
Gripped by God
Devil always talking
"You'll never have Enough".
Demons they spit
The angels silent tonight
God whispers and say
"Trust in me threw the Fight".
I ******* own blood
It flows from the bite
Death just looks like
" I'll be back alright?"
Fainting...
One blink gone
Breath in...
I can see my bones.
Get up!
I find the strength to roll.
My heart sings a sweet Hyme for my soul..!

From glory to glory they will go...

**Chuckles

It's cold out here
The reaper in my ear say I know.
I see all my fears
Commiting suicide on the low.
My body feels like tears.
So It drips on life's cheeks cause the road I know...
Off to the new old tricks they perform.
Lighting the excitement but pushing the Realest out of door,
Most of the people won't help cause you know...it's cold out here.

Losing sight for the site losing hope but some don't mind.
Chasing copper and that frabric let's be perfect pay for plastic I look like Barbie but I'm breathing longer parts I hope in me she's gunna be satisfied...

What's next a heart of dirt and still live?
This ain't life so I pray for my kids that will live better in the new life the eternal gives.

I want you literally by my side when lay down in my bed.
Forget the lust forget the ***.
Have you ever just wanted to lay down and rest?
Wake up with a individual saying "hey are you up"?
As you turn over you see they made you breakfast.
You smile and say joking word like man I hate your runny eggs..
Minute you smile and then they laugh and what happens next.
Is greater then the rest that you had.

They reach to get the plate but you pull there hand instead..
As y'all sit there smiling and you say man I'm glad your my friend.
As both of y'all are startled cause the plate rolled off the bed.
Then they say " I'm glad that you can clean up cause I'm going to bed"....


Wow did my imagination go there?

Ima beast I'm the devil I'm in chaos every night cause I know who he really is..
My diary knows who he really is even that didn't want to come and spend a night for I am intoxicating ....drip...drip..

Sicko run threw my veins
Sicko run threw his home
Please ignore the possibility of walking alone.
Alter egos or ****** life
It wants me to be someone today and another at night.
But I swear and pray and those hold me tight.
Sicko, sicko
Get lost tonight

she  gotta taste
for  praada,
(you look so good in everythaaanng..)

out her way
she a model
(all she wants is diamonds raaaang)

baby you the bomb like a hand grenade,
( i just wanna taste)

i can give really give u what u wanna say
(say my name)

Say My name, Say My Name!

Back and forth I feel sea sick
But when I wake up I swear I have amnesia.
Can't recall who I called to have pleasure, but why applaud something when my hands are down like tree trunks? Watever that means..