He didn't say goodbye to me
As he closed his eyes for the last time
And fell asleep in an eternal dream
A state that is far more sublime

He didn't even thank me
For giving him a home
Or providing him food and water
Sharing what I owned

I walked with him
Talked to him
Pet his hairy head

I lived with him
Stayed with him
And this is what he said

"Hi owner, how's it going
I owe to you quite a bit
But I'm a dog so I can't do much
Except maybe fetch or sit

Instead, I'll remember
The nice things we did
Together while I lived

I'm going to go
And I won't return
But I'll leave with you a gift

It's all the cool fun memories
Those things inside your head
That you sometimes think about
When you're alone or before you go to bed

And even though it's not a lot
I'd like to let you understand
That it was a blast being by your side

And that I hope I was a good friend"

I promised myself a lot of things

I promised myself no matter what happens I’ll always keep my wrists away from my knife
But my knife was done with my wrists a long time ago, because now its past my elbows and making its way to my throat
And it just itches to finally take me out of my personal hell

I promised myself a lot of things

I promised myself no matter what happens I’ll always stay happy
But all I can think about is from the day of birth my mother was never here for me
And I find it crazy how people still have the nerve to make fun of me

I promised myself a lot of things

I promised myself that no matter what happens I’ll always stay strong for my mom
But it’s impossible to start my day off right because of how exhausting another night full of nightmares and crying can be
And it hurts because even though my dad left, I’m sure my mom wanted the best for me

I promised myself a lot of things
But I broke them
I promised myself to never **** myself
But I broke them all

I can’t explain why I love you so much?
I mean is it even possible to love something you never had?

Is it even possible to miss the touch I never felt?
To miss the warm hugs I never hugged?
The soft kisses I never kissed?
The love I never loved?

Is it even possible to miss the voice I never heard?
To miss the beautiful soft-spoken words?
The angry voice for not doing my work?
Or the sarcastic jokes?

Is it even possible to miss the sight I never saw?
The loving, crystal-like eyes?
And the beautiful smile?
The beautiful hair?

Its just so exhausting to live without you
I’m just so exhausted living without you
I just wish that I could finally be with you

But I will be forced to live another year without you
But no matter how much it hurts
I will push on simply because I will always love you

Signed by your only child


Happy Mothers Day mom. I love you

Every morning I wake up a disappointment
Not only to my mom watching from the clouds, but to the person staring back at me through the mirror
I just feel as if the person I see is never good enough, and if I was any better maybe my life wouldn’t be so rough
Because instead of dealing with my problems
I drown my sorrows away
Every night I just lay awake, sleepless because of heartache
Then I'm up afraid of forcing another bottle of champagne
Yes I say forced because it’s the only way to get away from my pain

I tried everything but nothing seems to work
I tried making friends but that didn’t work
I tried being thankful but that didn’t work
I tried being happy but that didn’t work
I tried making love but that didn’t work


I tried

There’s only one thing I haven’t tried yet
It’s an idea I try to force myself to forget
But it’s hard when your life is full of nothing but regret

Maybe I should just do it
Just kick the chair over and be over with it
Or just take that final step and be over with it
Or just pull the ******* trigger and be done with it