Sometimes
When I hear his voice I can see visions
Visions of promises he hasn’t given me yet
It’s more of visions of ecstasy
Never felt at home with anyone else
But just speaking to him calms me in ways others can’t
He strengthens me, always
It confuses me because he’s the only one
I would offer my hand but will the tragedies I’ve dealt with be the tumbling building
Can he break the shell that was given to me to protect me
Can he protect my heart
I wonder if he could hold me when I’m alone
Hold me as tears tumble down my eyes
Will he take me to heights that I have never seen
I’m willing to take the journey
How can I tell him
I’ll walk with him

I forgot this feeling
I forgot how he made me feel
I don't know how to express myself in a way I would like to
I really don't want to open up
Because all that brings is sadness and empty promises
But in a way, I feel like a butterfly when it comes to him
I guess I never knew what I really was missing
Maybe I am scared to take the next step because it feels all new to me once again
I'm scared to step into newness because it always ends up being another hell instead of the heaven I deserve