My school's doors closed not so long ago
On that last day
We treat it like it was our last
Which it was
But it didn't feel right
It was all too soon
All so wrong
All so fake
But I'm Happy

I wasn't allowed out of my house
Not for a while they said
Things are too dangerous right now
It's not safe for us all
If I stay home
Everyone will be safe
You gotta play your part
Or the world comes
Crumbling down
But I'm still Happy

I've been here for too long
My body grows impatient
My mind grows tired
My fingers go numb
My arms go limp
My chest feels heavy
My lungs feel tight
I can't breath
I can't think
I can't do
But I'm happy still

They said it'd end soon
That it wouldn't last too long
They said we'd be able to
Go out
See our friends
See our family
Feel a sense of freedom
The breeze of salvation
They didn't lie
They just didn't know
A false truth to keep us
Me
Happy

I'm trapped
Am I happy?

Awake in the day
I lie with the moon
Where the rain pours down
With a clear blue sky
And the wind shakes the trees
Standing still and straight
The grass is lush
All brown and dry
The sun soars high
A sky of orange
A day gone by
Time is still

Must be opposite day

I watched her cry today

She had just spoken her words
The ones far, deep down
The ones she thought would never come out
But here now she drowns

The lies she showed the world
And the things she chose to show
She did it so she could feel safe
Till she reached that all time low

She had let it all out
One big final roar
She had let it all out
She couldn't take no more

And here we are now
The conversations end
The tears had all now gone
But we'd only reached the bend

I watched her cry today
And soon days after
But whether I'll see those days to come
Is in the sound of someones laughter

I don't know how I feel
Am I cold or alone?
And I don't know how I should feel
Am I doing this right?
My emotions don't make sense
Am I supposed to feel like this?
And it's driving me nuts

I was a happy boy
When my innocence was free
But then life hit me in the face
And I just didn't feel like me
A girl broke my heart
My family expect much
Mum and Dad are at war
And talking only deepens cuts

So yes, I don't know how I feel
And I don't how I should feel
My emotions don't make sense
And it's driving me nuts
And there's no but to this end
No turn around happy stanza
Because all I know is how to not feel happy
And it's driving me nuts

The sun's out today
It's Summer again
The fresh grass
Cut down to size
The beach is full
The waves high
The kids are laughing
Life is fine

My skin is warm
The sand a duvet
The sun beats down
Its rays bright
The shade won't help
The heat's too much

My skin is warm
But my body is cold
It shivers in the day
In the sun
And quakes during the night
In this empty bed

The sun's gone away
Summer hits the hay
The cold rushes in
With that cold icy grin
It's too cold now
So I ask myself how
How does one get through this?
When the bed lies empty of bliss

On top of a hill
There's a bird that caws
And on that hill
There's a gun that draws

A top of the hill
There's a chick that cheaps
And next to that
A flooding creek

On that hill
An echoing groan
On that same hill
A bullet does go

On top of a hill
There's a bird that sleeps
And on that hill
There's a gun that breathes

I remember waking to school together Just you and I
You'd laugh at my jokes
I'd smile at your giggle

Your cheesy grin
When you saw me in the halls
The way you made me feel
I got from no one else

But then the pain began
Another broken heart
They tore you down
You couldn't get back up

But I stayed strong
Just so you could
I talked every night
Despite morning aches

And then the pain began
Another broken heart
Except it wasn't yours
It was mine that fell apart