Lost, lost, it comes with a cost
the more we are lost the more it will cost
we travel from this place to that place and more
never really knowing what we're looking for
we dabble in this and we dabble in that
sleep in a treehouse and get a new tat
we dress like a hippy and smoke lots of grass
and drive until we've run out of gas
then we try chasing the title and cash
and hoard all we can so we have a stash
when we are old we'll retire with ease
and do whatever the heck that we please
but then we realize we already were!
and then we go right back to acting unsure
around and around, we just do not know
whatever we plant we will reap what we sow
all of our choices seem totally wrong
stilettos and ties, or board-shorts and a thong
am I the type with my hair all in place
or am I the one with the paint on my face
trek through the mountains to find peace and quiet
or sit by the pool on the south beach diet
we look for something that cannot be found
so we just keep moving around and around
but if lost is the state you are in on this day
take heart and remember, it's not here to stay
even Lost has Found, they are good mates
none of us is alone, or in charge of our fates

Feminism is not really what you think
in the 20's girls wanted to vote and drink
and have the right to ***** like men
go after what we wanted again and again
It was having the choice to go after a career
and suing every guy who looks at our rear
Feminism was a cry for equality
for attention that was high quality
not to be traded like cows or goats
not seen as fragile ladies in castles with moats
we wanted to be known for our brains and smarts
and in so doing, did we give up our hearts?
Now all we want is a man who is real
honest and brave, not afraid to feel
they are too scared now because we are tough
now men never feel like they are enough
We used to rule men with our gentle love
they used to rule us with God's gifts from above
Equality we had, but we just didn't know
wherever we went, they would follow
by the power of female, we made them men
now they just want to feel that again
Love can help us not fight anymore
show them their worth, put a stop to this war

Seek ye first His Kingdom
and that's when you will find
all those other things you chase
that run around your mind
they really do not matter
this life is but a breath
and when you die at the end
you will have nothing left
but if you seek His Kingdom
and store treasure up above
instead of struggling alone
you can rely upon His love
if you look upon this life
as a foundation for the rest
and work as hard as you can now
in eternity you'll be blessed
We think retirement happens
around when we turn 62
but what if it happens when we die
and we don't have a clue
are we not willing to risk
a few years when old and grey
for an eternity of joy and fun
that makes this life look like one day?

Earning the respect of others is easy
first, don't act ****** or do anything ******
respect yourself and how you wish to be seen
don't go around acting like everyone's queen

have kindness and love and an unselfish heart
so gossip and slander won't tear you apart
present good things for others to say about you
and to all of your promises always stay true

don't talk all the time or be braggy and boast
this is what annoys some people the most
others can't love and respect you and care
if you are just filled up with your own hot air

be trustworthy, generous, thoughtful, and kind
and then you will be so surprised when you find
that others will speak out with honorable mention
and you didn't have to do a single thing for attention

itchy tickle little black nose
claws on ends of doggy toes
fluffy tan with big brown eyes
I hope that he never dies
smart and sharp he looks at me
I wonder just what does he see
fluffy tail bounds through snow
man he loves that little word "go"
curled up in a little ball
he makes himself look really small
soft as a cloud and super sweet
I think he knows how to spell "treat"
sliding down the wood-floored hall
chasing after a tennis ball
on my bed he's sleeping sound
I am so happy he's around

I saw an angel look at me
through your eyes I saw her
you're unaware of what I see
but you were open heart so pure
timid as we talked of things
subjects of shame and pain
excuses and fear often clings
but we're opening up again
a lightness came into your eyes
as we enjoyed our simple day
I saw in them reflected skies
we somehow both found our way
through space and time stayed
not knowing we were on a path
the stuff of friendship made
does not make sense in words or math
now here we are in spring
where hope is all around
this beautiful connected thing
true friends' words the sweetest sound

I lay on the hard tiles of my rooftop balcony
The city lights make the night sky like a dark day
billowy clouds roll by as only the strongest stars shine
wistfully, I pretend to wish upon the dim little lights
The lyrics to that old Disney song echoing childhood
my wishes take stronger form, as I beseech the Heavens
I don't care for the hopelessness and the doubts I feel
I fight them with every ounce of my willpower
but it is not enough, Divine help is the only hope
It always comes when I least expect it, but it always comes
The love that I feel, and the fear, the endless restlessness
a mind consumed by the misfiring synapses of ADHD
I want to stay, but I'm afraid that I will run away
Even though I love you, and I'm afraid you fear this too
If only your love would glue me to the ground
While God's love would heal our tattered minds
Then our hearts would be free of this fear at last
And we could share a spot while we stare at the stars

Long and intense though your week may be
You can’t give up, for don’t you see?
That God is always there through it all
Through the things we deal with big and small
Sometimes it seems we’re all alone
When bad things happen we moan and groan
But he is there through thick and thin
And in the end He’ll help us win
We can conquer all our problems
For He is with us and He can solve them
All He asks is that we trust and believe
'Cause He's got something up His sleeve
So lay down your fears and don’t give in
And step back from them and wait for Him

Grinding out the pages for the classes I am in
I do not know my goal, what am I trying to win?
I work and slave away, gaining not a thing
and trying not to glance out at the greenery of spring
this work is never ending, but it's like a rocking chair
I may be doing something, but it doesn't get me anywhere
who am I trying to impress, is there one who even sees
I don't know what the point is, will someone tell me please?
I'm enrolled in this school, and working toward this end
but I'm also part of that school, can you see a trend?
I like to be in school, because I like to learn
good grades are so easy, please tell me it's my turn
work is so much harder, I just can't figure why
I am always reaching but the sky is just too high
what will I be when I grow up, I wish that I knew
but here I am at 30 and I still don't have a clue.
Some people just know, exactly where they're going
or are they really stuck, and it's not them they're showing
some content to work at jobs they hate, to make a buck
but I could never live like that, I want to give a "duck"
then there are those people with the dream jobs in their hand
ah what would life be like to have something just so grand
so here I am my brain in circles sitting in my room
I'll be pondering this till old and gray and rotting in my tomb

A cheerful little bike ride
along a sunny road
doing chores around the house
am I reaping what I sowed?

I have peace and hopefulness
when all is going crazy
people losing jobs
and I'm chillin out here lazy

dinners with a group of friends
watching movies with my roomy
I feel so bad for all those out there
feeling oh so gloomy

I had a rough and stressful time
over the last 3 years
and now I'm happy and content
I'm crying no more tears

baby iguana crossed my path
I saw a butterfly
these hard times will pass for you too
but it's ok for you to cry

the sun comes out tomorrow
just like it did today
and God is always with us
in all times come what may

I always sabotage myself
whenever I am happy
I make myself feel miserable
but now I'm being sappy

because I fell in love again
nearly impossible to believe
but you just never know
what God has up His sleeve

penance you try to earn
but closure you can find
there's just one thing you must do
stop trying to rewind

the past never makes sense
nor will it ever change
it's best to just move forward
till it is out of range

Then giggles and rainbows
and butterflies and birds
will cheer your every thought
and you won't be angry with my words!

I went on a dark and bitter road
carrying with me a giant load
of anger, fear, and huge regret
and things I wanted to forget
relationship dissolved in fights
so I had to book some flights
to escape my mistake
when I had finally come awake
to see that there was no love here
filled me up with giant fear
I spread that fear all around
by air and sea and on the ground
drowning in puddles of my tears
Jesus reached down through my fears
He took my chin and raised my eyes
but I latched onto unhealthy guys
I prayed and prayed and pushed my way
But God said no, so I couldn't stay
this brought me to a choice, you see
do I trust Him or be angry?
I didn't get the thing I wanted
which could have left me lifelong haunted
Instead I chose to have some faith
not to try to play it safe
All the things I've ever tried
and all the stupid tears I've cried
have lead me to this place I see
where Jesus just wants to love me
When He said no, it was for my good
and now I'm in a much happier mood!
He brought me to battles I couldn't face
took me on runs I couldn't race
He put walls up I couldn't climb
and ran down clocks till out of time
so He could guide me along the way
to a beautiful, and happy day
because His plans for us are great
and with Him, it's never too late!
You won't be happy when you win
so you can go right back to sin
you win when you are already happy
I know it sounds a little bit sappy
So praise the Lord with all your heart
that is the first place to start
praise Him when you've got no reason
and soon you will, in it's due season
Thank Him when it makes no sense
especially when feeling tense
He will give you peace inside
so you don't have to run and hide
He fights our battles when we trust
and does whatever that He must
to show His love and abundance too
He wants you to know, that He loves you!

Here I sit upon the sand
Holding my heart in my hand
Reaching it out to the sea
An offering to what beckons me
My wild heart has found a home
One that leaves me free to roam
Allowed to laugh and be myself
Not sitting on some proper shelf
To fly and fall and sometimes break
And often making my heart ache
But even with the pain I feel
When my passion stirs so real
To let it have me heart and soul
But sweet surrender costs a toll
A life full of adventuring
Does not come without suffering
The ocean took my heart like theft
Sometimes I wonder what is left
But now my heart is not my own
It melted from it's former stone
Awakened from a fitful sleep
By stirrings under the great deep
The beatings in my chest subside
As I become the sea's corpse bride
Pulled so deep I cannot breathe
But not having the strength to leave
I'm lost and found the sea owns me
I'll love it when it's killing me

Heaven is a place where there is no time
Where you're never late and there's always wine
Heaven is a place where the jobs don't ****
Where you never have to stick your hands in guck
Heaven is a place where babies don't cry
Where husbands and wives never cheat and lie
Heaven is a place with no disease
Where nobody gets stung by bees
Heaven is place with lots of food
Where it's also ok if you like to be ****
Heaven is a place where we don't get tired
Where we don't have bosses and we won't get fired
Heaven is a place where there is no dust
Where allergy pills are not a must
Heaven is a place where there is no cleaning
Where nothing we do is ever demeaning
Heaven is a place where we don't have to worry
Where there's no loved ones we have to bury
Heaven is a place where animals can talk
Where lions and lambs will together walk
Heaven is a place where we're never cold
Where our human bodies won't grow old
Heaven is a place where there is no trash
Where we won't have to sell junk to make more cash
Heaven is a place where we're never weak
Where no one is ever afraid to speak
Heaven is a place where hearts don't break
Where we don't have to feel that consuming ache
Heaven is a place where we're never alone
Where everyone here has found a home
Heaven is a place where there is no fear
Where you're truly alive, 'cause He's always near

He heals the broken hearted and sets the captive free
I know this to be true, because He's done so much for me
I cried I giant puddle, till I had no more tears
some are broken for a month, I was broken down for years
to shut out the whole world, I hardened up my heart
and then I let one in, and he shattered it apart
but Jesus picked me up from the broken place inside
where I had run away, to isolate and hide
He showed me how to grow, and fill the holes with Him
and let go of my past, and turn away from sin
He showed me how to live, and what I had to gain
He took away my hurt and fear and washed away my pain
He put loving people in my life to bolster up my hope
and He showed me happy is a choice, now I don't want to mope
we think that when we win, we'll be happy and be free
but actually, victory comes, because you chose happy
so next time you make the choice to curse God and complain
instead ask Him to help you make something good from pain

sitting watching they walk by
on balcony with a trained eye
I see the holes in some of them
where there is a missing gem
some holes are small, barely there
some are huge and everywhere
the more a person has in them
the more they're holding on to sin
when you are making grave mistakes
you don't know the toll it takes
people can feel when you are wrong
they hear your silent villain song
you may not know you have this hole
where once sat your shining soul
but rest assured, it can be filled
if it is only what you willed
so ask the Lord make you whole
and then you will not have this hole

Hope is something you do when all is going wrong
if everything was going right, there would be no reason
hope is a word written in many a song
it comes and goes, it's as changing as the seasons

some days are happy and you just think it will stay
other days are sad and you wonder how it will ever work
on those days, get on your knees and pray
then you'll laugh at the devil with a nice little smirk

you have to take care of a glimmer of hope
if there is just one smoldering piece of it left
don't sit around and let yourself mope
or it will disappear as unexpectedly as theft

hold that hope in the palm of your hand
offer it to God to see what He can do with it
even if you can't see a way, that's ok, He can
so be patient and wait and quietly sit

we all want to do something and don't want to wait
but that might be exactly what is called for
so while you wait get rid of things like fear and hate
so the answers can come, because you're ready for more

God wants to bless you and answer all your prayers
but you have to believe and you have to let Him be
upon Him you can cast all of those cares
He will help you, and only He can set you free

Exactly as He promised is how everything will go
if you don't understand love, then you really should try
that is what He wants and what He's trying to show
He doesn't like it when you're sad He doesn't want to see you cry

He wants you to be joyful, and free and full of HOPE!
everything you wish that you were getting from that lover
attention, affection, respect, trying to find support to cope
He can give you all of these things better than any other

but I just want a boyfriend or a girl to cuddle up to
and I just want a place to live, to pay my bills, and have a home
well He can give you all of that too because He really knows you
and you won't have to search and wander always on the roam

so settled down and trust and wait and you are going to see
that everything your heart desires if you love and trust the Lord
will come to you in ways "impossible" for you and me
and not only those you thought but even so much more!

Thankful little hopeful day
it started with a dream of you
I know that God hears when I pray
I wish that you would know that too
open your heart and let him in
He just wants to help you through
if you let go of all that sin
then you will see that this is true
love is pure and love is right
true love wants what's best for you
so just let go and stop the fight
good things you'll find are more than few
if life would flash before your eyes
then you'd make choices differently
then you could skip those failing tries
because you'd see all so clearly
now what if someone loved you so
that they even died for you
and He only wants to help you grow
into the person that is truly you
when you finally understand
that love is selfless, helpful, kind
then you will be a better man
and realize that you do not mind
all of your desires deep
the ones that you don't tell a soul
God will give you, yours to keep
He will help you reach that goal

how does it feel up there alone?
no regret, no remorse no drive to atone
watching the world revolve around
speak lots of words to hear the sound
they all leave, one after another
driven away, just like every other
why do they go when you push away
why can't they just put up and stay
push them away so they don't get close
especially the ones you love the most
don't think you deserve the attention they give
so you do you and they'll just have to live
violently strike out in temper so bright
always equipped and ready to fight
if they accuse, judge and frustrate
then you feel fine with all of your hate
you want to be loved but lash out in fear
nobody sees that but to me its quite clear
Jesus is there and He'll take all your pain
He never gives up, loves again and again
so go on ahead, and let go and cry
He won't give up, and neither will I.

Passing smile polite little nod
on and on the people plod
you see the lonely in their eyes
and we turn and we despise
the weakness there is our fear
the darkness drawing very near
anxiety from lack of love
we forget to look above
so much selfish running round
till greed drives us into the ground
nobody understanding you
are they even trying to?
but they all want the same
this Jumanji hashtag game
we're tired of people everywhere
but we're looking for our perfect pair
want to be alone, but then we cry
and we complain and wonder why
share yourself just open wide
we all just need no longer hide

You used to be so huge, that I couldn't even picture you
but now that I have traveled I have a better clue
I thought there was one ocean and it went around the middle
but now that I have traveled, I have figured out your riddle
I thought you were even bigger, once I learned all of that
but now that I have traveled I know you're not that fat
I thought the other side was so very far away
but now that I have traveled I know it only takes one day
I thought that if I saw it all my dreams would come to be
But now that I have traveled I know I was trying to find me
I thought I'd find a place that's mine if I went out to roam
but now that I have traveled, I know where there's love its home

I know Jesus loves me
It's in everything I see
when I have a bad day
I know it'll be okay
we're here for a time
short like this little rhyme
but when things do go bad
and I find I'm really sad
just take my eyes off this life
and the struggle to be a wife
and know thankfulness is key
then love's in everything I see

In the beginning when He created you and me
He only wanted us to always be happy
to have amazing fun, and relationships that last
not to have sins that we're escaping from our past

everything was good when He made it at the start
except for one thing, and that's a lonely heart
when it was all still perfect, nothing had gone bad
He created companionship, so our hearts would not be sad

All the lies you hear, that you are not enough
when things don't go your way, and life is kinda rough
you think He doesn't love you, that He doesn't care
you question whether or not He's even really there

You think you're being punished for everything you've done
but that's the very reason that He sent His only son
if you just accept you're loved, and go about your life
giving love to others, without fear of pain or strife

let God fill you up, then let those walls come down
don't protect yourself with walls built all around
open up your heart, and let them all come in
that will give you victory, that is how you win

the battle of the lonely heart, a paradox at best
push away, but long for love, just like all the rest
we're all in this together, if we could only see
reach out and love today, help change this world with me

roaring engines with wind in my hair
so happy that I'm sitting next to you there
driving the boat just as fast as you can
tattooed arms, you're such a **** man
grin on my face that matches my heart
you couldn't even tell that we are apart
giant barracudas in the glittering sea
first time we've done something fun, you and me
the sea plants were waving as we passed them by
you swim so fast it's like you can fly
we scouted and searched through fishes galore
because what we're looking for was something more
we finally came up to that peaceful place
a statue of Jesus with his upturned face
He lifts up his hands from the watery deep
Praying to the Father, our hearts to keep
My hope is in Him because it's not in you
you did flirt with me today, though, that is true
but if I were to leave our love in your future plan
then all would be lost because you're just a man
He may have been sunk at the bottom of the sea
and you've been on a pedestal that was put there by me
but He is the one that gave us this day
this day that was filled with fun, hope, and play
so I'm taking you down from that stand that you're on
I think you'll be happier beside me, now that it's gone.

An acorn is a tiny thing
But out of it a giant springs
It makes a home for birds and bugs
The roots give rocks and boulders hugs
Below it's branches leaves are dried
And broken hearted souls have cried
Tombstones lie below this one
Someone lost their only son
A stream of water near another
Where someone buried their dead mother
But back to other happy things
The peacefulness, wind whisperings
Powerful and mighty is this tree
That it puts hope inside of me
A mosquito flies around my head
Not bothering the lucky dead
But he brings hope to my heart
To get me up for a fresh start
You think you're too small to affect big things
Take note from that tiny terrorist with wings
God gave us nature for peace to be found
That's why I'm sitting here on the ground
People are buried all over the place
That's why this spot has a different pace
No one is worried or hurrying by
Nobody crying or asking God why
They've been sleeping for hundreds of years
Their prayers have been answered, no more tears
They sleep and wait for the glorious Son
To come down and say, 'alas, it is done.'

Don't think so hard if it's this or it's that
does this thing make me look to thin or too fat
if I take one Major and ignore the rest
if I end up failing just one stupid test

do I look much better with short hair or long
I'm just so stressed out, 'cause what if I'm wrong?!
the left or the right how do I pick a side?
will I end up lonely or will I be a bride?

If I pick one job and I hate what I do
is that worse than never even having a clue?
I'll have space that is mine if I'm buying a home
but what if I'm stuck and I need to just roam?

every decision we make can decide our whole fate
but if we don't choose soon, then it will be too late
decisions decisions I just do not know
do I have to make one? Or just go with the flow?

but you'll end up with nothing if you don't try hard
but I just don't know what I'm working toward
do I want the hubby, kids and that life?
am I really cut out to be somebody's wife?

or am I a free spirit who needs to run wild
who can't be tied down by a man or a child
what will happen in life if I never choose?
if I just ignore it will I certainly loose?

if you have been reading and it's stressing you out
if you're in this too, don't cry and don't pout
there is an answer to all of this stress
it's so very simple, that you'll never guess

and you will try and complicate things
as you chase after money or engagement rings
if you let go of stress and just listen with care
to these answers I give you, these things that I share

the reason that you can't decide what to do
is not because there is something wrong with you
its because you're afraid and you're letting it drive
but if you want to like the place that you arrive

Then you have to let go 'cause you're not in control
you think that you are, but you don't even know
we hold on so tight and we fight and we cry
then scream up at God and cast blame and ask why

"I'm trying to help you, but you won't let go!
you don't even know what you want, but I know
I'm trying to give you the desires of your heart
but you have to let me, yes that is your part

Fear not I am with you, no I will not leave
I only have gifts of love up my sleeve
so hold out your hands and give me your fears
and I will give you hope to replace all those tears

Now sit up straight and just choose one path
don't think about probability or statistical math
just follow your heart to wherever it leads
don't worry about if you end up in the weeds

just keep on going and do not ever quit
don't rely on yourself, your charm or your wit
just trust and believe in Me I will provide
so, take My hand, and lets go for a ride."