Eject me into space so I jet past Earth's Moon
Past Mars, Jupiter and Saturn
Past Uranus, Neptune and Pluto
Till I leave your Solar System and escape its Gravity
I am hurtling through space, through Galaxies burning fire and ice
Past Nebulas nursing your Stars into unfathomable life
I have felt the ripping of a Black Hole against my very being
I have seen seen Civilisations bloom and burn all at once
I have passed the edge of space into the unknown void that exists beyond your comprehension
And I have stared into the eyes of time itself and torn myself apart piece by piece till I am nothing more than what I started as
Nothing
So
I open my parachute and I stop
I am still and I float without reason or control
But I am still and I have stopped
I can breath
I have seen the greatest wonders of the Universe in the blink of an eye
Experienced the greatest fear and terror no-one has ever or could ever know
Known all there is to know and thought all there is to think and forgotten nothing
But I still missed you along the way
And I think of you now here in my room

When did the clouds last shower
And when did the sun last beam
When did the bee last soar
And when did the fox last strut

Time is a second, a minute and an hour
Time is a day, a month and a year
Time is a death, a birth and all that's inbetween
But time is a mystery when you are not near.

Been sad for a month now
And I don't really talk much anymore
A loud kid gone quiet
Blending in the crowd
Everything is a snarky comment
Everything is a jab in my side
Everything is a loss of me

I spend my nights alone
Hang-up those calls
Ignore those messages
I remove myself from the world
Lost in my own thoughts
To only fall harder for this loneliness I started in

I think it's my fear grabbing ahold of me
The fear of losing
The fear of failing
The fear of needing
The fear of letting go
And hurting
Hurting her
Hurting me
Hurting them
And losing myself some more

You left me too long ago
It doesn't hurt anymore
Well, maybe a little
But I hated you for it
All of it
I hated what you did and
I hated what you didn't do
I hated what you said and
I hated what you didn't say
I hated what you became and
I hated what you couldn't become
I hated it all
And I hate what you did to me
How you'd smile at me with those dimpled cheeks
How you'd look up at me with that love in your eyes
How you'd hold me when I needed holding
And how'd you kiss me when I needed kissing
I hate all of what you did
And loved every part of it
I just needed something to hate
Or I'd love you forever

You dropped out of view
Just over that low, low skyline
Where the roads travel further than my eyes can comprehend
Between rigid cliffs, where the tree does bloom
And the water bungees with snapped cords
Where the deer stride and the hare watches
Quietly for passing to come

Lost on the road that takes me home
Zebras pass me by though I still feel alone
Caught in a loop that goes round and round
Caught in a jail to which I'm bound

Eyes closed and right foot down
Hands stay steady but ready to drown
The night light beams on me like headlights
And then I'm home to continue lonely nights

I am dead
There is no pain
No sorrow
No nothing
Just me
My thoughts are what keep me company now,
Keep me warm
Not the flesh that once held me
But
They now fade away
With the gift that is life