I'm scared of forgetting
You
Your voice
That face
The way you pull me towards you
The way you hugged me
In the end I'm left with tears
Scars of you
Which would never seem to disappear
I melt down every time
your name falls in.

Big brown eyes
With a smile that makes me want to die
So handsome, endearing, and full of lies.  
On the outside pretends to be the good guy,
I can see right through you,
Player
But has that romantic side too.
I lose all defences with this breakthrough
Like early spring morning dew.
The way you grasp my hand and never wanting to let go.
But nothing will change with the status quo.
I just want to meet you under a weeping willow
Say goodbye to the life we last known.
Together we could grow and glow,
If you have me but I know one things for sure.
I will never be your number one candidature,
Never be your safety net to make you feel secure.
I’ll just end things early and premature.

All the things I did weren't enough
If the person I once knew
Tries to find those on others
It just means that
Even if I try to do better
If I'm not the person that is wanted
It's always never enough

I miss
the angry girl

the one fist fighting with shadows,
not playing well with others,
telling you no,
telling you no thanks,
speaking up for my life,

standing up for my wants,
my needs,
my desires,
all the things that make me moan in pleasure

I want to punch holes in walls,
scream in the solitary corners of every room,  

run
escape

use my words to take back my power
use my power to take back my words

I want to say not today,
not ever,
keep on walking.

I cannot bring myself to overcome
The smiling creature of doubt
Sitting pleasurably in my mind—
His hands rest on his lap,
Teeth on full display as
He watches the darkness
Overcome my expression,
Falter my typing hands,
And end the ambition
I arduously work toward.

I see you
I see you sat
Cuddled up in your sleeping bag
I see you
My heart feels your sadness
Your loneliness

I hear you
I am here for you
Your not alone
Believe in me

Open your eyes
Give me your hand
Let’s find you somewhere
Warm and safe
Away from this space

A warm drink
And a meal
Someone to talk to
To trust

Hello I’m hear
Do not fear

what we see as change
when green summer leaves turn brown
is really just growth