Tina
I'm pretty         I'm fat
I'm happy         I'm sad
I'm gone         I'm crying
I'm good             I'm bad
I'm tired         i dont sleep
I'm pain            I'm cutting
I'm upset        I'm not around
I care                  i dont
I'm crazy          I'm crazy
I'm pink             I'm purple
I'm glad             I'm mad
I walk                    I run
I stay                   I leave
I'm depression   im diabetic
I make no ******* sense.

So tired of thinking I'm not good enough
So tired of thinking I'm better off somewhere else
So tired of thinking people will never  understand me
So tired of wanting to expected
So tired of being tired
So tired of being used
So tired of being treated like ****
But as I say this that girl got tired and she became something she didn't think she could become she became a warrior.

Tired of feeling like nothingness
Tired of feeling sadness
Tired of feeling craziness
Tired of feeling not good enough
Tired  of feeling like cryingness
Tired of feeling  sleepless
Tired of feeling lieness
Tired of feeling like careless
Tired of feeling bitterness
Tired of feeling whyness
Tired of feeling go awayness
Tired of feeling home boundness
Tired of feeling numbness
Tired of feeling

Today
Today I thought I heard your voice calling my name
Today I thought I heard your voice asking how I've been
Today I thought I heard your voice saying I been watching you
Today I thought I heard your voice saying you will be all right
Today I thought I heard your voice
Today I looked up to the sky saying I heard you and I love you

Today part two
Today I thought I heard your voice I looked around seeing if I could find you
Today I heard ya but I couldn't find you
Today I thought I heard your voice but it was just the wind blowing in the leaves
Today I thought I heard your voice so I looked up to the sky and said I hear you.

To to to

Days to nights
Rain to sun
Leaves to snow
Sand to water
Hungry to food
Wake to sleep
Animal's  to human's
Fall to winter
Spring to summer
Love to death
Beautiful to ugly
Pink to blue
Time to still
Play to drink
Run to walk
Floor to walls
Money to poor
Sick to health
Trees to flowers
Paper to pen

i dare you to know me
i dare you to talk to me
i dare you to like me
i dare you to tell me your secrets
i dare you to hold me
i dare you to show me the world
i dare  i double dare you to be yourself
truth why

While the town is a sleep
You stay awake at night
Not knowing why
You try to think
You try to sleep
Nothing working
Counting sheep
Please let me sleep
Talkin to you might help me sleep
You ask the sandman for his help
Hes trys but you  still cant sleep
Laying playing the waiting game
Try counting sheep again
This time your half a sleep
Time goes by
By and by
Its daylight
You finally getting your  some sleep
Now the town is a wake

They say there ways light at the end of the tunnel sometimes  i feel like i see the darkness more than the light but when i sit an think about it the light its always there to guide you through the darkness and you don't feel afraid no more

MEMORIES
PICTURES
TIME
LOVE
HATE
PAIN
EMOTIONS
HAPPY
SAD
ANGERY
S­PENDING
SILENCE
DANCE
HOME
FAMILY
FRIENDS
WEDDING
FURNAL
BIRTH
DE­ATH

i sit and look out the window wondering if your thinking of me to
i sit and look out the window wondering if your talking bout me
i sit and look out the window wondering if you are ok
i sit and look out the window wondering if  you will ever know
i lay here thinking and thinking
i lay here not knowing what's going on
i lay here wondering all kinds of what ifs
i walk to think
i walk to see
but nothing is there where it should be i think i'm going crazy with my own **** thoughts but im use it so it does bother me with these thoughts
i wish things could og the way i believe but nothing will be ever be
i see the moon shining so bright
it knows how i feel and what i do
i know it will never be true
the moon knows all my secrets an you will never
i go back to the window sitting thinking an thinking
wishing i could go to sleep but nope it's not in the cards for me
so i'll lay here thinking of everything and let it all make do .

day time put  on a show
day time make them laugh
day time make them talk
day time run around
day time sleep
switch
night time alone
night time sad
night time lonely
night time no one around
night time sleep for now

A poem by me
Crying
Sitting
Laying
Crying
Crying
Crying
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
I feel so lost
I feel so sad
I feel so well I dont know anymore
Like time has no hands
And days have no time
Memories  have lasted
Memories have gone
What now
What should i do
What  should i feel
I have  words
I have thoughts
I'm ............

girl sitting alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl crying alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl walking alone thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl standing having a smoking and thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl feeling nothing but pain
girl seeing nothing but hurt
girl seeing nothing but tears
but she didn't know that she wasn't alone
she had her angel beside her whispering beautiful things in her ear

As I sleep one night long ago
I had a dream some i remember some i dont
Feels so real
Felt like nothing i have ever felt before
The parts i remember I'm happy
The parts I dont I'm sad
As I sleep other night long ago
I had other dream
Again some I remember some I dont
Again feels so real
Again felt like nothing I felt before
Is it wrong to feel this way I ask myself that  every day

Your smile
Your hands
Your body
Your mouth
Your heart
Your eyes
Your laugh
Your feelings
Your mind
Your soul
Your just what I think about

Nights are dark
Lips long to touch
Hearts pounding
Waiting watching
Tines goes by playing music
Leaves a moment on your heart
Apart of the time just minutes away feels like nights of dark

Time has no date
A kiss holds love
A cry speaks
A dream to hold, build
Eyes tell stories
Clouds make rain
Joy bring laughter
A love brings happiness
A soul brings marriage
A key holds the key to hearts
A lie ruins lives
Time is what you can fix
Emotions is what you have
History is what you make
Fade happens when people forget you in time
Chains can be broken
Silence can break you down.

Sitting alone
Wondering what the world is doing
Taking chances
Lighting smokes
Falling down to the ground
Time wasting
Love making
Jaws breaking
Flowers
Spiders
Wasting time writing this
Wasting time reading this
Boredom kicked in

Drunk off the love of your flame
Feeling numb to the game
Laid apon  your heart of touch
Sinking in the depths of dust
Instance knowledge
History.

Lay awake a night
Desire to fit in
Just a chance to make a point
A joyful power
Landed in space
Chest pounding
Poetry is a waken

Good bye my love
Good bye my friend
Goodbye my depression
Goodbye my sun
Good bye my drink
Good bye my drug
Goodbye my nature
Goodbye my woods
Goodbye to all
Hello.

Dancing nights followed by  sleepless night time consuming fights for the rest my life

I felt pain everyday
Lost is what it is
I thought  I would be great
Keep trying why ?
Remember when I felt great
I free my time
Stay dark at night
Happy what is that
Fear what I can not control
Sweet loving pie

Wings are flying as thedust ages
Your stomach and lungs are shutting down
Feeling sick after drinking your spirits
As the universe grows golden in your veins

Wanting to cry
Wanting to die
Not knowing why
Killing time
Standing outside
Playing on the dime
Fighting all the time
Trying to get by
Can count on dates
Mind is racing all the time
Wondering why
No time to cry
No body knows why
Relationship died
Birds fly
I'm running out if time
Hey honey you want a drive.

love was in the air for us
love placed us
love was showing fear but hidden
under was love for us
our love is warm no change in that
mind set right forever
until our dying day

Ready
I'm feeling short
I'm hoping
For no weak heart
I rise from darkness
I share my scars
Breezing above
Looking for comfort
Gold is my name
Book my time?

on a summer day
the weather was hot and bit of a breeze was blowing
sally sue was outside in her bare feet wearing her favorite pair of pink shoes
standing under the apple trees with the sky a clear blue

Laughter crazy
Dancing free
Trust maybe
Heaven knowing my name
What a feeling escaping from this drink

Untitled
Footsteps of loved one
The wind blowing is you saying i'm here
The rain is you saying I cired
The sun shining is you saying i'm happy
The clouds is you saying I'm sad
The fog is you saying I miss you
The flower is you saying don't worry
The birds is you saying hi
The butterfly's is you saying I'm always here
The trees is you saying you are not alone
The feather is you saying i was here

I'm here
I'm there
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
I see
I feel
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
Holding on time
Playing with fire
Thought running through your head
Dacing around
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
I keep a eye
But cant understand why
I'm never far
But ill hold you dear
Just wanna make that clear
I'm everywhere

A face so beautiful
Look in the mirror
Skin so nice
Tears run down
Weak heart cuts
Voice wants to stop
Scars are remind
Stood in distances
Catch a simple kiss
The touch of taste.

Sitting alone
Wondering what the world is doing
Taking chances
Lighting smokes
Falling down to the ground
Time wasting
Love making
Jaws breaking
Flowers
Spiders
Wasting time writing this
Wasting time reading this
Boredom kicked in

feeling sad         i looking for happiness
feeling lonely     looking for you
feeling pain       i want it to be gone
feeling tired      i want to sleep
feeling  nothing    i want to feel
holding pen in hand
paper on the counter
writing until i can't think or become numb
not all makes sense
i cant hide what i feel
no matter how much i try
i over think
i under think
crying from time to time
hiding away
never to been seen
i want it all
piece by piece
holding on

hidden but i return
got caught in the game
shadows following telling stories of long ago
chose to distance myself
but desire caught me
and now  won't let it  go

Love has no time
A heart has no time
Life has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die
The sun shines
The rain does fall
Beauty is showed in random places
Fire burns longer then the sun shines
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for the living
Arms hold tight
Feet walked far
But love has no time
A heart has no time
A lie has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die

A love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we live
Each night we live
Left behind in time
The sun shines
The rain falls
Beauty is shown in random places
Fire burning longer then the sun
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for living
Arms hold so tight
Feet walked so far
But a love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we lived
Each day we lived.

Walking down the praved road of hell
Its all quite not one sound
All the lights are on no shadows to be founded
Your body cold  wishing it  was warm
Rain starts to come down you wish you were home right now
You keep on walking until you reach  home
Once inside you the home of hell and you dont want to be founded right there.
So change into night and as you sleep so bright
The moon gets jealous at that site
But doesnt want break the fight
So you stop and look around
Warm to snuggle
Right to sleep for this town.

Lance Peter Murray wrote this poem for me he passed away last year oct 9 will be one year since hes been gone
September 5, 2017 ·
every day that passes...
every second...
every minute...
every moment...
no matter how green the grass is...
or how much snow passes...

You are alive when I am awake...
I can't remember the last night that you were not in my dreams....
You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love...
mine for you is everlasting

my heart loses hours
for pretty desires
i long for a pretty soul
was inside my head wants to shine higher than the clouds
met the right soul was is ending
only for us to love forever
and dying at peace because for there is no more war

Love= happiness
Time= long
Keep= smiling
Pain= lost
Smile=beautiful
Remember= people
Fear=sad, anixey
Dreams=hold on to
Touch= to have and to hold
Kiss= married
Hurt= feeling
Wonder=thinking
Sea= mermaid
Speak= talking,listening
Alive= lived
Apart= wishing
Happiness= love
Listen= hearing
Big= heart
Coming= going
Laugh= faith,hope
Wake= dreams
Eye= tell a story
Chest= treasure
Fell= head over heels
Story= life
Human= everyone
Walls= down
Boy= girl

here
here
never far
Which makes me good
You use
You lie
You probably even steal
Take for granted all that does
run with the wind
Hide from the rain
Walked the streets with low self support
An wonder why no one cares
Take a deep breath
And go your own way
Time will tell what you need to hear
But no one will be there or near.

what does one say ?
what does one do ?
what does one feel ?
what does one think?
what does this all mean?
when one can say
when one can do
when one can feel
when one can think
this means one is whole
i think not
one does not feel an think alike one can only imagine
what now you say
i say doesn't matter one will listen?
you can ask
i think if you do then the world will and you have peace will overcome

U look down n c the most beautiful flower
U look around n dont c no more
U wonder y there is only one  lil flower
When there is a field
All is empty but that lil flower
But it still grows as if nothing ever happen
U think that poor lil  flower feels all alone
But it doesnt cause its knows that when u feel alone u r still whole
But the next day the flower noticed that he wasn't alone cuz other flower  was started to grow
N that lil poor flower wasn't alone no more.
And that day is when the lil flower realized he loved other flower
U c the lil flower didnt wanna be left alone in this world but didnt want look for other flower so  he waited to c if other flower would come by
N when she did he felt like nothing would ever hurt him again.

jim a salesman lives in a cabin in the woods
on a hot sunny day he would sit outside and relax
on this day day the sun isn't shining so he would sit in his room with the light on pretending it was sunny day.

dark night brings crying eyes
day light brings wide open eyes
come walk with me
come hold me tight  even when i try to fight
stop making everything so hard let it sit and think
do you even know what time it is ?
stars are bright as we know
pen in hand
paper on the table
write  what comes to mind she says
write until your hands fall off
smoke your cigarette
light your joint
drink your *****
run your bubble bath
and avoid the world

I see things
I feel things
I know things
No one listens to me
No one hears me
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Going somewhere
Siting somewhere
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Laying somewhere in bed of flowers
No time to cry
I see things
I feel things
I know things

look around
strangers at one time
hopeful spoken words worked
multiple hugs
forehead kisses
soft hearted
whisper my name
our souls mathed
skin to skin
created a flame
remember spotlight
young
old
growing old

old poem I wrote
April 10, 2019 ·
They say time heals all wounds
They say love will come when your not looking for it
They say when you dream about someone they are thinking of you
They say when you cant sleep its cause someone else is dreaming of you
They say take pills to hide your pain
They say talk to someone when feeling down
They say imagine the world would he better place if everyone got a long
They say no one is prefect
They say alot of things in this world
But they never say how hard it will be before the good comes along
So love what you have before it's gone