Life has been one a hell of a ride,
Sometimes it gets so hard that I just wanna hide.
****, I used to be so so happy while growing up,
Don't get too close now I'll give you up.
It hasn't been easy for me,
I know it's hard to believe with all the lies u see.
I'll give anything for the fame,
Yes, I'll do anything to make u know my name.
Don't tell me to take my time,
I know I'll shine.
Don't tell me I'll be fine,
I just want what's mine

My father’s stony face
Gripped with expressionless, death
He just stares at me
And I tear back

The dirt feels too hard
The world, too cold
I’m saying sorry
But everything just feels wrong

I’m grieving for him
But it’s not him who’s dead
It’s me

the rustle of autumn leaves
lulled cats
cuddled on the porch

under the dark blue sky
full of stars
in the moonlight

I see my children
sing them lullabies
read poems
happy
in my real home
hugging my love

listened to the croaking in the pond
the dance of leaves
dreamy

slowly I find myself
in the dark and bright
future