Four years down, we still chat up
He still calls me and I still pick up
We tell each other every small this and every tiny that-
He tells his feats and I tell my wars.

I know his flaws all too well
But I know his good all the more better
I know I would fight off the devil for him
About him though, I could never tell.

I think somewhere deep within, I know
This friendship is deep but not for long.
For the day, She gives the stare
He would leave ; with neither a tear nor a care.

So I cherish each second, each day
For it brings us a page nearer to the end.
For the day is not far, when the story ends
And we go back to being strangers-by-years.

Starts out all fun sharing with Friends.

Sad how it always seems to End.

You want to stop and say you can.

I'll cut back to every now and then...

I'm late for work,can't pay my rent.

Wondering where all my money has went.

Starts with a little leads to a lot.

Fun is fun but this is not.

The parties, the places the people I meet.

I always thought it was all so neat.

The drugs, the *****,the women too.

Just looking around it what it done to you.

I see it now but didn't before.

Always too busy looking for more..

It's time to stop and move ahead.

I'm really lucky I could be dead

Reminiscing and contemplating, why pray and hope for heaven when you continuously to live like we live and put a ticket for hell.

When you live in this spell and repeat this hell you become a disgrace to loved ones...

Plugs from society f over and forgotten you knew what you were doing was wrong and it was rotten.

It's a long road seen a lot of places and many a sad faces.

We live by a code that's never been forgotten always show respect accept no disrespect.

So when you have lived like we have no aspect and remember bad times make the good times better..

Reminisce and contemplate while you were plugged out f over and forgotten.

This life is hell and this is not the place.

Remember the code and tell yourself Life as a failure is no longer..

Find the true you before it's too late.

Respect for self.

Respect for others.

Responsibility for all actions.

lost

i am drifting
lost in the sea of my mind
all around - all I can see is open water
my head is above the water, but i feel it pulling me down
this monster that has taken everything from me
it’s name is depression
it pulls me deeper and deeper
until the waters go still
and there is nothing

clocks

ticking away
the hours, the months, the years
but despite time moving forward,
i am frozen - alone
in a place where the sun set long ago and has yet to rise again
i sit here and write in the dark
and in the background i hear time move forward
but i am suspended in the night
waiting for the day when the sun will rise again