I look at you, remember what we had
And wonder how it all went wrong
Then I remember you weren't in love
And when you left you took the piece
Of my heart that I had given to you

I remeber when I was so intoxicated
I stumbled around until I dropped
And when I hit, I hit pretty hard
Now I'm sober once again, and
Well I'll admit I miss being dizzy

Snap out of it

They are just words, cloaked lies of pity for the girl that couldn't be appealing
Don't stare at me because though you say you look in awe it's been engraved in my brain that you're looking in disgust

No no no no
Don't take me too
I refuse to go

What is happening

There is so much we don't say to eachother

We would like to pretend people
Read these the way we want them to

And suddenly I was not me
I was standing objectively out
Watching people **** their bodies
Awkwardly pleading for someone
To notice. Dancing is a plea, and I,
I wasn't dancing

Sparatic breathing, sweating hands
I couldn't breathe anymore
I didn't want to breathe anymore
I literally screamed for God
Inside my car whizzing down the highway
I wailed and stopped breathing
Only to sputter out and realize I was veering off the road
Its all my fault  its all my fault
I blamed every single problem
In my family on myself
Something I never admitted out loud before

I'm not being lead by anyone anymore
I pulled off the leash around my neck
I stopped letting things go to save this
Now I finally found something more
Important than I thought you were
And that's **me

Your smile doesn't lie
But your eyes do

Not a poem
I would like to explain why I've been distant and angry lately
I recently caught my dad doing something earlier this week
And, well honestly, it was pretty hard but I didn't want to tell
Because you've all heard it before, it just struck a nerve this time
So I'm sorry sorry sorry for being an ***. I actually love you all
Very very much

Everything is different
I'm looking through
A different lens

Sometimes we get a rush and decide we are ready to be grown
So we do adult things thinking now everyone will know I'm grown
When truly it makes you look more immature than ever

You know Im growing up
With this increasing adulthood
I know my responsiblities

Older, that's all I feel
Older, everything's real
Older, I found the why
Older, but who am I

I try not to
But when I see you
The only thing
I see is what
You caused

I can honestly say I am disgusted

Don't tread carefully
You'll hear the glass cracking
Run! let it all shatter

He who finds a wife is good and has found favor with the Lord
Find in Hebrew means stumble upon
We shouldn't be searching  desperately for our love
But focus on doing God's works,
And maybe then we will run into our soul mate

I prayed every night
You guided me and now
At last I see this light

Some things are better left unsaid

Lust is taking
Love is *giving

April is the cruelest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain

Let me be honest
I am not so gay
In fact, the past months
I have been quite
The opposite

We find ourselves rooting for the underdog because we see ourselves in them

I wish I had been born a boy

Everything just slowed down
I am feeling strangely numb again

Sometimes I don't think you realize how much you mean

As I write the poetry of my life
I can do it alone, but
It would be easier with someone
Holding my hand, gliding the pen

We all say let's not be scared
But I am still truly afraid
Heistant if you will, I shouldn't

Catch me I'm falling
Losing myself in the air
Don't leave me crawling
Catch me and show me you care

I'm just like my mother
I cry sometimes thinking
No one will ever actually
Fall in love with me

Sometimes, only sometimes, I look at pictures of myself
And I wonder how the hell someone could call me pretty

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone you adore can

I personally have never felt wanted
Some people get that luxury
Some people are used to attention
And that's amazing, I'm happy for them
But me, I can honestly say I've never
Felt like people genuinely liked me
And today that changed
Today I felt wanted, liked, and loved

Finally I am clearly seeing everyone
And I know they see me too
For once I feel like I am being *seen

Only in my day dreams do things unravel perfectly
Morning run rays, dust in the air, quilts bundled up
Good morning baby and I smile, I love hearing baby
My hand is clasped gently in another's, leading me
Breakfast, eggs sunny side up, hot tea and tomatoes
The rest of the day looks much brighter now

I know what You want, God
I figured out your path for me
I know why I am alive now

All I know, perhaps the only thing I know
Is who I am. And I've never been more at peace

She dreamed of paradise
This could be paradise

Suppose my goal is how often can I make you smile

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game or two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

No shame in these little dates
Who knows, you could end up
Falling in love

Why do I feel like I am in love right now

She doesn't know I know
She doesn't know what I do
She doesn't know how it is

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But wait a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

Everyone talks about spring
But not once have we stopped
To smell the flowers

I only wonder do you feel it when our eyes lock?