No one loves me now
And that's *okay

I bet I could list a thousand of the little things you do
But could you do the same?

But will someone ever look at me
And like the little things I do

I want you here with me
Like how I pictured it
So I don't have to keep imagining
Come on, jump out at me
Come on, bring everything
Is it too much to ask for something great?

Or did I dream that we were perfectly entwined

Believe me when I say I *would

I don't understand
I work so ******* hard
I don't understand

Spaces between us
Hold all our secrets
Leaving us speechless

Being happy
And being a happy person
Are two different things

Of all the things in the world

I am moving constantly because I have to say something
But the words aren't there, I can't even tell you what the thought is

And yeah I let you use me from the day that we first met
But I’m not done yet
Falling for your fool’s gold
And I knew that you turned it on for everyone you met
But I don’t regret falling for your fool’s gold

I found myself cheekily smiling today
The type of smile I only do rarely
The type of smile that hasn't visited
This earth in a real good while
I want to smile like that everyday
I want to look stupid while grinning
Like a fool,
Because that feeling that bubbles up
When I smile like that,
It is rivaled by no other

Funny how we cross the line between emotions so often
Funny how one simple thing can turn a beautiful day
Full of dangerous lightning strikes directed at you
Maybe the bolts come from other people, things
Or maybe the lightning  is coming from the
Dark clouds, thoughts  suddenly looming in your mind

All my life, all I have ever wanted to do was fix people

my heart is racing

I want to write about so much

Sometimes you have to give up
Sometimes you have to stop holding on

All the one direction songs
All of these stories
They are, in essence,
What I want the
Story of my life
To sound like

My hands, your hands
******* like two ships
Drifting, weightless
Waves try to break it
I'd do anything to save it
Why is it so hard to say it?

I'm sorry if I say I need you
I don't care, I'm not scared
Of love
When I'm not with you I'm weaker
Is that so wrong? Is that so wrong?
You make me strong

I realized I don't need this life changing event
But I don't want this solitude and silence either
I simply want to share a peaceful adventure with someone else

You stand there and you stare
And you aren't being seen
They don't see you
They will never see you

That's it honestly
I'm not putting myself through it anymore

I want to be able to look at someone like that
I want to be able to touch someone like that

My mind could use a little tweaking

I just keep searching and searching
For the person you once were to me
Because I know you're still that person

I'm writing little phrases
Because I can't keep a thought going
My mind goes back to instances
I shouldn't be writing about
Or at least resurfacing
Because I promise they aren't real
I promise they aren't real

You stare through broken lenses
Yet I'm perfectly clear to you

It's worth it to me

Wouldn't it be nice to be in a relationship
Where we each set the foundation
And build on each others
Happiness

There are some lines you finally step over
But the person pushes you back to the other side

At some point you have to make a decision
Boundaries don't keep other people out,
They fence you in.
Life is messy, that's how we're made.
So you can waste your life drawing lines
Or you can live your life crossing them

God let her come back into my life
Thank You

You have to be strong
You have to pretend it doesn't hurt
You have to pretend it doesn't bother you

Lord, just let her be okay
Just let her be okay.

Heidi hoo
My baby boo
I raised you
I love you
I miss you too
Heido hoo
Heidi hoo
I know
You're fine
Honey poo
My sweet baby
My sweet girl
I want you to know
You are my world
Heidi hoo
Heidi hoo
I'll never stop looking
For you

When someone uses this word
It seems very funny  
But it's not funny.
Because this word is
Trying to define you
In one single derogatory
Word.
It's trying to wrap up
All of you're feelings
All of this hesitant love
And cram them into
One
Judgmental
**Word.

It's a marshmallow world made for sweethearts
Take a walk with your favorite guy

It was dangerous I'll admit
But there was a rush
This living excitement
Two hearts pounding
Each for a different reason
And yes I fell
And it hurt me
But I tried again
Because it mattered to me

Baby I 'm never leaving if you keep holding me this way

Love is all I have to give
Please just take it
Because it all I have to give

"When I was a kid, I would get these headaches, and I went to the doctor, and they said that I needed glasses. I get the glasses, and I put them on, and I'm in the car on the way home, and suddenly I yell. Because the big green blobs that I had been staring at my whole life, they weren't big green blobs. They were leaves on trees. And I didn’t even know I was missing the leaves. I didn't even know that leaves existed, and then...leaves! You, you are my glasses. You showed me something I didn't know existed. You are my glasses."

I don't want to be optional
I want to be *required

Don't draw me with a pencil
I'm too rough around the edges
Don't sketch me with a pen
You wouldn't capture my colorful soul
Paint me with watercolors
So that you can faintly see
The smooth colors in me

I'm a little messy
I tend to have big dreams
That seem cliche
And I like the smell
Of old gas stations
And strawberry milk
And green tea
And my laugh is obnoxious
My smile is crooked
And I've grown
From asexual aromantic
To maybe the most romantic
Person you'll know
(If you coax me to say)
I like love movies
(Who knew)
And roses and kisses
I like touching,
(I used to not)
I like being in love
I like laughing til I ***
I love singing
(Even though I can't)
And I love dancing
(Even though I'm awkward)
I like sunrise. Early.
I like hats (stupid ones)
I like simple moments
And I love people
I love love
I love love so much
I love you
I love this world
And I know.
That one day.
Someone will notice all these things.

Being too critical of your friends
Is not the best way to keep them

Crashing into me like waves on the coast
Wrecking ball dancing down the hallways

All this time I was merely a bud
Thinking I was a flower
But now I look in the reflection
In the river, and I am in full bloom

Peace. I've felt it
But never like this
Sure maybe a few
Things are missing
But I am at peace