Why did you touch me that first night?
When I was wrapped up in sweet memories

Why did you lure me into the hot steam of a shower and show me you loved me in a way that's not right?

Why when I became distant, faded, and lost did you demand me to hug you because you were at a loss without the sweet relief of my pale skin?

Why when it started did I believe it was okay? That it was normal and I shouldn't worry enough to tell

Why when I became scarred in more ways than one did you yell at me? Was it because my sweet skin was no longer clear and soft? Was it because you only loved me because you could touch me and now the skin that you liked to touch had become rough and undelightful?

Why do you continue to poison their minds with lies?
And try to tell me you didn't do anything wrong when we both know you did

Why did you touch me so many times and expect me to never leave you behind?

You never loved me
You loved the sweet relief you got from touching my skin and soul

Every kiss is different

There's the sweet kind
It's tender and loving

There's the desperate kind that begs for more and is never satisfied

There's the longing kind
It longs for more and it's lingering

There's the kind that's full of love
It's tender and sweet and doesn't beg for more

Every kiss is different
But be careful
If you ever come across a desperate or forceful kiss
Flee the scene and never look back

I observe
I don't approach

I observe the way you talk

I observe the way you use gestures

I observe the way you walk

I observe the things you do when you have a crush

I observe the way you act towards the people you like

I observe the way you act when you're in love

I observe until I can understand when you're nervous
Until I know when you are happy
Until I know when you're mad
Until I know when you're sad
Until I know when you feel lonely

I observe until there's nothing left to learn
I do it so I can fit it and so I know how not to make a mistake

I have now done it so much I know how someones feeling even when they don't say a thing

Where did I go wrong?
What did I do to make most people hate me?

Because no matter what I do I can't hate them too
I just hope that one day they say they were wrong

You told me you loved me

You said you loved me more than I loved you

You told me you didn't know what you would do without me

Then you left me
Because I was no longer good enough

You left me to cry
You left me feeling like I wanted to die

You left me worse off then you said you'd be without me

So next time someone tells me they love me more
Don't be surprised when I don't cry when you leave

Everyone always says
"See the forest for the trees."
But no one ever says
"But be careful of what might be lurking underneath."

So the monsters have gone unnoticed and have started to attack by entering our minds and making us lack any feeling of our own

Deep down we know
But we still venture where we shouldn't go

Their smile could light up a room

Their laugh can drown out my thoughts

Their eyes see me for who I am not who I pretend to be

Their hands are as soft as silk

The way they walk
The way they talk
The way they look at me
The way they act has me entranced

But I shouldn't love them because they are taken

Love and fear

People use them in the same sentence
In the same story
In the same instance a lot

They could almost be referred to as synonyms

Why are they used so often the same?
This is a question many may ask

This is my answer

It's because you have to go through the fear of loss
You have to go through the fear of abandonment
You have to be rejected then found

You have to get over the fear of being forgotten to experience the freedom
To experience the passion
That comes with true love

All I have to say is don't give into the fear
Give it up

She walks the halls with a mysterious pride
Yet she has no friends
So where does it come from?

Her dad left her long ago
When she was still small and innocent
So where does it come from?

Her mom always works so she's mostly left alone
So where does it come from?

You wouldn't understand
But that's her goal

She's mysteriously captivating

Step one
Say hi

Step two
Don't lie

Step three
Get to know them

Step four
Don't start ignoring him

Step five
Don't push or shove

Step six
Don't fall in love

My love for you is true
And I can't get you off my mind
No matter what I do

I want you to hold me and never let me go
I want you to love me and make sure I know
I want you to kiss me like the minute I go you'll miss me
And I want you to know

When you hold me my heart beats twice as fast
And I want you to know

When you kiss me I want it to forever last
And I want you to know

You make me forget my past
Because finally atlast
I found my future

I found you

Every day I wait

I wait for the day that I'll hear your voice

I wait for the day I'll be able to take in your every feature

I wait for the day I'll be in your arms and you in mine

I wait for the day I can officially declare you real

I wait for the day I can tell you I love you with more than just a thought

Every day I wait
And every night I cry

I wait for the day I don't have to wait any longer

To me he's the stars
He adds brightness to my life

He's the moon

He's the light when all I see is dark

He's the rainbow after the rain

He's the sun on a cloudy day

He's like a storm

His mood can change in a flash

He can be happy
He can be sad
He can be mad

He can be annoyed
Jealous
Hurt
Lonely
And so much more
And like a storm he can feel all of those in just one day

He can be like a storm
But he can also be like snowfall on Christmas day

He can make you feel emotions you can't explain
And he can be peaceful

But he can also make you feel like you're drowning if he decides you're not the one

His love is like a stormy ocean
It's fun to be on
But once it gets rough
It can tear you apart

If you survive the storm though it can be lovely
But it can all change in a flask
Like it never even happened

When he looks at me with those soft eyes of his I melt and I just wanna curl up into his arms
And tell him to never let me go

When he holds my hand it's like suddenly there's electricity coursing through me
And I start to shake
So I feel the need to let go
Before my emotions get out of control

When his lips that feel indescribably soft touch mine
Everything around me just dissapears
And all my fears
Bad thoughts
And doubt dissapear
Like they weren't there to begin with

When the word "I love you" leave his lips it's like the soft sound of light rain on the roof
That soothes you to sleep at night

My heart has been broken
And my heart has been mended

My heart has been frozen
And it has felt warmth

My heart has been shattered
And glued back together

My heart has felt more emotions in one day then some feel in a month

So next time you call me heartless
Think again

Way up high he sits
Looking all around
Searching for a way to make all that's lost be found

Way up high she sits
Looking down upon the ground
Pairing the shattered with the mended or whole

Way up high they sit
Looking up into the sky
Wishing to be higher
Wishing to be found

She sits up high and looks at everything yet to come

He sits down low and looks up at his past

She sees him
And he sees her

He is her future
But she is his past

You make me feel a way my heart hasn't felt since the day it first decided to stray

You make me feel hopeful
Like nothing could go wrong
Like our love will last a very long time
And continue to stay strong

You make me feel worth it
Instead of worthless

You make me feel happy
Not ******

You make me laugh fully and trully
Instead of it only being half true

You make me smile
Which no one has truly been able to do in awhile

You make me feel real
Instead of fake
And most of all
You made my heart feel love
And you made me want to put you above anyone else
And you made me want to stay yours
And keep you mine forever
And never let you go
Cause I love you uncontrollably and so truly
I can't nor couldn't deny it

Even if I tried to with all my might
And you have given my empty dark heart light once again
And I never want to let that go

So I shall forever say
And prove to you
That I love you
And I will pray you will always love me too
As much as I love you

One day you will find love

You might find it in the smile of a friendly passerby

You might find it in the lonely stare of cold eyes

You might find it where you thought no one went but you

You might find it in your best friend

You might find it in the middle of the school hall

You may find it where you never expected it to be at all
Or you might find it where you always knew it would be

No matter what you will find it eventually

But be careful
Because if you don't you may lose it forever
Never to feel it again

The feel of his kiss
The taste of his lips against mine was amazing

I want his lips on mine again
I want to be held in his arms again
I want to be his
I want to be with him all the time
Have him be called mine

Because when I'm with him I feel safe
And I like that we are going at a steady pace
Instead of acting like we are in a race against the world