i sit and look out the window wondering if your thinking of me to
i sit and look out the window wondering if your talking bout me
i sit and look out the window wondering if you are ok
i sit and look out the window wondering if  you will ever know
i lay here thinking and thinking
i lay here not knowing what's going on
i lay here wondering all kinds of what ifs
i walk to think
i walk to see
but nothing is there where it should be i think i'm going crazy with my own **** thoughts but im use it so it does bother me with these thoughts
i wish things could og the way i believe but nothing will be ever be
i see the moon shining so bright
it knows how i feel and what i do
i know it will never be true
the moon knows all my secrets an you will never
i go back to the window sitting thinking an thinking
wishing i could go to sleep but nope it's not in the cards for me
so i'll lay here thinking of everything and let it all make do .

Dancing nights followed by  sleepless night time consuming fights for the rest my life

old poem I wrote
April 10, 2019 ·
They say time heals all wounds
They say love will come when your not looking for it
They say when you dream about someone they are thinking of you
They say when you cant sleep its cause someone else is dreaming of you
They say take pills to hide your pain
They say talk to someone when feeling down
They say imagine the world would he better place if everyone got a long
They say no one is prefect
They say alot of things in this world
But they never say how hard it will be before the good comes along
So love what you have before it's gone

jim a salesman lives in a cabin in the woods
on a hot sunny day he would sit outside and relax
on this day day the sun isn't shining so he would sit in his room with the light on pretending it was sunny day.

Nights are dark
Lips long to touch
Hearts pounding
Waiting watching
Tines goes by playing music
Leaves a moment on your heart
Apart of the time just minutes away feels like nights of dark

Ready
I'm feeling short
I'm hoping
For no weak heart
I rise from darkness
I share my scars
Breezing above
Looking for comfort
Gold is my name
Book my time?

Lay awake a night
Desire to fit in
Just a chance to make a point
A joyful power
Landed in space
Chest pounding
Poetry is a waken

Laughter crazy
Dancing free
Trust maybe
Heaven knowing my name
What a feeling escaping from this drink

Love= happiness
Time= long
Keep= smiling
Pain= lost
Smile=beautiful
Remember= people
Fear=sad, anixey
Dreams=hold on to
Touch= to have and to hold
Kiss= married
Hurt= feeling
Wonder=thinking
Sea= mermaid
Speak= talking,listening
Alive= lived
Apart= wishing
Happiness= love
Listen= hearing
Big= heart
Coming= going
Laugh= faith,hope
Wake= dreams
Eye= tell a story
Chest= treasure
Fell= head over heels
Story= life
Human= everyone
Walls= down
Boy= girl

Wings are flying as thedust ages
Your stomach and lungs are shutting down
Feeling sick after drinking your spirits
As the universe grows golden in your veins

love was in the air for us
love placed us
love was showing fear but hidden
under was love for us
our love is warm no change in that
mind set right forever
until our dying day

my heart loses hours
for pretty desires
i long for a pretty soul
was inside my head wants to shine higher than the clouds
met the right soul was is ending
only for us to love forever
and dying at peace because for there is no more war

A love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we live
Each night we live
Left behind in time
The sun shines
The rain falls
Beauty is shown in random places
Fire burning longer then the sun
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for living
Arms hold so tight
Feet walked so far
But a love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we lived
Each day we lived.

I felt pain everyday
Lost is what it is
I thought  I would be great
Keep trying why ?
Remember when I felt great
I free my time
Stay dark at night
Happy what is that
Fear what I can not control
Sweet loving pie

look around
strangers at one time
hopeful spoken words worked
multiple hugs
forehead kisses
soft hearted
whisper my name
our souls mathed
skin to skin
created a flame
remember spotlight
young
old
growing old

Love has no time
A heart has no time
Life has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die
The sun shines
The rain does fall
Beauty is showed in random places
Fire burns longer then the sun shines
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for the living
Arms hold tight
Feet walked far
But love has no time
A heart has no time
A lie has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die

hidden but i return
got caught in the game
shadows following telling stories of long ago
chose to distance myself
but desire caught me
and now  won't let it  go

here
here
never far
Which makes me good
You use
You lie
You probably even steal
Take for granted all that does
run with the wind
Hide from the rain
Walked the streets with low self support
An wonder why no one cares
Take a deep breath
And go your own way
Time will tell what you need to hear
But no one will be there or near.

As I sleep one night long ago
I had a dream some i remember some i dont
Feels so real
Felt like nothing i have ever felt before
The parts i remember I'm happy
The parts I dont I'm sad
As I sleep other night long ago
I had other dream
Again some I remember some I dont
Again feels so real
Again felt like nothing I felt before
Is it wrong to feel this way I ask myself that  every day

girl sitting alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl crying alone on a bench thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl walking alone thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl standing having a smoking and thinking of everything that's going on in her life
girl feeling nothing but pain
girl seeing nothing but hurt
girl seeing nothing but tears
but she didn't know that she wasn't alone
she had her angel beside her whispering beautiful things in her ear

day time put  on a show
day time make them laugh
day time make them talk
day time run around
day time sleep
switch
night time alone
night time sad
night time lonely
night time no one around
night time sleep for now

Untitled
Footsteps of loved one
The wind blowing is you saying i'm here
The rain is you saying I cired
The sun shining is you saying i'm happy
The clouds is you saying I'm sad
The fog is you saying I miss you
The flower is you saying don't worry
The birds is you saying hi
The butterfly's is you saying I'm always here
The trees is you saying you are not alone
The feather is you saying i was here

dark night brings crying eyes
day light brings wide open eyes
come walk with me
come hold me tight  even when i try to fight
stop making everything so hard let it sit and think
do you even know what time it is ?
stars are bright as we know
pen in hand
paper on the table
write  what comes to mind she says
write until your hands fall off
smoke your cigarette
light your joint
drink your *****
run your bubble bath
and avoid the world

A face so beautiful
Look in the mirror
Skin so nice
Tears run down
Weak heart cuts
Voice wants to stop
Scars are remind
Stood in distances
Catch a simple kiss
The touch of taste.

I'm here
I'm there
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
I see
I feel
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
Holding on time
Playing with fire
Thought running through your head
Dacing around
I'm everywhere
You'll never know where I'll be
I keep a eye
But cant understand why
I'm never far
But ill hold you dear
Just wanna make that clear
I'm everywhere

I see things
I feel things
I know things
No one listens to me
No one hears me
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Going somewhere
Siting somewhere
I see things
I feel things
I know things
Laying somewhere in bed of flowers
No time to cry
I see things
I feel things
I know things

what does one say ?
what does one do ?
what does one feel ?
what does one think?
what does this all mean?
when one can say
when one can do
when one can feel
when one can think
this means one is whole
i think not
one does not feel an think alike one can only imagine
what now you say
i say doesn't matter one will listen?
you can ask
i think if you do then the world will and you have peace will overcome

Time has no date
A kiss holds love
A cry speaks
A dream to hold, build
Eyes tell stories
Clouds make rain
Joy bring laughter
A love brings happiness
A soul brings marriage
A key holds the key to hearts
A lie ruins lives
Time is what you can fix
Emotions is what you have
History is what you make
Fade happens when people forget you in time
Chains can be broken
Silence can break you down.

A poem by me
Crying
Sitting
Laying
Crying
Crying
Crying
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
I feel so lost
I feel so sad
I feel so well I dont know anymore
Like time has no hands
And days have no time
Memories  have lasted
Memories have gone
What now
What should i do
What  should i feel
I have  words
I have thoughts
I'm ............

Lance Peter Murray wrote this poem for me he passed away last year oct 9 will be one year since hes been gone
September 5, 2017 ·
every day that passes...
every second...
every minute...
every moment...
no matter how green the grass is...
or how much snow passes...

You are alive when I am awake...
I can't remember the last night that you were not in my dreams....
You are everything to me.

Thank you for your love...
mine for you is everlasting

U look down n c the most beautiful flower
U look around n dont c no more
U wonder y there is only one  lil flower
When there is a field
All is empty but that lil flower
But it still grows as if nothing ever happen
U think that poor lil  flower feels all alone
But it doesnt cause its knows that when u feel alone u r still whole
But the next day the flower noticed that he wasn't alone cuz other flower  was started to grow
N that lil poor flower wasn't alone no more.
And that day is when the lil flower realized he loved other flower
U c the lil flower didnt wanna be left alone in this world but didnt want look for other flower so  he waited to c if other flower would come by
N when she did he felt like nothing would ever hurt him again.

on a summer day
the weather was hot and bit of a breeze was blowing
sally sue was outside in her bare feet wearing her favorite pair of pink shoes
standing under the apple trees with the sky a clear blue

Your smile
Your hands
Your body
Your mouth
Your heart
Your eyes
Your laugh
Your feelings
Your mind
Your soul
Your just what I think about

Sitting alone
Wondering what the world is doing
Taking chances
Lighting smokes
Falling down to the ground
Time wasting
Love making
Jaws breaking
Flowers
Spiders
Wasting time writing this
Wasting time reading this
Boredom kicked in

feeling sad         i looking for happiness
feeling lonely     looking for you
feeling pain       i want it to be gone
feeling tired      i want to sleep
feeling  nothing    i want to feel
holding pen in hand
paper on the counter
writing until i can't think or become numb
not all makes sense
i cant hide what i feel
no matter how much i try
i over think
i under think
crying from time to time
hiding away
never to been seen
i want it all
piece by piece
holding on

Drunk off the love of your flame
Feeling numb to the game
Laid apon  your heart of touch
Sinking in the depths of dust
Instance knowledge
History.

Wanting to cry
Wanting to die
Not knowing why
Killing time
Standing outside
Playing on the dime
Fighting all the time
Trying to get by
Can count on dates
Mind is racing all the time
Wondering why
No time to cry
No body knows why
Relationship died
Birds fly
I'm running out if time
Hey honey you want a drive.

Walking down the praved road of hell
Its all quite not one sound
All the lights are on no shadows to be founded
Your body cold  wishing it  was warm
Rain starts to come down you wish you were home right now
You keep on walking until you reach  home
Once inside you the home of hell and you dont want to be founded right there.
So change into night and as you sleep so bright
The moon gets jealous at that site
But doesnt want break the fight
So you stop and look around
Warm to snuggle
Right to sleep for this town.

fun
drink in hand
straight mix times to time
music loud
no one around
sometimes found in a crowd
drinking when sad  
drinking when happy
not falling down
talking to few
breaking all the rules
holding in tears
becoming a fool
faking  a smile to hide pain
going home to sleep it all away
laying down
lonely nightmares a wait

VS

Days vs nights
Happy vs sad
Glad vs mad
Beautiful vs ugly
Rich vs poor
Sunny vs rainy
Awake vs sleep
Loved vs alone
Run vs walk
Pink vs purple
Flowers vs seeds
Mountains vs hills
Grass vs sand
Dog vs cats
Life vs dealth
Light vs dark
Hot vs cold
Summer vs spring
Winter vs fall
Movies vs TV
Music vs headphones
Money vs change
Stand vs sit
Nature vs wild
Animals vs humans
Bus vs car
Drinking vs drunk
Smoking vs high
Hurt vs pain
Pictures vs memories
Time vs watch

walking home all alone on a cold winter night herding nothing but silents
so peaceful you don't know if someone is crying if someone is lying if someone is talking if someone is sleeping
but it doesn't matter cause you are alone
walking home alone in the dark thinking  i  can overcome these thoughts
walking home all alone in the dark you see two people holding hands
while walking home all alone in the dark you reach home and look around crawling to bed
sound asleep you are dreaming of nothing but when  you wake to *** you see me standing there
what should i do
but stand there watching you .

Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone
Wall painted with colours
Wall wants to come down but won't
Wall needs new wall
Wall runs for miles with out stopping for air
Wall not what you want but what you get to feel safe
Wall time heals from scars
Wall can be beautiful when need be
Wall can come down when the time is right
Wall stands tall
Wall stands high
Wall stands alone .

i watch you walk
i watch you talk
i watch you listen
i watch you sit
i watch you  just being you
i don't know why i do the things  i do just to watch you
but all i know is i could never leave its like a drug and drink just for awhile you feel nothing but then when its gone you feel unwanted so i watch as you do the things you do just know ill never leave you all lone.

Here comes the bride all dress in pink
sweating like a pig
standing , waiting  for her to arrive
Feeling
Happy
Joyful
Loveable
Nervous
Say the words
I love you
sharing with the family ,friends
Hug
Kiss
Dance
Smile
Picture
Video
Forever until the end

Poem by me
When
When you talk
When you walk
When you sleep
When you cry
When you hold me
When you dance
When you smile
When you write
When you read
When you look at me I feel all warm insdie
You make me feel there's nothing I cant do and that makes me happy I'll never want to cry

When I get lonely
When  I get happy
When I can sleep
When I am a wake
When I get sad
When I cry
When I get short of breathe
When i walk
When I run
When I sit
When I stand
When I talk
When I'm quite
I think of you

When I'm gone
When I am gone dont cry
When im gone worry
When im gone love
When im gone dont pray
When im gone dont care
Whe  im gone dont wish
When im gone dont give flowers
When im gone dont ask
When im gone dont talk
When im gone dont act
Cause you do that now so dont when im gone

When I'm gone

I'll be free
I'll be where need be
I'll stay near by
I'll watch every move you make
I'll be the trees
I'll be the water
I'll be the animals
I'll be the moon
I'll be the starts
I'll be the sun
I'll be the love
I'll be the hate
I'll be the wind
I'll be the rain
I'll be the dirt
I'll be the clouds
I'll be the feathers
I'll be the voice you hear
I'll be in your dreams
I'll be in your soul
I'll be free
When I am gone

WHO I AM

Tina Lombardo first
I was born 1982
I was young child
I was teenager
I am
Daughter
Iam
Granddaughter
I am
Sister
I am
Aunt
I am
Mother
I am
Smart
I am
Wise
I am
Nice
I am
Happy
I am
Beautiful
I am
Tina Chesley second
I am poet
I am
Photographer
I am
Pink
I am
Me

Will you remember me when I'm gone
Will you remember me when I'm a live
Will you remember me when I was there for you
Will you remember me when the sun goes down
Will you remember me when moon shines
Will you remember me like the flowers do
Wi ll you remember me like the animals do
Will you remember me like  my Angel's do
Will you remember me like my demons do
Will you remember me like rain does
Will you remember me like my tears do
Will you remember me at all