Random thoughts

Random house cross country is it really good
Why must people will be so sad
Time for sleep in a bit
I dont have the time
Where are we
Night to day
Day to night
Moonlight is a great way to love you
Morning will be fine for you but not me
I cant remember when we were talkin bout him
Just know that you are not going anywheres
Laying down watching a little girl who would love to see her dad
Spirits are the same as yesterday
The wait until he comes bck to her
But you do not have to go
Sadly I think so.

Random words , thoughts, speak
Poem by me
Face  beautiful, sad, happy
Cold air, beath, night
Best good,fair , friend
God real, imagine, believing
Stay longer, walking, run
Forever love, marriage, life
Moment time,photo, video
Blood death, red, fire
Beath sore, bad, cold
Call distance, fail , unlimited
Hair dye, beautiful, fine
Today tomorrow, night , day
Full stomach, moon , lies
Touch good , bad , away
Red blood , crayon , lipstick
Rain heavy, light, wet
Waiting  staying, going , sitting
Watch tv , movies, people
Sit time , moment, quite
Warm heat, heart, strong
Sea water , blue , sharks
Heart beat , red , alive
Finally now , stay , wait
Realize understand, waiting , talking
Child born , age , playful
Human man , woman , child

Red coats
First one personal
Second one coincidental
Third one
Fourth one
Fifth one
Sixth one
Seventh one
Eighth one
Nineth one
Tenth one
Seeing red coats everywhere
Red coats are taking over
When will the pink ones start

I'll always remember the good times we had together the things we did and said.
I thank you for loving me
I thank you for caring for me
I thank you for being there for me
I know in death you will do the same
This isn't a good bye its a I'll see you again when its time
I love you and  no one will ever take your place.
I love you I miss you .

forward backwards
I 'am a sad
and I refused to believe that
happy
I realize this may be a shock, but
I know is a lie
I want to die
In 30 years, I will tell my children that
I have my priorities straight because
depressed
is more important than
happiness
I tell you this
once upon a time
happy
but this will not be true in my era
people dyeing
experts tell me
I'm over weight
I do not conclude that
joy
In the future,
death
no longer cant it be said that
happiness
it will be evident that
hate
It is foolish to presume that
god.
reverse poem

Right now someone crying
Right now someone laughing
Right now someone sad
Right now someone happy
Right now someone dieing
Right now someone giving birth
Right now someone homeless
Right now someone working
Right now someone hungry
Right now someone eating
Right now someone sleeping
Right now someone a wake
Right now someone dealt
Right now someone on the phone
Right now someone driving
Right now someone losing time
Right now someone making memories
Right now someone lonely
Right now someone celebrate a birthday
Right now someone thinking
Right now someone talking
Right now someone...

Run with me in the woods
Run with a friend
Run by me
Run once u have the courage to
Run a bit
Run for time
Run for pleasure
Run for high
Run in the name of love
Run the bar
Run away
Run for a break today
Run as far as you  can go
Just ******* run .

Sceared
I want to but sceared
I feel to but sceared
I need you but sceared
I want you but sceared
I have to but sceared
I say so but sceared
For the times I let people have my time they show me why they  dont need it
I know not all are the same
probably should believe that to
Just know I am near
Just know I'm here
Just know I'm not going anywhere

run run
run run
in in
to to  
the the
woods woods
to to
scream scream
louder lounder
until until
i i
lose lose
my my
voice voice
!!
i i
dont dont
wanna wanna
be be
here here
no no
more more
please please
god god
take take
away away
my my
pain pain
i i
will will
cut cut
so so
deep deep
so so \
i dont i dont
have have
to to
scream scream
no no
more more
god god
send send
down down
your your
angle angel
to to
free me free me
from from
this this
world world
are you coming ?

Why do people say they care and dont
Why do people say I'll be there  and dont
Why do people act like they care and dont
I'm human
do have feelings
Slowly shutting down
Wishing I was good enough
Wishing people cared
It's not fair
The one's who treat people like trash are always wanted
Not pretty enough
Not beautiful enough
Not happy enough
Not **** enough
Not nothing
could go by and no one care
Could go by and no one see
I'm cold
I'm tired  
I'm numb
I am invisible ?
Would seem so

short poem

Fingers resting on my face
bones shattering in space
a woman feeling naked love with insane energy
society undernaeth waiting to strike
looking a shut down box

Shy girl

Hiding behide a smile
Thinking of what to say
Not sounding like a fool
Finding time to run a hide
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Feeling down
Feeling used
Crying insdie
Why cant you see
What cant you make time
Driving insane
Virtually world
Dreaming of you
Caring
Loving
Shy girl hi

Shy guy

Hinding behide a smile
**** eyes
Lips taste amazing
Shy half the time
Cute and smart
Foolish at times
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Wants to but doesn't
Nervous
Girls  have his attention
But one is all he needs
Take billions in time
Some times wonders why
Wants to run and hide
Shy guy hi.

Sign
When I talk your there
When I think you there
When I dream your there
When I cry I wish you were here
When u talk I'm there
When you think I'm there
When you dream I'm differently there
When you cry I wish I was there
Theres signs I seen them
Theres signs I feel them
There signs i know them

when you voice won't say it
when you eyes won't show it
when your lips won't say it
when your heart won't know it
when your mouth won't touch it  
when you walk on by
when your hand won't in brace it
when you cried wont help
that when you know it's all silences .

single

Stay awake
Can do what I want
Can see who I want
Can go where I want
Can talk to who I want
No one lying
No one cheating
No fighting
Staying single is good
Then why I feel so alone

A bond that can't be broken
Sister's a love that can't be broken
Sister's a word that can't be broken
Sister's sharing clothes
Sister's sharing make-up
Sister's sharing advice
Sister's sharing a common ground
Sister's old
Sister's young
Sister's a bond that be broken
Sister's a love that can't be broken
Sister's a word that can't be broken

I love my sister's by blood by loyalty

sleepless nights

Feeling tired
Falling a sleep
Thinking
Crying
Finally a sleep
Wake up
Lay back down
Holding my dream so tight
Finally a sleep again
Wake up
Stay awake
Sleeping again
Wake up
These are the nights I deal with
These are my nights

So tired of thinking i
m not good enough
So tired of thing im better off somewhere else
so tired of thinking people will never understand me
So tired of being used
So tired of wanting to be expected
but as i say thing that girl got tired and she became something she do not think would happen she became a warrior

When you feel it
When you touch it
When you love it
When you like it
When you say it
When you cry it
When you lay with it
When you hold it
It will speak louder then anything and you will know that is where you  wanna be
If I know it
If I see it
If I speak it
You **** well know  I can feel it
Everything I say and feel comes true
So this cant be wrong ?
Then why do I feel so sad?

I m not normal so what
I am crazy so what
I Am fat so what
I'm pretty so what
I Am bored so what
I Am a bit**h so what
I hate winter so what
I love summer so what
I'm 36 so what
I Am a woman so what
I'm weird so what
I swear a lot so what
I love pink so what
I have few friends so what
I love night so what
I love horror so what
i have depressed so what
I get lonely so what
Ism poor so what
I'm lazy some time so what

Spring
Here comes some warm nights
Here comes some warm days
Spring
Here comes the birds who flew south
Here comes the insects who have hide from winter
Spring
Here comes making plans for summer
Here comes Easter
What else can I say about spring ?
Spring
Spring
Oh I can’t wait for summer

The air is cool
The sun is out
The night is near
The people are walking
The cars are driving.
The campers are booking
The aminals are out
The waterfall is beautiful
The time is momerable
The dogs are barking
Oh look summer is coming

Stuff animals
Like a smile
Like a wish
Like a friend
Like a family
Like a colour
Like a beautiful goodbye
Like a hello my dear
Like a life time
Like a peace of mind
Like a first smoke of the day
Like a stiff drink
Hold on when sleeping
Hold on when talking
Hold on when crying

Summer
Here comes children playing
Families camping
Summer
Families going on vacations
Here comes the swimming
Here comes the beach days
Summer
All wild life is free
Beautiful pictures
Summer
I don’t want it to end
Why must we have shorter summers
Summer
Here comes bbq
Here comes longer days
Sun beating off the waters
Stars out
Summer
Moon is full
Oh how I don’t want summer to end

The weather is hot
Fan is blowing
The sun shines bright
The night is dark
The love is in the air
The flowers are growing
The birds are signing
The air is fresh
The marshollw are roasting
The wind is blowing
The chairs are full
The trist for a drink becomes one on everyone list
The time flys when having fun
The summer is short
Enjoy before the cold kicks in
Oh no it's fall again

Talkin to angel
Hello
Hello  are you here
I really need your ear
I'm here
What is it you wanna hear
I need you
I need your help to fight my fears
I'm here dont be afraid to me all your fears
I'm sad
I'm lonely
I'm tired
I'm alone
I'm ugly
I'm....
Shh my child you are not all of those
I see
Beauty
Happiness
Poetry
Love
Caring
Well why do people not see that
Only one who truthy care will see
You are not made for everyone my dear
Cry if you need to
Sleep if you need to
Hide if you need to
But never lose yourself over fools
Feel better my dear tomorrow is coming and no more fears.

36 age
italian fame
brown eye girl
holding on
standing still
tattoo for each of how i feel
24 in all
girly time
breaking point
falling down wanted to be seen
crossing path in strange lands

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

Tears of love ones gone
Tears of death
Tears of sadness
Tears of heart break over and over again
Tears of crying in the rain
Tears of secret's upon your lips
Tears of broken dreams
Tears of unspoken words
Tears of silence
Tears of blame
Tears of for a smile
Tears of pain
Tears of hopeful
Tears of love
Tears of happiness

Tears in heaven

I cried when I found out
You cried when you found out
I wonder why when I found out
You wonder why when I found out
I think of you every day
You think of me every day
I try to hold myself together
You tried to hold yourself together
I know your never far as always near
You know I'm never far I'm always near
I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye
You couldn't bring yourself to say goodbye
I wish you were here
You wish I was here
I Cry sometimes
You cry sometimes
But together we r alive

Tell me
Tell me why you like me?
Tell me why you need me?
Tell me I belong here?
Tell me you talk to me?
Tell me why I need to be here?
Tell me why I cry at night?
Tell me why I feel so alone?
Tell me why you can't see me?
Tell me why life hates me?
Tell me tell me tell me
Tell me just tell me why ?
I know you know the answers I seek
You are with me aren't you ?

The moon is full

The moon follows you just like stalkers do

When the moon is full alot of things start to go all wacky

Like cats

When the moon is full cats are running around

Like dogs

When the moon is full dogs start barking and howling

Like bugs

When the moon is full the bugs start buzzing n flying around filling the sky full

Like people

When the moon is full people do things they never do

So once in awhile if you like it blame it on the full moon

The stars shine so bright for everyone to see
The stars are so small but yet everyone can see
the stars always there listening ing as you talk
The stars see what you do when no one else is watching  and he tells the moon
The moon shines so bright when it wants to give light
The moon knows all your secrets
The moon and the stars share a bond that no one understands
The moon can help when you are lost or need a friend
The moon is alway watching and following you as you walk down a path
The moon gives light when darkness wants to stay around
so when the moon and the stars are out give thanks for they know all your secrets and will never tell them at night .

The prefect couple
We were lonley
We were hurting
We were dreaming
We were thinking
We were talking
We were hoping
We were laughing
Then one day God said they would make the prefect couple so he made things happen so we would meet
And we were hanging out
And we were talking
And we were laughing
And we are happy
We are in love with each other
We do anything for each other
People want to say stuff cause they are jealous
We are bonnie and Clyde

World does not know this

I will walk with you but the world does not know this
I will talk with you but the world does not know this
I will hold you but the world does not know this
I will lay with you but the world does not know this
I will cry with you  but the world does not know this
I will sit with you but the world does not know this
I will be there for you but the world does not know this
I could never let you  go but again the world does not know this .

thoughts in my head are telling me so many things
i don't want to listen  to them no more but they seem to always find their way back home .
I try to run from them but no use they know where i'll be
I try to walk away from them but yet again they know will ill be
i sit and think think think
why do i feel like this
being crazy is hard i feel like crying
i want to feel happy again but all i feel is sadness and loneliness
i think of cutting its my only way out
but that little voice in my head said no no no no no no
so back to my  thoughts against
now time for sleep
maybe i'll be better the next day

im ugly
im worthless
im nothing
i cry
i cut
i wish to feel different
i feel alone
not begging for attention
sleepless nights
the world is ****** place
over thinking
stay?

Sit
Lay
Sit
Lay
Look at the clock the hands go around
Thinking of everything that goes on
Why I am not laying with you
Why I am thinking of you
Why I am dreaming of you
Why why why
I dont have the answer only you do
I listen to your words
I repeat them in my head
I listen to songs remind me
I sing then to make me feel good
I want to scream
But it wont help
Take as I am
Little ****** up
Little insane
Little crazy
My soul keeps asking me
What should I say when I don't know what to say
Come with me and walk through the woods where we can lay a d up at the same moon and stars

Tina
I'm pretty         I'm fat
I'm happy         I'm sad
I'm gone         I'm crying
I'm good             I'm bad
I'm tired         i dont sleep
I'm pain            I'm cutting
I'm upset        I'm not around
I care                  i dont
I'm crazy          I'm crazy
I'm pink             I'm purple
I'm glad             I'm mad
I walk                    I run
I stay                   I leave
I'm depression   im diabetic
I make no ******* sense.

So tired of thinking I'm not good enough
So tired of thinking I'm better off somewhere else
So tired of thinking people will never  understand me
So tired of wanting to expected
So tired of being tired
So tired of being used
So tired of being treated like ****
But as I say this that girl got tired and she became something she didn't think she could become she became a warrior.

Tired of feeling like nothingness
Tired of feeling sadness
Tired of feeling craziness
Tired of feeling not good enough
Tired  of feeling like cryingness
Tired of feeling  sleepless
Tired of feeling lieness
Tired of feeling like careless
Tired of feeling bitterness
Tired of feeling whyness
Tired of feeling go awayness
Tired of feeling home boundness
Tired of feeling numbness
Tired of feeling

Today
Today I thought I heard your voice calling my name
Today I thought I heard your voice asking how I've been
Today I thought I heard your voice saying I been watching you
Today I thought I heard your voice saying you will be all right
Today I thought I heard your voice
Today I looked up to the sky saying I heard you and I love you

Today part two
Today I thought I heard your voice I looked around seeing if I could find you
Today I heard ya but I couldn't find you
Today I thought I heard your voice but it was just the wind blowing in the leaves
Today I thought I heard your voice so I looked up to the sky and said I hear you.

To to to

Days to nights
Rain to sun
Leaves to snow
Sand to water
Hungry to food
Wake to sleep
Animal's  to human's
Fall to winter
Spring to summer
Love to death
Beautiful to ugly
Pink to blue
Time to still
Play to drink
Run to walk
Floor to walls
Money to poor
Sick to health
Trees to flowers
Paper to pen

i dare you to know me
i dare you to talk to me
i dare you to like me
i dare you to tell me your secrets
i dare you to hold me
i dare you to show me the world
i dare  i double dare you to be yourself
truth why

While the town is a sleep
You stay awake at night
Not knowing why
You try to think
You try to sleep
Nothing working
Counting sheep
Please let me sleep
Talkin to you might help me sleep
You ask the sandman for his help
Hes trys but you  still cant sleep
Laying playing the waiting game
Try counting sheep again
This time your half a sleep
Time goes by
By and by
Its daylight
You finally getting your  some sleep
Now the town is a wake

They say there ways light at the end of the tunnel sometimes  i feel like i see the darkness more than the light but when i sit an think about it the light its always there to guide you through the darkness and you don't feel afraid no more

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PICTURES
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EMOTIONS
HAPPY
SAD
ANGERY
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FAMILY
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