I come from a dark place
But please, do not throw that in my face
I have made my share of mistakes,
And some are unforgivable, some are a disgrace
But that is not who i am anymore
For i have grown, i have changed
I don’t aim for highs, i aim for lows
I aim for happiness, and love
Not things that can harm me, **** me, or hurt me
I have seen the light, i have been set free
For i am an addict, but i am recovering
For my past is not my future
And my future is not my past
These feelings i have, are sure to last
Because i am me, i am myself
I am free, i am alive, i am no longer dead
The demons, they have left, they have left my head
The voices will always be there,
But that’s fine, i don’t care
I’ve proven people can change, people can grow
I come from a dark place
And that’s all anyone needs to know.


Stephanie Davis
10/30/2020

I have many hopes and I have many dreams
What I don’t have a lot of, is time, or so it seems
Every day, I try so hard to complete my goals
To achieve my long term dreams
But it’s time, that I fail to gain, or so it seems
There are things I want to complete in life
Before I am gone, before I have gone away
I tackle my dreams day by day
But I feel like I am getting nowhere
Will it happen today? Will it happen tomorrow?
Will it happen anytime, anywhere?
All my hopes, all my dreams
Are they slipping? Are they growing?
Am I going to succeed? Or am I already failing?
I have many hopes and I have many dreams
What I don’t have a lot of, is time, or so it seems…
When will I get the chance to be someone?
When will I get the chance to be something?
Are my hopes and dreams worth nothing?
Or am I hoping too much? Am I dreaming too much?
Is there even anything that can be known as such?
I have many hopes and I have many dreams
What I don’t have a lot of, is time, or so it seems…
So it seems.. Time is of virtue, so I shall begin soon..
Before it becomes another wasteless memory
Before it becomes another lost dream
Another lost hope, before it becomes anything less important
My hopes and my dreams, are what I thrive for
Are what I live for, I’ll give all my devotion
If I can just get my foot through that first door..
I’ll gain time, I’ll gain hope, I’ll gain more dreams
But right now, time is what I don’t have a lot of, or so it seems.


Stephanie Davis
10/23/20

I didn’t know how much I would need you
I didn’t know how much I would miss you
I didn’t know how much anything would ever make sense again
But here I sit, alone, at a table with tears rolling down my face
Remembering…. Remembering everything
Remembering the days we spent together
Remembering the nights I’d sit up alone
To wake up every single day, and these memories go to the unknown
I can feel you all around me, no matter the weather
I remember you, I remember us, I remember everything
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still need you
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still miss you
I didn’t know that I would grow up and still nothing would make sense
You gave me life, you gave me memories, you gave me your warm embrace
I hope when you left you found peace and you found grace
As I sit here and write this poem, if you’d call it that
The tears flow silently down my face.. The face that you once held in your hands
The face that you once gave strict demands
The face that longs for you every day since you’ve been gone
I’m still sitting here, remembering, remembering everything
Remembering the days we spent together
Remembering the nights we’d talk together
Remembering the childhood you helped make pure
Remembering the woman who you wanted me to be
I think it’s time, that I tell myself it’s okay, to set you free
This is NOT goodbye, but until we see each other again.
I love you, forever and always, gone, but never forgotten.


Stephanie Davis
10/23/20

Sometimes what we want isn’t what we need
And sometimes, what we need isn’t what we want
Sometimes, when we fail, we truly succeed
And sometimes, when we succeed, we are truly failing
Life is all or nothing but a mystery
And sometimes, living, doesn’t come freely
Sometimes, there are problems
And sometimes, there are solutions
But there is never a day
That can go without either….
For life has its ups and downs
And it's up to us, to fix our crowns
Sometimes, life isn’t what we want to do
And sometimes, life is all we have to get through
Sometimes, the world can be cruel
But sometimes, the world can be unglued
For life itself, needs help along the way
And because sometimes, it’s never a good time to walk away
So just remember, sometimes what we want, isn’t what we need
And sometimes what we need, isn't want we want

Stephanie Davis
10/23/20

You slapped me in the face
All because I was there at the wrong time
I was there, at the wrong place
You kicked me while I was down
All because I was younger and naive
You told me lies, only because you know I’d believe
Everything and anything you’d ever say to me
You pushed me while I wasn’t looking
All because you couldn’t stand to see me cry
You’re the reason I wanted to die
But things have changed and now I’m grown
I can handle things on my own
Being without you or around you
Has made me open my eyes
To a world full of love, and no more lies
No more hurt, no more pain
You can no longer throw shade at my name
You never cared, you never shared
You just wanted another piece to your abusive game
I don’t stand for bullying, or abuse
So let these words help you, become a better you
If you don’t try to change, then what’s the use
You’ll forever be a bully,
and I'll forever be a survivor.


Stephanie Davis
10/17/20

I’d be lost without you in my life
I’d be lost without you as my wife
I’d be lost without you in my world
I’d be lost without my forever girl
I’d be lost without your shining smile
I’d be lost with myself for a little while
I’d be lost without you here with me
I’d be lost without you loving me freely
I’d be lost without you endlessly
So please, don’t ever leave me
Because without you, I am not me
Without you, I am nothing
But with you, I am something
For you and I are one in the same
Someday soon we will have the same last name
We are two hearts beating as one
With a love, that can never be undone

Stephanie Davis
10/17/20

Being a diabetic
Comes with less treats and more tricks
Being a diabetic
Comes with many highs, and many lows
Being a diabetic
Comes with little catches, and so many blows
Being a diabetic
Has its ups and downs
Being a diabetic
Comes with problems from all around
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of disabilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with the lack of your abilities
Being a diabetic
Comes with lots of responsibilities
Being a diabetic
Messes with your heart
Being a diabetic
May literally tear you apart
Being a diabetic
Comes with many hopes
Being a diabetic
Comes with a lot of false hope
There is no cure
There is no fixing
But those who are a diabetic
Can conquer the way of living
We can survive by fighting
We can live long lives
As soon as we find the silver lining
As long as the sun is shining
Our smiles can keep on flying

I am a type 1 diabetic and I know the struggle. If anyone reads this and needs a friend to talk to, I’m here.


Stephanie Davis
10/15/20