Last night the sky melted
Forever long strings of
Galactic spit and spent fumes.
And when the morning came,
(Though by then we called it grief)
We watched with tear speckled cheeks
The children splashing in sporadic
Celestial puddles
Until they were soaked and sporting
Angel wings

Come afternoon
Trees fell, hurried,
Swept into a milky current
Streets flooded
Til only ***** leather hands
Could reach above
Infinite waves
But found nothing
To hold on to

When evening fell,
Cities swallowed
In deep star oceans,
Few remained in monasteries
And cathedrals
And 4-Star hotel rooms,
And all that could be heard was
The steady drip
Of eternal pour


The more devout among us
Believed it was rapture
The more religious prayed it was not
And I myself
Plagued by that perpetual
And ineffable indecision,
Resigned to consummation

Her eyes have became my sights
Her ears have became my songs
Her laughs have became my sun
Her tears have became my stars

Hey

I thought tonight would be a good time to tell you that I’m queer.
Maybe.
I’m not really sure quite yet but I’m sure about how I feel so that’s cool.
I’m telling you this because it’s been on my mind a lot,
hopefully this is all temporary because constantly turning around to find a new question makes me dizzy and you know I don’t fall gracefully.

I feel like I'm living life in the absolute middle.
Like seeing the life you dream of living from the backseat but not being sure how to take the wheel
You know what I mean?
Would I feel more alive without the heaviness that hangs off my chest or is life about staying weighted to the ground?

If I could see into the future I’d peek at who I am in a year.
I think that would be fun,
Maybe I would have things figured out then.

Do you remember asking me about who I’m attracted to that one time in the car?
I still can't answer that.
I can’t even figure out if I was born in the right body most of the time so how am I to know who I’m attracted to if I can’t even see what’s in the mirror?

How am I supposed to figure any of this out?
I feel like a walking question mark.

Anyways I'll be home in a bit
Call me back
I love you.

How can you deny this feeling
I think as I’m creeping
Outside your window watching you sleeping
I hope you willfully dreaming
Of us steaming, our love sharing
Now my tempers flaring
Thinking you ignoring
All this love I’m giving
So stop stringing
Me along this road, I’m hurting
You killing,
My life slowly and I’m sliding
Losing all part of me I’m deteriorating
So please stop faking
I love you with all my heart but you making
This anger uncontrollable it’s damning
My soul constantly tearfully craving
Your touch so stop playing
My hand reaching out to you suddenly stopping
My thoughts disturbing
My mesmerized eyes, now I’m running
Tears streaming…..
Thoughts racing, heart pumping,
legs darting., I’m shaking
thinking, I’m losing me to you willingly
My lungs bleeds for me to stop shouting......
Save me!!!!!!!!

I hide
In writing
I hide
In notes
I do whatever
To stay
Afloat
The deepths
Of my surface

I thought I saw
a seven-petaled periwinkle
until two fell off
& flew up
into a 𝑏𝑢𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑙𝑦.