I laid eyes on the one I loved
and they sang
they dug in my ground
not slipping on sand
no more pain
I was safe
and as I was crushing
I found you were there
in the hard times
but then...
the hope well
let's say it got
CRUSHED

alcohol kisses
a numb feeling
it's distracting
it feels nice
and yet I feel the darkness
it's coming up
better take another drink
ahh good numbness

because of infatuation
I left a scar
on the one who actually cared
and to be honest
sometimes I feel like I am the scar
because really I know your hurt
but maybe you will heal
but my heart will never
after what I did there will always be a line
cutting and constricting
and it will never go away
I am the scar
marring your arms and face...
I am the scar

a talk was what they said
when they ripped me open
they dug up my grave
left it open
my blood soaking the ground
my cries kept me awake at night
and now...
well now I'm underground
it was just a talk

I could feel the metal
burning and changing
into a vice
and it held me close
it was warm and nice
until it burned my home
and I was left alone

I loved you, you were my world
my sun
the universe to me
I revolved around a axis
turning to your voice
and then you left
a pain shattering pain
that will scar forever

the sand is there
oh the sweet salt too
and you washed away that love
with hate
I knew it was you
with those electric eyes

I was stepping onto ice
very thin ice
and I slipped fell and heard a crack
only to be swallowed up
by the jaws of water
a coldness only pain can bring
and you caused that when you left
you broke your promise although
why would you care you only were the world to me

this is a whisper from me to you
and yet it spread like wild fire
so as the fire gets out of control
I blow out the flame that started it
and that is why i'm done trying

a little tiny whisper can **** you
a knife to the heart
a lighter melting you
I still have the memories
I thought you loved me
but you whispered
and I was gone
you said I love you the same day you left
how can a person be so cruel

I've always been weighed down
by tons of ocean water
drowning me
and it was always building
getting heavier and stronger
and I was taking my last breath
and seeing my memories flash in the fire
the ocean was on fire
and the guilt was the culprit

I was always thinking that when we left we would have lot's of time
not lot's of arguing
I guess I was deluding myself when I should've been guarding my heart from pain
I'm sorry but there is no shield in place anymore
there used to be but that shattered years ago and now there is no protection
so I guess there is a gateway but please don't overuse it
it's the only protection I have left
I guess I thought I could control who came in but the shield broke years ago

kisses from the rain tell me where I am
they always made me want to disappear
and for once I think it cam true
and for the first time in my life I was happy
for a little until
I was alone and it dawned on me
that those kisses were a curse

you stole the person I love
you stole their happiness
and their joy
so sorry if I seem like a demon
but... if you hurt them I will come for you
with bright blue flames
and take your heart for what you did

I've been laying in this bed for a couple years now
wondering if your gonna leave me for him
for the guy who treats you like ****
and I guess I should've guessed you would go
I mean you've been tired from the beginning
I guess I was just a drug
so you wouldn't tire

I feel like the runaway
leaving behind the stars
and starting in the dark

soft lines of brushes
lining my face with color
so pale and soft
I am divine
they line my face and they will never know
I will let my pale colors
GLOW

you walk through the ground
then through the sand of time
through love that's more than love
through a affection that spreads hands
through a spirit that is solid
and a body that resonates love
which will always be more than love
like I am more than a person
I am a lover
meaningful love than love is to the sand of time

I wish I lived in the beyond
on mars
where I couldn't hurt the people I love
where the people were safe
I am a scar and I will not heal
I wish I was gone
so they wouldn't hurt

vertigo in swirling colours
mind swept memories open my mind

a whisper can hurt
a little breath can ****
one breath is a hurricane
a whisper is power
dark magic
and it shouts its name
a whisper can hurt
so yell
and call out it's name
I am a whisper
and I am sorry

little waves
shattering on rocks
fragile leaks
cracking white smoky mist
dreams are gone
they are the past
they will bleed like rivers end
until they meet the sea

I must say these thoughts are venom
infecting with inborn criticism
I was born with ***** blood
I was born in the heart of the earth
and they didn't understand
I was her child
so I was destroyed within'
the heart of the furnace
I was burned to ash
not with the pressure
of diamond on my face
ash and soot
the only home I now know

stingrays trace the rivers
flat against the ground
and they don't have to worry
because their souls will live
in the between
where the lights know their name

the smog rolled on the sea
white wash on the beach
salty air in my lungs
heart strings pulled on
and I'm singing your song
in the sea I sing
so hopefully the ocean will be discovered
and my love uncovered

my branches grow
spreading and breathing
my leaves sap strength and life
and I will soon die
but while my leaves are living
I will come to life again
and paint his soul
with green paint
and purple hues
so even the horizon
will not be the end

they say where there is sadness, Joy
but to be joy there has to be sadness
they say that where there is darkness, light
but to be light there had to be darkness
and I was wondering maybe it was a
CRUEL JOKE

needles in my arms
drawing blood without alarm
I let you do this and I don't know why
maybe it was the sugar coated lies
maybe it was trust
that shook me apart
maybe it was the control that I cannot grasp
maybe I was used and that hurts
but I still love you
even if it's stupid
I still dream of you today

I know I said we were far away
from meaning anything
that I was in the loom of the moon
and that you were back on earth
I know I left you there
while I sat upon shining stars
and I know I was wrong to leave you...
with the monsters
but up here I am far away
not physically maybe
but my head is in the clouds
and maybe you'll see
why I rest in the stars

we fight and argue
and we might be angry
but if I say I love you
I hope you say it back
what is love without love in hate
what is hate with a release
what is love without the pain
I love you but you won't say it back
you were the water rushing past
without a dam in sight

I wanted to tell you
I love you so much
I walked out with a sound
I was sneaking through the ground
like a snake I left in the night
and like the night I disappear in the light
I wish I could tell you how much you mean
but sometimes I have to leave
for... me

I may be sorry
And I cannot grieve
I cannot let out the anger I breath
So please don’t leave
I’m sorry I’m broken
I’m sorry I’m dead
I’m sorry I broke your heart
But…
Now my heart is dead

I’ve been gone for a while now
I feel my heart beating now
I don’t know why I love so much
Or why the strength hits me hard
I don’t know why you mean the world
I don’t know why the earth strays from course
I don’t know why the stars are dim to your beauty
Or why the sun stares are you and smiles
But I’ll know I’ll grow
In your embrace
Rocketing up to the moon
To find you in the universe for I’ll see all of you
In a lifetime
I will be the nebula in the galaxys

Swirling spirals as far as I can see
Domain and presence
Resonance coming
From deep within the ground
Shaking my body with no control
Breaking my bones out they go
To the healing powers of a bond I grow
In the heart of earth I grow
I spread the roses there thorns dangerous yet calm
The tulips growing without harm
The trees reach to the sky
I am everywhere
I will be till I die

when my emotions overflow
I let the river go
I the tears come down with force
I let the waterfall navigate my cross
I let the earthquake shatter the ground
and I let hell take me down
and the heavens are pulling me up
out of the ground
up to my refuge
in the clouds

I've got a heart, it beats
and my lungs contract to let me breath
and the blood races in my system
bringing me to life
I got a heart that beats
my lungs are tearing here and there
no way to fix the tear and wear
so let my lungs be my saviour
I've got a heart, it beats

if my words are a paradox let me be true
if I was a paradox I would repeat for you
if I was a paradox I wouldn't stop
if I was a paradox the world would stop
I was in love I would repeat
if I love I will say it again
if you were my heart I would repeat again
if my words are a paradox let me be true

sharp points hurt
they let me bleed
out comes the worry
that turns me inside out
and through the leaves
my sweat and blood is left behind
in the bark my darkness goes

deep dark monsters lurk
in the shadows they hide
demons waiting for victims
in the shadows they hide
ghosts waiting to haunt you
in the shadows they hide
Fear and Betrayal
in the light I confide

I’ll let you scorch me to crisps
I’ll let my body be a flame
I will burn for you
My love with never go out
With flying orange I glow
Spreading my love with every go
And with the embers that fly so high
I will reach you my Angel to the sky

a hand a imprint on my soul
love, dark but always in my soul
you will always be in my soul
even if you're the one hurting me

I fell from the trees
green and then brown
blending in gradient harmony
and I landed in dazed vertigo
and I felt sinking
falling into the ground
it taking me back
and I didn't put up a fight
for this is my motherland
this is my home

flying away on folded wings
taking turns and frowning of sin
through rusted bushes
there shining yellow hues
a story of colour
what are we gonna do

I love the way I feel like one
I love the way you say Te amo
I love the way I hold you in my arms
Te amo the Angel in my heart  
Te Amo

I've always cared for you
but you couldn't see my concern

they don't leave me alone
they don't stop hurting
they are leaving me broken
without a hope in sight
I see broken shards
and icy points
and all the dreams that come
and all I can is lay here
paralysed
and feel their touch

running through wisps
going in tumble winds
falling on the rocks
scrapes on pale skin
red rock scarring a beginning
a cracked soul always forgiving
red rivers running through veins
pumping soul with fractured hands
not able to grab a lie in it's grasp
and it seeps through the cracks
never fearing the wind will run away
only keeping the demons at bay
a mind is not worth loving
if the mind can't stop running
in the wind we run
but soon we will stop
and take our final breath

blood smeared of my lines
guts spilled on the outside
I feel blood running
through uncharted blue veins
over pale skin
I'm loosing myself
in this pain I am a monster
in their eyes I'm the monster
to myself I'm a monster
but to few I'm worth it
to me I outweigh
their pleas
through this I'm crying
through this I'm going to...
let the blood flow

sailors falling to the salty mist of sea
hearing song for you and me
and suffocating in sweet bliss
a Siren song I'll never miss

haze through shattered glass
fogged up windows
smoke screen air
black hole
light no where
not a single drop of light to be seen
no way to get through the haze
no way to
see through