I'm
Lost with
Out your  words of
Vanity.
Eternally searching for
Your touch
Over and over again
Under my skin.

I'm on the wrong timeline-
For I wanted to be on the one
Where we existed
Where we still had fun.
Where I became your husband
And you gave me a son.

Tonight is the night
That my soul is freed
From this contaminated,
Cursed body of mine.
Tonight is the night
That I end the suffering
End the endless, miserable
Nights that I've condemned
Myself to.
Tonight is the night
That the last breath is taken.

Would you stop abusing the world I Love You.
It doesnt mean anything to me anymore.
I dont believe in love. After all, everything nice and happy in the beginning will eventually fade and only sadness will fill in those spaces.
Why waste those three effortless words when in reality its taken for granted.
I don't want to hear those three words not unless you can define it without an explanation nor without saying it.
Please stop this infectious spread of I love You if you don't carry a permanent everlasting meaning to it.

I'm like Clark Kent,
Hiding my true self from the world.
Refusing to show anyone my true self
Because underneath,
I'm too weak.
Like superman,
I found a Jane.
Who I want to peel my Clark Kent layer
And see the true me.
But alas, it cannot be.
If they knew they'd use her,
And destroy all of me.

"What am I to you?" She asked.
"Stronger than all of the kryptonite in the world..."