Old woman lying warm on her bed,
never knowed, her life would be so good

Old man holding hands of hers,
reminded her about their past years of love and trust

Children standing next to her bed,
looking at her eyes, smiling with raining eyes

Grand children appreciating grandmama's recepe,
and shared with her,their funny old tales

Her eyes searched for someone more,
there stood at the door with a warm smile,her old good bestie...

A group of rejects who came together for the greater good. The black sheep composed hard to go back all ******* up. There's no going back, already failed once. Already know the outcome been there before. Feeling captured, by others false perceptions.
Those mistakes he's trying to forget while they are held over his head trying to manipulate and control him. He was frustrated with them all these double standards. He walked away this wont go away.
The change was hard because they kept bring up the past. He was never forgiven or accepted he learned to be okay with it since he wasn't hurting anyone. He didn't want to spread it so he let it die within himself.

And as I write, the feeling is lifted. The curse is broken. The spell rendered useless. I am free I am light I am calm.

I should see a therapist,
But for now this blank slate shall hold my concerns.
For now this blank page shall soothe me.

I loved you and you loved me. We loved the idea of us. We walked together, talked deep talks together, we did things together that we both seemed to enjoy, but we were made to be friends and some how our imaginations got the best of us. Our imaginations and fantasies of having a family and building together got ahead of us.  The fantasy of having someone always there even when you're feeling lonely. We entwined our dreams, our feeling to this. An as friends in ways we used each other because we thought what's more and we weren't thankful enough for what we had. We expected things that weren't there and some how we lost the friendship. I wanted you to be there in my life always as my someone to build with, travel with and you wanted use me for  your someone to be there when you're sad and lonely. I wanted to be chosen by you. The thing is we both wanted to be each others first choice and we weren't. An the trust was lost during our mind games, the little things we did to each other. Now we are both at peace away from each other and hope you're getting healing in the right way just as I am. We may never see each other again and that's okay. Love is letting go and letting that person live free as they want to be. An the chapter of us has closed with love, respect, and no more toxicity. 
The End