Jordan

Jordan Sep 2017

His name is engraved in my skin
His voice is echoing in my head
His smile is all I see inside my memories
His heart is the beat to the melody in me
but

He has her name in his heart
He has her voice in his head
He has her smile in his eyes
He has her heart in his arms
And she's not me.
So

His name will scar
His voice will stay
His smile will torture
His heart will belong to her.
And

I will be forgotten.

Mar 2017

elizabeth

Awoken

My eyes open,
The sun filters in.
For a moment,
Just a moment,
I am warm;
I am at peace.
I am happy.
And then the day
Starts, and I wish
With all my heart
And soul that
I hadn't awoken
From my sleep.

March 14, 2017.

#suicide #peace #sad #depressed #sleep #happy #warm #sunlight #awoken

Jordan Mar 2017

Choose

Chained in fear and misery
Chained in guilt
I'm told to decide
Choose
But I can't
I love him, I love her
Choose
To decide is to hurt the other
I love her, I love him
Choose
They both did wrong
But I love him, I love her
Choose
If I don't decide
I will stay
Choose
Stay in chains
Chains laced in fear and misery
Fear and guilt
Because I love her, I love him
*To late

So many won't get this, but this is about my parents.

Jordan Nov 2016

Untitled

You say you love the rain but you open your umbrella when it rains
You say you love the sun but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines
You say you love the wind but you close the window when the wind blows
That's why I'm afraid, when you say you love me to~ William Shakespeare

Jordan Nov 2016

I Won't be Missed

I walked in to see...
A broken mirror and her bleeding fist
The sliver blade that was one against her wrist
Tears down at her lips that have not been kissed
" They ignored me, I didn't exist. I won't be missed"

Jordan Nov 2016

The Lies Behind the Smile

"I wear long sleeves because I'm cold"
I'm lying, its so you don't see my scars
"I'm fine, just tired"
Yeah, tired of the things you don't see, the demons beside me
" I already ate"
Im lying I ate two days ago
"I don't want to talk, go away"
Stay and keep asking me if im okay
" Yeah, I'm Fine"
Lied again. This is my goodbye

Jordan Sep 2016

She Wasn't Looking for a Knight

She wasn't looking for a knight, She just needed a sword.
She wasn't looking for love, She just needed strength.
She wasn't looking for him, She just needed to know she was enough.
She wasn't looking for a savior, She just needed to save herself.
She wasn't looking for support, She just needed to stand up.
She wasn't looking for a knight,She just needed a sword.

#love #pain #stronger