I struggle to find the reason.
Why I’m pushing though pain.
Turning life,
Into survival.

you told me your biggest fear was losing me.
the thing about fears is you can easily get over them.

so you faced the fear
you said would **** you,
you faced it without hesitation.

and you left.
left me.

after you promise you never would.

I'm tired.
Tired of everything.
I just want to sleep,
And never wake up again.

No, I'm not lazy,
I'm not running away from life.
I'm just tired of the world and myself,
And too tired to change anything.