This time only three people mumbled the prayer as quietly as they could
Everyone else fell silent

No one has ever felt the urge to meet my lips

Upon further deep thought I realized how ******* up my childhood was
And I can't help but blame myself for not realizing what I was doing

maybe if I would just quit erasing the lines I type

Overworked they say
Is it true I'm hurting myself
Take a break they say
But I'm already in so far
It'll get worse she says
I can handle it, right. Right?

The thing is, I coud survive without all of you
However, I would have never lived without each of you

I used to see fire in her eyes
Now they hold nothing, defeat
He drags her everywhere
He takes her phone away
He treats her like a child
Therefore she's been trapped
And remains so for us

My faith in humanity is at a low that's all
People out there getting stuck with people like him
Who wants to spend their life in chains?

please please help me
please show me love is real
anyone. Or is nobody there
I'm a fool for thinking
that someone would dare

Midnight calls and crying
This is how ****** up love is
It's all the same no?
Someone please show me different

There is always someone in my subconscious floating around

I just want someone to be a ray of sunshine during these rainy days
And maybe that's supposed to be me

We cast away our emotional bursts
We become so needy at night
And turn it away like a side effect
But what if the depth of solitary
Causes this true want to come out?

It's pouring now, but dim
Eerie blue light on my walls
Hum of the fishtank reverberating
Fan is creaking simply slow
My quilt does nothing for cold
But serves to only protect me
I am lonely. I am lonely.

maybe its just a phase but
when did I become so distant?

Doctor run a complete blood test
Something isn't right
Or is it all normal to be in pain?

and vise versa right

Baby youre perfect
I want to spend every morning
Waking up with you
Baby you're my everything
My eyes cannot escape your gaze
Baby lets dance until we drop
*And then we will dance some more

Some people don't
understand the
power they have
Until it's too late

I would be there if you'd let me

Does it ever just hit you?*
Do you ever cry not because of the physical pain you say you are in
But your mind sends you a quick *reminder?

I don't think people realize that I just want to be held
Because I'm scared and anxious and nervous and stressed
Please please please please hold me.
It seems as though everyone has someone to hold or be held by
It seems as though when people look for someone to give affection to its never me
*They look the other ******* way and I don't think they know how each time I feel even more unlovable then I already felt

He spread out his arms like an eagle flying
Then I realized we were indeed *soaring

I was thousands of feet in the air
Soaring over an ocean
Controlling my entire fate
With a simple motion I determined
What happened
And I've never felt more alive

I'd like to pretend I lean in and kiss you
I'd like to pretend I look like her,
I'd like to pretend everyone looks at me
But in reality I'm just a girl in a Steamboat Sweatshirt
With a dorky smile that makes her face wrinkle
Who is ignored more than she'll admit
And still winces slightly when seeing a mirror
But I think I'll go back to pretending
It's much more fun anyways...

What if it's true

I want to kiss someone

What a feeling to inhale its toxic love
Knowing it's bad but oh so good
Memories and melodies swirl
Like the smoke curling off my lip
With each breath knowing I hurt,
Hurt something clean and pure
Only after letting go of my past
Did I stop breathing the wrong way

You'll see
You will all see.

Finally, my Spirit is restored
And my rebellious wild heart
Is beating furiously alive
You can't take me, I'm free

My future is looking me dead in the eye
Daring me to have it alter to my wishes

Somehow I will make it through this year
Next year I will be as close to perfect as possible

Nothing much to say except I've been happy without it

Take me back to the beach last summer
Take me back before everything
Take me back to myself and happiness
Not this distorted form I experience now
Just please please Take. Me. Back.

You tore me down and built me back up a little stronger

I'm way more mature than you think
But I choose to have fun with my life

What happens when you want to be a superhero
Not just this six year old boys fantasy,
But a real hero, who saves people, helps the world
and has something  *special

You're telling me to give up my dream
Because of what? Pride? Money? Cost?
Or is it because you think I can't do it.

Take a moment to think about how lucky you are

No one should ever feel that way
But darling, feelings like that can go away
You're one for playing it safe
I promise that's what you'll find
And the restraint you use each day
Will become a natural ease of mind
For I will be there to hold you
Not with chains, but with the lock of my eyes
You see, I've fallen for you, it's no surprise

Close your eyes
Take a breath don't change
Put your shaking hand
In mine, and focus
Pupils focused on mine
As if you could see into my mind
And if you could,
Well then you would know
The ache my heart has to
Fix yours

The care and concern that flooded his eyes when I told him I was hurt was like no other
Letting me skip clas, ride in his golf cart, driving me back and forth, telling me stories
I'm not ashamed to admit he was one of the most caring father figures in my life

"I love each and every one of yall immensely, and though I'll be gone you all will live forever in my heart"

I know exactly why a wave of nostalgia comes over me when I hear those songs
It was who I was, the real me, and who I am trying desperately to be again

It would be nice if someone laid next to me and wrapped their hand around my waist.

What's nice is that
the past is the past
It won't happen again,
The future looks bright
And what you did
Once before you won't
Do again... promise

I had to convince her
Don't hurt yourself
Far to precious for it
You don't want that
On your skin forever

Though I appreciate the kindness now
It doesn't fix the damage done then

But how pathetic do you feel when everything in the present is fine
But the experiences you locked away in your mind keep reoccurring