I went out into the country to go for a walk
I'd heard about this place with the beautiful view
but so many people had heard this talk
there were crowds of them not just a few

discouraged I got myself back in the car
I'd wanted to go and find peace outside
fortunately, I didn't have to go far
to find somewhere quiet where I could hide

I pulled down this road that said "dead end"
and I almost turned around and went back
but I didn't want to follow everyone's trend
and then I saw it, a little old track

so I hopped the fence and followed it down
green and lush with a white butterfly
followed the path to the river's sound
and there in the grass this little bridge lie

so covered in moss it blended right in
with logs for it's sides on railroad ties
and there I gave Jesus all of my sin
I told Him the truth and spared all my lies

I had the choice to follow the rest
to this view on a mountain up in the sun
but following God, leads to the best
they're all competing, but I felt like I'd won

Thankfulness for little things
even though you wanted wedding rings
can lead you on to something great
'cause you showed love instead of hate
faithfulness in little things
secrets kept in whisperings
can lead to gaining someone's trust
which in this life is such a must
kindness shared with little things
a drowning bee with soaking wings
can lead to glimmers full of hope
and give you reasons not to mope
if you can be good with all little things
and let go the hurts and fights and stings
then "impossible" miracles could manifest
because even in small, you gave your best

tiny little precious town
wearing a gorgeous pine tree gown
with hair of waves an ocean blue
not too many people, this is true
the sort of folks that you will find
are very friendly and super kind
they'll work for free to show they care
and when they charge it's always fair
when you're lost they'll show the way
and tell you that they hope you'll stay
pristine lakes and streams abound
around this awesome little town
it's easy to find some peace and quiet
and stick to that super healthy diet
so if you're feeling too much stress
and your life feels like a giant mess
then make your way to a small town
and you may find you'll lose the frown

I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
is it more frustrating
this stupid one way hungering
to love a specific man
to have had him in your hand
and now he's gone away
and you wait for the day
when he will return
and you forget about the burn
or is it worse
does it feel more like a curse
to hunt and hunt and see
each new face could it be he
each time you're given eyes
is he the one to end your tries
no I cannot decide
though many times I've tried
if more strength is required
or which makes you more tired
to wait and wait and hope and hope
to try to believe and cling to that rope
or to search and look and try out the new
and hope that you'll find your one love true?
waiting and hoping
or searching and groping
looking for love is a frustrating thing
it's best to just stop, and see what God brings

Love is unconditional and also unafraid
Love doesn't judge you and ask what you get paid
Love waits patiently for you to come around
Love does not stalk when you don't want to be found
Love does not assume that it knows who you are
Love waits for you to share when you come back from afar
Love does not seek its own and then plan out your life
Love is not upset when you don't want to be a wife
Love wants what is best for you and always prays it so
Love does not make you feel trapped, it always lets you go
Love makes you feel free at last when you accept it in
Love is what God has for us, regardless of our sin

I sat among the lupins
a sunny breezy day
my dog was rolling in the grass
I love to watch him play

I picked at little flowers
and watched the bugs fly by
I never get to enjoy the spring
and I will tell you why

usually I'm sneezing
my eyes are itching so
I can't even go outside at all
to watch the green stuff grow

today I soaked up sunshine
and loving every minute
I hope my allergies are gone
'cause I want to be out in it

So I sat among the lupins
till the sunshine went away
soaking up the good green earth
as I thanked God for this day

Where does it all start, I don't see the beginning
but when there are 5, it's a symbol you are winning
round and round they go, seamless but entwined
and if you are like me, they're invading your whole mind
these circles in my head, they spin out of control
it makes it difficult, to focus on just one goal
they all seem interlocked, connected to each other
so which should pick first? Is it this one or another?
one is for relationships, it constantly seems to spin
it's in the center of the others, and we always want to win
to win the guy or girl, have the perfect combination
most of the time, this leads to nothing but frustration
'cause people aren't a prize, that you can conquer and move on
once you win their heart, they don't like it when you're gone
another ring's career, and this one can be tough
especially when your identity is wrapped up in this stuff
what if you choose wrong and it doesn't seem to fit
what if it's too stressful and you just can't handle it
what if you get bored and want something that is new
or you waste too much time, on trying out a few
then there are your hobbies, another choice to choose
trying to pick out something, you know that you won't lose
you want to be good at stuff but you don't know what to do
'cause you like too many things, but none of it is "you"
your friends are an important circle that you want to trust
and you will cut them out, if they hurt you, 'cause you must
push them away or pull them close depending what they do
they have to be the ones who are always there for you
the last of these great circles that wind around your head
is the identity you're trying to find before the day you're dead
who are you, what do you want, when will you feel ok
each day you wake up feeling that this is not the day
there's one more hoop to jump through before you will be there
and then you'll finally walk through this life without a care
it's hard to navigate this life through these olympic rings
circling through your brain, they pack a punch that stings
they sing a little song telling you you're not enough
that if you figure all this out, then you will have the stuff
then you will be miss confident, or mr. got it right
then you'll know you won, you're the victor in this fight
but the circles will keep spinning till you realize this ain't true
you've always been enough, you just need to see that too

Diving off the high dive into the dark unknown
sometimes in life, we think we're all alone
the silence of the water as it closes o'er our head
giving us the peace that we'll feel when we are dead
worried about what others think, we walk along a beam
feeling so frustrated, that we just want to scream
I just don't want to care, what they think of me
I just want to finally be opened up and free
joy sparks up inside, flipping through the air
finally, things going right, I'm free without a care
until the gun shot rings and I'm running for my life
jumping over hurdles of pain and fear and strife
gliding over ice in a sparkling white dress
but one fall from grace, will put me in distress
overanalyzing all the twists and turns of fate
is the one thing about me, that I really seem to hate
I wish I didn't think sometimes, wish I didn't want to know
I'd be so much happier if I could just go with the flow

So many! Covering the entire expanse, barely space between
little dots of hope, wishes afar, glittering and answering
some bright with promise, a heart of faith, believing
some dim, doubtful, but still glimmering, shyly
scattered designs, untold, mysterious and majestic
love, spelled out above in angelic linguistics
a rushing sound nearby, not anxious as with humans
desiring nothing, hurrying nowhere, just pressing on
languid, endless, steadiness of a river, speaking perseverance.
a melody of croaking, rustling, and high pitched "singing"
peering into blackest forest, heart pounding, hands shaking
enveloped in the earth's night symphony of excitement
a troubled soul, laying in the deserted road, seeking
the songs of love, the vast power...at last, takes heart.

I miss you so, though I put on a smile
it hasn't been long, not even awhile
but you're over there on the other side
and I'm over here, not trying to hide
you think I gave up, that I couldn't stay
but I'm working hard to prepare for the day
when I am your girl, and we are together
with a ring in your hand and words of forever
I'll conquer the world, just so you can see
That you are so very important to me
I love you with every beat of my heart
and I hate it that we are so far apart
head full of hope and a heart full of love
I left you in care of the One from above

White. Solid white nothing else in sight
the glasses the little house wore awakening from night
the promise of a sun as the white grew very bright
stretching from a long nap the green giant finally reveals himself
laughing rumble of tumbling rocks as he wears the white a temporary mustache
a big yawn from lady lake sends the white upward with her morning breath
Bursting out in gloriousness the sun glares the sulking fog into submission
he slinks downward thinking to find solace near the gentle water reflecting his image back to himself
lady lake has other plans as she stares up at her true love high in the sky and chooses his image to reflect, warming her loving gaze with the heat of his as he stares down at her.
Their love finally warms to the point that Foggy Mcdougal can take it no longer and shrinks away with his nefarious plans for the next evenings delight

It's all about money and why do we care
little strip of paper, man with white hair
we struggle and cry like its all that we need
it causes pain and we work till we bleed
over paper and coin marriages break
makes people greedy, they take and they take
if you have none, some people won't date you
if you have too much then people will hate you
we put all of our effort into getting this stuff
but even with plenty it's never enough
we want it so people will like us a lot
they don't actually like us, just want what we got
so people will like them better instead
but they'll just want it as soon as you're dead
there's a secret that I am going to tell you
if you just like people, then they'll like you too
if you do what you want, with all of your heart
and put others first, right from the start
the money will magically fall in your lap
like a never ending money tree tap
the secret to more money is to care less
if you don't "love" money then there is no stress
if you're obsessed with a person then they will not stay
same goes for your money, you just chase it away
the most rewarding way you can get rich
is just do your best, and don't be a *****

It simmers inside like a *** set to boil, this roiling bubbling never ending restlessness. Like a rabbit in the forest, seeming content for a time, yet never letting down the guard. Always alert, always watching, always ready to run. Fight or flight a way of life, there is no life without this strife. Content to be and sit and relax, claw my eyes out like angry cats. Punching holes in walls with fists, and screaming into pillow fits. Drinking drowning all it out, for false release and sultry pout. Use them up and toss them out, not what you were talking about. You knew you needed something there, to make this life seem somewhat fair. Nothing going right at all, this anger eating feed it’s call. growing green monstrosity threatening lives all around me with negativity. Bringing darkness to the light the shadowed soul of fight or flight. The angry red and growing pain is searing every dried up vein. Till nothing left but this monster, blinded slave to all it’s incurred. Anger never served it's master, turns the tables shackles of disaster, and satisfaction never gained by feeding what it thirsts in vain this rain of destruction all around never makes a life abound. The monster growing stronger still will hunger more and never filled and feed it though you might and try it will never ends until you die.

Unless you take a sword of light and fight it with nobility and tell it truth and peace and love and right it with humility. It can be beat, it can be killed, it does not have to win. Surrender anger to the Lord, and turn back from your sin.

Hi, I'm Negative Nancy
It's nice to meet you
are you feeling happy?
Let me help you feel blue
are you doing well?
you ain't got a clue.

Hi, I'm Mopey Marla
and I'm here to stay
I hope you don't have plans
'cause everything's gray
so just stay in bed
'cause it's not a good day

Hi, I'm Fearful Freddy
here come with me
throw up some walls
don't trust any you see
all people are selfish
I know you agree

Hi, I'm Angry Alan
what did that guy do?
well get even with him!
what is wrong with you
provoke him a little
then you can sue

Hi, I'm Loving Lord
I can carry your load
I love you so much
that's truth, it's not code
I am always with you
on life's long hard road

The sea is calm right 'fore the storm
I swim along, the water's warm
the moon so bright it calls my name
I answer as a moth to flame

a path he draws me with his light
I follow the trail of pale white
the stars are sparkling high above
all bathed in some creative love

up from the depths I swish my tail
catapult through air I sail
arch my back to dive back down
a simple joy my heart has found

hurricane's hold no fear for me
for I live deep within the sea
but if a sailor starts to drown
I hope it's where he can be found

for I would like a prince you see
a pirate man who loves the sea
bring him down to my watery home
where he and I can ever roam

Makes me do the things I hate to teach me what I need to know
Of all my friends in the world, she's always there when I am low
Thankfully she tells me how it is and what I need to hear
However life is tossing me, and when things aren't really clear
Everything she does for me is because of all of her great love
Remember to thank her for who she is, and thank the Lord above

You are ******* up, but I am too
everybody tells me not to love you
I see myself reflected in your blue eyes
I hear myself speaking in all of your lies
I feel myself connected to your heart
even when we're on oceans far apart
I see the anger and hurt in your soul
girls want to change you that is their goal
to fix you because you're so broken inside
then to run off and be somebody else's bride
You are not a damaged project to me
you're just the guy that I love, can't you see?
I feel like we are so much the same
so it baffles me why we're still playing this game
with me I know you can be totally free
and with you I just want to also be me

A man swung his pick in the cold
but then became bitter and old
he gave up instead
'cause doubt got in his head
so the next who came by struck the gold

in an attic there once was a man
he had thought up a grandiose plan
so in someone else's house
he started drawing a mouse
and because of him we have Disneyland

he couldn't get anything right
try and try as he might
after 10,000 tries
and so many whys
he finally made the bulb for the light

two brothers just like me and you
what they were doing nobody knew
people thought they were crazy
and their plans were hazy
but then one day that little plane flew!

So if you come to the end of your rope
don't you dare just sit there and mope
giving up isn't right
so stand up and fight
you'll win if you just hold on to hope!

creeping crawling something burning
everything is somehow yearning
thoughts of deep and twisted sighings
sometimes you just know they're lying
fun it stops and round it goes
and comes again so touch your nose
its still there its not that cold
but check your hair it's getting old
rambling down the ramp of summer
lake boat fills us back with wonder
you thought I was saying i'm rambling
better writing than sit and gambling
what comes next I do not know
but I keep writing even though
I'll stop when I run out of words
oh look there goes some pretty birds
oh wait their fish but they are flying
big fat tuna down there dying
sitting sweet on dinner plates
oh shut up this fish is great
ok I think I'm stopping now
right after I just take this bow

I get nothing from you
you're mean as mean can be
but I want something FOR you
and it can set you free

I could love a sweet guy
who would give me everything
instead I look up to the sky
and lift you up unto my King

you're filled with nothingness
you're just an empty shell
but I pray for your forgiveness
so you don't end up in Hell

nothing's what you have for me
not one thing you can give
my love for you is still free
and I hope that you will live

From morning till night so many steps we take
and so many filled with a fear of mistake
if I do this thing how will my future fare
but if I do that thing, will I ever get there
indecisiveness comes and steals all our breath
so frustrated and lost and scared half to death
to have enough energy snort lots of *******
then fill that xanax 'script again and again
gotta drink to relax and forget all the stress
hungover and frazzled, your life is a mess
what if I had done this and not that
did I make the right choice? wait, am I getting fat?
there's so much going on that you lack concentration
and everything's spiraling causing frustration
perfection perfection, if you can just reach that goal
then you can finally relax then, and deal with the toll
If you were to just take one day at a time
don't even think ahead to the end of this rhyme
just take each day step by step, hour by hour
because honestly, you don't have any more power
you cannot control what will happen tomorrow
whether you'll be filled up with joy or with sorrow
a soldier who ran 10 miles one bright morning
that night found himself with one leg without warning
A millionaire's yacht burned up in a fire
for all his hard work and right thinking to fill his desire
a guy with the perfect family life
suddenly finds he has a cheating wife
nothing is certain in this world we're in
except for the bad repercussions of sin
relax and enjoy the years of your prime
and just live your life, one day at a time

Dear God I'm so alone, why have you left me so
I feel so confused, so much that I don't know
I'm guilty for my past, love I don't deserve
all of your Commandments I'm trying to observe
if I can just be good, then will you hear my cry
when I'm crying out, will you answer why?
why have you deserted me to be all alone
is there nothing I can do, so I can atone?
please hear me when I pray, I can't get out of bed
I'm so tangled up, with the thoughts inside my head

Dear child you're not alone, I'm always by your side
I'm trying to be close to you, it's you that ran to hide
I don't tell you everything because I want you to trust
that everything you go through is something that you must
there's not enough that you can do to be good enough
I love you no matter what, regardless of that stuff
I told you to do things, because they're good for you
not because I just wanted to tell you what to do
my sacrifice has saved you, not all of your work
so stop thinking you are God, or you'll feel like a ****
get up off that bed, and with others share my love
and I promise I will bless you, with good things from above