Everything is... wonderful...beautiful...perfect...insane and at the same time marvelous...gentle...kind...somehow the world around around me has once again become devine.
This goes out to every soul...every single piece of flesh that decided to stick with me...through the ******...the crack...
everything I have struggled with...
Thank you for still being here and having my back...even if it's maybe just a bed time snack.

Tina Marie Louise...

You have changed the way I think...
You have changed the way I am...
You have changed the way I drink...
You have changed the way I can...

and when I feel all ****** up and caught up in a jam...
I know I have you to hold my hand.

Our Love may seem obscure...
because we come from different worlds...
You're a valley girl...
and I come from a place where homies have jerry girls...

but it don't matter...

My love for you is out of this world.

You are sunshine...
You are rain...
You make me forget all my pain.

You are dark...
You are light...
Without you I have no sight.

You are summer...
You are spring...
You are far more than just a fling.

You are winter...
You are fall...
Without you I have nothing at all.

You are apples...
You are peaches...
You are far better than the country's best beaches.

You are cherries...
You are pears...
Maybe that's why everybody stares.

Carrots and cucumbers...
as long as I'm with you...
I can't fall under.

Peppers and cabbage...
thank you so ******* much...
for tearing away my bandage.

Every single person that know's me...
know's a fact...
I've been a ******* my whole life...

but for some reason...
you woke me up...
so many people tried..
over...and over...and over...

I owe you everything...
my life...my love...un dying.
stupid words I write can't even come close to express what you mean to me.

I will Love you until I'm dead and in the ground...
and I don't even think that would stop me.

Pain
Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above.

Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above.

Pain
Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above

your face
your hands
your feet
your smile
your laugh
your crying
your whining
your coughing
your playing
your heart
your love
your voice
all this i mi the most you will one day know
why but all in good time
your perfect to me
your perfect as can be
i wouldn't trade none of you
even thou i want to cry
even thou i want  to die
i will always be here waiting for you to arrive.

your smile is perfect to me
your body is perfect for me
your heart is perfect for me
your laughter is perfect for me
your days are perfect for me
your nights are perfect for me
stop thinking its all waste of time an let it be
come let me be all that you need
let all the doubt go free
you will never find another like me
come sit by the sea
come look at the trees
come walk with me
again let it be .

pink makes me feel pretty
Pink makes me look good
Pink doesn't judge
Pink is everything you need
Pink My favorite colour

Plenty insanely

Crying all the time
Not knowing why
Counting times
Dressing a rise
Mind racing all the time
Wondering why
Killing time
Playing
Fighting
Crazy
******
Weapons
Head not right
Cant understand why
Plenty insanely before you die

very day that passes...
every second...
every minute...
every moment...
no matter how green the grass is...
or how much snow passes...

You are alive when I am awake...
I can't remember the last night that you were not in my dreams....
You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love...
mine for you is everlasting.

Poetry
Is something that you feel
Is something that you write
Is something that is wonderful
Is something that is close to your heart
Is something that is special
Is something to hide or shine
Is someone who can love
Is someone who can share
Is someone who can care
Is someone who can tell a short story
Is someone who can explain say without saying words
Is something I love to do
Is something that comes easy when in the mood words  flow just like the wind
Some make sense and some don’t
Poetry

rain wash away my tears
rain was away my pain
rain wash away my love
rain wash away my hurt
rain wash away my hope
rain wash away my time
rain wash away my blood stain
rain wash away my cuts n scars
rain wash away my happy face
rain wash away my sad face
rain wash away my soul
rain just wash me away

Random
Thunderstorms inside my head
Sunny days a head
Water running down my cheek
Faking a smile to fool the freaks
Pains in memories
Moments go on
Loving peace
Feeling down
Reading thoughts
Crazy mind
Emotional state
Engery flowing
Connected soul rising
Distance apart
Guitly thoughts
Happy poem's
Life parts
Feathers laying
Wind blowing
Caring ears
Heart so near
Writing time
Hold so dear
Drink to that my dear
Stand alone
Sleep tight
Laughing so bright
Come on just stay the night
Mind racing
Good night.

Random thoughts

Random house cross country is it really good
Why must people will be so sad
Time for sleep in a bit
I dont have the time
Where are we
Night to day
Day to night
Moonlight is a great way to love you
Morning will be fine for you but not me
I cant remember when we were talkin bout him
Just know that you are not going anywheres
Laying down watching a little girl who would love to see her dad
Spirits are the same as yesterday
The wait until he comes bck to her
But you do not have to go
Sadly I think so.

Random words , thoughts, speak
Poem by me
Face  beautiful, sad, happy
Cold air, beath, night
Best good,fair , friend
God real, imagine, believing
Stay longer, walking, run
Forever love, marriage, life
Moment time,photo, video
Blood death, red, fire
Beath sore, bad, cold
Call distance, fail , unlimited
Hair dye, beautiful, fine
Today tomorrow, night , day
Full stomach, moon , lies
Touch good , bad , away
Red blood , crayon , lipstick
Rain heavy, light, wet
Waiting  staying, going , sitting
Watch tv , movies, people
Sit time , moment, quite
Warm heat, heart, strong
Sea water , blue , sharks
Heart beat , red , alive
Finally now , stay , wait
Realize understand, waiting , talking
Child born , age , playful
Human man , woman , child

Red coats
First one personal
Second one coincidental
Third one
Fourth one
Fifth one
Sixth one
Seventh one
Eighth one
Nineth one
Tenth one
Seeing red coats everywhere
Red coats are taking over
When will the pink ones start

I'll always remember the good times we had together the things we did and said.
I thank you for loving me
I thank you for caring for me
I thank you for being there for me
I know in death you will do the same
This isn't a good bye its a I'll see you again when its time
I love you and  no one will ever take your place.
I love you I miss you .

forward backwards
I 'am a sad
and I refused to believe that
happy
I realize this may be a shock, but
I know is a lie
I want to die
In 30 years, I will tell my children that
I have my priorities straight because
depressed
is more important than
happiness
I tell you this
once upon a time
happy
but this will not be true in my era
people dyeing
experts tell me
I'm over weight
I do not conclude that
joy
In the future,
death
no longer cant it be said that
happiness
it will be evident that
hate
It is foolish to presume that
god.
reverse poem

Right now someone crying
Right now someone laughing
Right now someone sad
Right now someone happy
Right now someone dieing
Right now someone giving birth
Right now someone homeless
Right now someone working
Right now someone hungry
Right now someone eating
Right now someone sleeping
Right now someone a wake
Right now someone dealt
Right now someone on the phone
Right now someone driving
Right now someone losing time
Right now someone making memories
Right now someone lonely
Right now someone celebrate a birthday
Right now someone thinking
Right now someone talking
Right now someone...

rip chris
you will be remembered as a caring person
you will be remembered for our struggles
you will be remembered for your loving way
you wi4ll  be remembered as a brother
you will be remembered as this a farther
you will be remembered as a grandfather
you will be remembered as a uncle
buy most of all you will as my brother   that  I adore and respect and adopted

Run with me in the woods
Run with a friend
Run by me
Run once u have the courage to
Run a bit
Run for time
Run for pleasure
Run for high
Run in the name of love
Run the bar
Run away
Run for a break today
Run as far as you  can go
Just ******* run .

Sceared
I want to but sceared
I feel to but sceared
I need you but sceared
I want you but sceared
I have to but sceared
I say so but sceared
For the times I let people have my time they show me why they  dont need it
I know not all are the same
probably should believe that to
Just know I am near
Just know I'm here
Just know I'm not going anywhere

run run
run run
in in
to to  
the the
woods woods
to to
scream scream
louder lounder
until until
i i
lose lose
my my
voice voice
!!
i i
dont dont
wanna wanna
be be
here here
no no
more more
please please
god god
take take
away away
my my
pain pain
i i
will will
cut cut
so so
deep deep
so so \
i dont i dont
have have
to to
scream scream
no no
more more
god god
send send
down down
your your
angle angel
to to
free me free me
from from
this this
world world
are you coming ?

Why do people say they care and dont
Why do people say I'll be there  and dont
Why do people act like they care and dont
I'm human
do have feelings
Slowly shutting down
Wishing I was good enough
Wishing people cared
It's not fair
The one's who treat people like trash are always wanted
Not pretty enough
Not beautiful enough
Not happy enough
Not **** enough
Not nothing
could go by and no one care
Could go by and no one see
I'm cold
I'm tired  
I'm numb
I am invisible ?
Would seem so

short poem

Fingers resting on my face
bones shattering in space
a woman feeling naked love with insane energy
society undernaeth waiting to strike
looking a shut down box

Shy girl

Hiding behide a smile
Thinking of what to say
Not sounding like a fool
Finding time to run a hide
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Feeling down
Feeling used
Crying insdie
Why cant you see
What cant you make time
Driving insane
Virtually world
Dreaming of you
Caring
Loving
Shy girl hi

Shy guy

Hinding behide a smile
**** eyes
Lips taste amazing
Shy half the time
Cute and smart
Foolish at times
Doesnt know what to say
Doesnt know what to think
Doesnt know what to do
Wants to but doesn't
Nervous
Girls  have his attention
But one is all he needs
Take billions in time
Some times wonders why
Wants to run and hide
Shy guy hi.

Sign
When I talk your there
When I think you there
When I dream your there
When I cry I wish you were here
When u talk I'm there
When you think I'm there
When you dream I'm differently there
When you cry I wish I was there
Theres signs I seen them
Theres signs I feel them
There signs i know them

when you voice won't say it
when you eyes won't show it
when your lips won't say it
when your heart won't know it
when your mouth won't touch it  
when you walk on by
when your hand won't in brace it
when you cried wont help
that when you know it's all silences .

single

Stay awake
Can do what I want
Can see who I want
Can go where I want
Can talk to who I want
No one lying
No one cheating
No fighting
Staying single is good
Then why I feel so alone

A bond that can't be broken
Sister's a love that can't be broken
Sister's a word that can't be broken
Sister's sharing clothes
Sister's sharing make-up
Sister's sharing advice
Sister's sharing a common ground
Sister's old
Sister's young
Sister's a bond that be broken
Sister's a love that can't be broken
Sister's a word that can't be broken

I love my sister's by blood by loyalty

sleepless nights

Feeling tired
Falling a sleep
Thinking
Crying
Finally a sleep
Wake up
Lay back down
Holding my dream so tight
Finally a sleep again
Wake up
Stay awake
Sleeping again
Wake up
These are the nights I deal with
These are my nights

Social media brings
sadness
loneliness
depression
anxiety
suicide
bullying
hurtful
angry
time wasted
social media brings
happiness
joyfulness
money
Fame
friends
followers
time to share
both spread news good or bad
brings families together
break up relationships
social media brings the good and the bad
be careful

So tired of thinking i
m not good enough
So tired of thing im better off somewhere else
so tired of thinking people will never understand me
So tired of being used
So tired of wanting to be expected
but as i say thing that girl got tired and she became something she do not think would happen she became a warrior

When you feel it
When you touch it
When you love it
When you like it
When you say it
When you cry it
When you lay with it
When you hold it
It will speak louder then anything and you will know that is where you  wanna be
If I know it
If I see it
If I speak it
You **** well know  I can feel it
Everything I say and feel comes true
So this cant be wrong ?
Then why do I feel so sad?

I m not normal so what
I am crazy so what
I Am fat so what
I'm pretty so what
I Am bored so what
I Am a bit**h so what
I hate winter so what
I love summer so what
I'm 36 so what
I Am a woman so what
I'm weird so what
I swear a lot so what
I love pink so what
I have few friends so what
I love night so what
I love horror so what
i have depressed so what
I get lonely so what
Ism poor so what
I'm lazy some time so what

Spring
Here comes some warm nights
Here comes some warm days
Spring
Here comes the birds who flew south
Here comes the insects who have hide from winter
Spring
Here comes making plans for summer
Here comes Easter
What else can I say about spring ?
Spring
Spring
Oh I can’t wait for summer

The air is cool
The sun is out
The night is near
The people are walking
The cars are driving.
The campers are booking
The aminals are out
The waterfall is beautiful
The time is momerable
The dogs are barking
Oh look summer is coming

Stuff animals
Like a smile
Like a wish
Like a friend
Like a family
Like a colour
Like a beautiful goodbye
Like a hello my dear
Like a life time
Like a peace of mind
Like a first smoke of the day
Like a stiff drink
Hold on when sleeping
Hold on when talking
Hold on when crying

Summer
Here comes children playing
Families camping
Summer
Families going on vacations
Here comes the swimming
Here comes the beach days
Summer
All wild life is free
Beautiful pictures
Summer
I don’t want it to end
Why must we have shorter summers
Summer
Here comes bbq
Here comes longer days
Sun beating off the waters
Stars out
Summer
Moon is full
Oh how I don’t want summer to end

The weather is hot
Fan is blowing
The sun shines bright
The night is dark
The love is in the air
The flowers are growing
The birds are signing
The air is fresh
The marshollw are roasting
The wind is blowing
The chairs are full
The trist for a drink becomes one on everyone list
The time flys when having fun
The summer is short
Enjoy before the cold kicks in
Oh no it's fall again

Talkin to angel
Hello
Hello  are you here
I really need your ear
I'm here
What is it you wanna hear
I need you
I need your help to fight my fears
I'm here dont be afraid to me all your fears
I'm sad
I'm lonely
I'm tired
I'm alone
I'm ugly
I'm....
Shh my child you are not all of those
I see
Beauty
Happiness
Poetry
Love
Caring
Well why do people not see that
Only one who truthy care will see
You are not made for everyone my dear
Cry if you need to
Sleep if you need to
Hide if you need to
But never lose yourself over fools
Feel better my dear tomorrow is coming and no more fears.

36 age
italian fame
brown eye girl
holding on
standing still
tattoo for each of how i feel
24 in all
girly time
breaking point
falling down wanted to be seen
crossing path in strange lands

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

Tears of love ones gone
Tears of death
Tears of sadness
Tears of heart break over and over again
Tears of crying in the rain
Tears of secret's upon your lips
Tears of broken dreams
Tears of unspoken words
Tears of silence
Tears of blame
Tears of for a smile
Tears of pain
Tears of hopeful
Tears of love
Tears of happiness

Tears in heaven

I cried when I found out
You cried when you found out
I wonder why when I found out
You wonder why when I found out
I think of you every day
You think of me every day
I try to hold myself together
You tried to hold yourself together
I know your never far as always near
You know I'm never far I'm always near
I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye
You couldn't bring yourself to say goodbye
I wish you were here
You wish I was here
I Cry sometimes
You cry sometimes
But together we r alive

Tell me
Tell me why you like me?
Tell me why you need me?
Tell me I belong here?
Tell me you talk to me?
Tell me why I need to be here?
Tell me why I cry at night?
Tell me why I feel so alone?
Tell me why you can't see me?
Tell me why life hates me?
Tell me tell me tell me
Tell me just tell me why ?
I know you know the answers I seek
You are with me aren't you ?

Thanksgiving
Thanksgiving a time for love
A time for good food
A time for spending it with the ones you love
Thanksgiving a time for remembering the ones who passed on
Thanksgiving a time for unbuttoning the pants and putting on the sports
Thanksgiving a time for cool air and warm nights
Thanksgiving a time for leaves falling the bird chipping
Thanksgiving a time for turkey and ice cream
Thanksgiving a time for ham and mash potatoes
Thanksgiving a time for carrots and squash
Thanksgiving a time for pumpkin pie and cookies
Thanksgiving a time for water and beer
Thanksgiving a time for closed entertainment
Thanksgiving a time for thanking god we are alive
Thanksgiving a time for giving thanks for what we have
Thanksgiving a time for a nap

The Christmas poem

As love ones gather near and far
Wishing each other a merry Christmas and happy new year
The ones in heaven wishing they were here
You hear them whispering in the wind
You see them in your dreams
You tell them I wish heaven would let you visit this time of year
You see thier footsteps in the snow
You see the red cardinal
You may even see a feather here or there
Just knowing they are there
Don’t be sad this time of year
See people who are still here
Homeless person may be cold
they even be hungry
Feeling that they are forgotten
Don’t feel forgotten people still care
Don’t be sad this time of year
Words only mean what you hold so dear
So try to spread  a little Christmas cheers
Merry Christmas to all and happy new year