All I ever wanted was your approval
Maybe I am sensitive, dramatic
But it's still constantly hurting me
So maybe get over you're sense of perfectness
And ******* love me and say I matter okay?

I'm just waiting for things to work out

I need someone who can look at a tree
And appreciate every leaf growing
I need someone who will take the time
To walk and look at the mountains
I need someone who focuses on happy
And searches for the color in things
I need someone who will dive in
And explore oceans of possibilities

I sit near the river
To soak up my thoughts

I am me
And that
Is beautiful

I have made a circle
I am back where I began
Except this time
I know exactly *who I am

I am trapped
Like a caged animal
But it's my job
To open the cage
From now on
I will remain free

There are times when I think I am beautiful
But those times have never been in a bathing suit

"She's got the perfect body"
"She's got the perfect smile"
"She's so perfectly tan"
So every once and a while
I compare myself to her
And it only makes things worse

You don't know how over it I am

You are so pretty
I'll never be like you
You are so pretty

You are low
And you hurt me
In ways you'll
Never know

Okay so I am jealous
I'm jealous you have people
People who love you
People who think you're attractive
I'm jealous that even though
You have a lover,
You get more and more
While I stand here
Completely available
And draw in nothing

I just don't want to sleep alone tonight
I just really really don't want to

I'm a second hand girl
Who just wanted to be
Your number one

You want me to fall in love with you

You're stuck
And you know it
You're stuck
And maybe
You like it

I miss you
I miss us
I miss being close
And friendly
The way we joked
And wrestled
And got muddy
The way we laughed
And admired
How we shared
How we hid
I miss being your friend
Because if I can't
Be your lover
Then I promise
I'll still make
The perfect *friend

She blames herself for something
That she couldn't have changed

I'm so lonely that I'm sick
And I'm sick of being lonely

You say you want to kiss me
And I'm sure you really do
But you only want to kiss me
So I can admire you
You don't love me at all,
Obviously you're with him
I'm tired of being someone to use

This only proves to me we are more than friends
Because friends would have drifted away by now
It proves we are *family

What was caging me in
A glass box, walls closing
Remains only shattered
Pieces on the floor

I have so much love to give
So so much,
That it overflows, and
Escapes through
My eyes

All I can say is, it wasn't like anything before

I've locked myself in a room
So I can let tears leak to the floor
Let them fill the empty cracks
I've secluded myself, locked the door
How can they ask for anymore?

You're expectations are too high
And I'm tearing myself up about it

And we think about it
A simple pure act of love
We fanatsize about its taste
About its warmth
About what's to come
About it being the last
The pressure, the tension
How can I write all this
When this beautiful thing
*Has never happened to me

We don't even really text
But knowing you were there
To talk if I needed,
That's what comforted me

Sure my shirt is pretty soft,
But your arms were softer

Do you ever just picture how perfect it could be
Only for a second,

It was a new year, I made a promise
And I can proudly say I kept it

I am a cheesy person
So you tell me,
American swiss or cheddar?

Only when people are gone
Do you realize how much
You rely on them

My poems become shorter
I realize this isnt private anymore
Ive learned to hold it within
It won't bother you anymore

Sometimes its good to be scared
It means you still have something to lose...

I watch the days go by
Count them as they fly

I miss you, I need you
Every night I picture
Seeing you again
Because I truly miss you

I didnt want to

This only confirmed exactly who I am

My heart must be fooling me

I can only say
I love you
So much
Until I realize
The reason
You don't hear
Is because I am
Saying it
*In my head

The land was what they knew
The land was what they grew
What beautifully efficient people
The kindness in their eyes
Yet a certain sorrow lingered
Because of their demise,
And I could only feel guilty
That I was born white,
Because my greedy race
Led to the Cherokee flight
They left their mountain homes
Thousands died along that trail
But I'm grateful for the nation
That survives to tell the tale

I already miss you

I'm changing,
This place has changed me

He played his guitar for me
Smiled and sang for me
Did my favorite songs for me
Showed he cared for me

You don't want to talk,
That's clear to see
You don't really care
About these things
Sorry that I bother you
Sorry that I share
I thought you liked it
I thought you cared

It's strange how we chase things
That end up harming us in the end

I'm scared to even make physical contact for fear you will feel my heart beating faster

Sun keeps shining, back road flying
Singing like crazy fools
Making up our own words
Laughing 'til it hurts
Baby, if I had to choose
My best day ever
My finest hour, my wildest dream come true
Mine would be you