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To whom it may concern
When reading me. Choose to read the preface first. I come with a story. Though not at all rational. I seem
To leap off the page. At certain people and to others fall utterly and tragically short of worth. To some I am a joke. To others a marvel. To few I am completely genuine and forthcoming.
And to most a maze of elaborate discontinue.
I mostly worry about the readers that may interpret my story as grotesque or disfigured. Trying to reshape the way others may see it so hurriedly and desperately that sometimes I forget it was grotesque at times. In my experience one can only truly know him self by severing the bonds between him and society. Only than will he truly know himself. But it comes with a **** load of mental and emotional pain. Tears and heartbreak.
But to live with no secrets is the greatest gift God had ever given me.
And for that I will gladly face rejection from society over and over again.
I want you to imagine for a moment every body knew of every thought feeling and action you have ever experienced. Now imagine everybody embracing you for who you are. No matter the bad *****. You would feel truly blessed. *** we all hide away certain aspects of our self and eventually it becomes so routine that we lose our Devine identity. So no longer are you genuine your a juggler.
I've been this way for far too long. It's time to be real. No matter the consequence. If you embrace me for me. Than I love you right back. If you deem me unworthy than I disagree but I respect your opinion. Truth is if I keep up like this I'm going to die. So let's get real.
Just up at 4 am writing some **** about my life and how I need to change
Her poems are watered down lemonade.
But her maturity is gravity
Her tAlent for obsession
Is relentless in her savagery
But she doesn't come with bAtteries.
Shes actually. The best thing
Ever happening
And it's no exaggeration
I could cry to see her face
When I'm alone.
Its ******* maddening
She can actually flirt naturally
And theres no
Doubt shesliving happily
So **** the man that has to keep
His **** to feed his family...
Be the husband to a wife
Who likes to keep him. Without sanity
I needmy body to match
My Insides. Or lose my life
By my own hands. And never know
Of happpiness. Truth. Desire
And passion in a tradgedy
Forever we are
Limitless in the glory...
The beginning
Of his...
Unfinishing story....
We may hide from his truth
He has given before thee.....

My naji.
I see you in forever. Like waves upon sand.
The most and more we...
We offer our hand....
The more we find which
We dont understand....
And glory to God
Which bares forever the heavens.
Your plan is our blessing....
When man becomes man.
And we see forever in heaven
Mana from heavens
The joy of a lifetime.
Weapons of war broken.
Like shards of
Death in its life line.....
I ask of you god.
Forsake me never to fall from
His might i...
Could never sustain a loss like that in
Consecutive lifelines....
god
god
Am I supposed to be positive.
I was the opposite?
Calibrate my consciousness
To reflect the God. In all of us.
I watch.
Sleeping slumber. Under
Watch from God. And he wants
Me to stay positive.
So solve it.
*** I'm sick of walking.
In a constant. Sleep.
Non stop. Cranial labotomist.
I want all of it.
But God predicts.
I must always follow it.
I thought all this ****
And exhibited intolerance.
But what if it existed
*** we wanted it.
Hope I get my promises
god
god
**** the voices.
**** my decisions
Choices to be a fake ****
Trying to be a female
I was him
Remember use to date one...
Can't run from fate
Just *** your perpetually afraid son
Look into your female DNA
Get real face it and embrace love...
You never run from
Great love.
Just *** all you know is
Fake love.
Like hanging with a genius
And I front of everybody
Play dumb...
You made some
Incremental advances
Fate is a game done
Best when strategy ain't lame son
Investing in your chances
Take a risk
And change what hangs
Between your legs mon
Tactical mi God is
Render you unconscious
Polish television nobs
To channel light through
Disco vinyl clothes yeah
. Light shed
Information with no real substantial knowledge...
You consume the information
Entertaining ill acknowledge...
But gods in need of dire reconciensed
Bodies to bring the world a currency of God son... in command of earths inheritance.. the sailor gardener and goth kid... as my call remains my angel michael rests with God bless....
Her evil a complexity..
..
Formed from instincts
Savery and shrinking
Need to beat necessity....

Reliving things
Like demons.
Retelling ingredients
From a recipe.

Her wielding days are over
Holster up that dagger
Of *** ...sweat and ***** getting
Destiny....

Karmas just a *****.
You havent met yet in your wettest dreams... while stealing
Promises and dealing minors minor high time kind of felonies....
Like crystal **** and ketamine.
Karmas going to ***.
Like teenage you. In bed sheets
As you relive your pubescent destiny. Your ******* wettest dream
Your trial becomes your childhood dream....
While kindness shines inside your eyes illuminating. Lies you once tried embellishing....

the devils not the evil one.
But I got pictures in my cellar still developing.
Eminem maybe way better than me...
Still firm on the jdea
My ******* are like the pictures in the cellar.
Not worth developing....
Retelling. A story born of a hellish beginning. Middle are no less intense
Than  ending credit scene...
Reads tenderly.
RIP.
Bruce Jenner's swaure into the gender scene.....
Representing Compton.
Not like easy e. Dr dre ice cube or mc ren it seems...
I'm more like venus and serena William's. Lezzing out on the Womens tennis team...
God complex. With messages.
From death herself
Depicting images of me sexually...
If its a wedding eventually.....
Required. Add frodo baggins
In attendance. Cant forget to bring the wedding ring
While Sam's eyes are always searching. Touching me..
Uncomfortably ******* me...


Hype productions.
In association
With the dumb *****.
That brought you something free.
From the sharp point extruding
From a honey bee....
Oh god we never had this talk.
My parents. Viewed communication
Like a luxury....
So puberty was understood funnily as something getting passed
Like a baton to all the other ******* on the running team...
**** I hope its painless.
*******. Flowers!!! thank you mister honey bee.....
End it off with something green
From your well
Invested money tree.....

Oh god I hatd interpreting these I feel like a monster....
As they judge
Miss Ashley judd...
Do eth onto some
Judith doesn't use
Judas love or Jewish tongue
I knew thy son...
Hebrew beauty in a blue eyed
Tomb concluding
He truly proved my son
Was sacrifice...until
The dawn of kay what
Kayla gambles
Using gabertils gun
Like Underhill was hobbit
Talk for a hill
To climb and earth to love
So John's fore vision
Of long term mercy love
Has mountains
Seas and values ******
So valentine
Sees omuercas slumber sprung
As supposed God jehovah
Watches numbers come
From under suns
You can't discover ***...
Your under an umbrella
Of cloud cover...
Gabriella with Jenny
Mother love
Jade the ice
Justice of the mother tongue...
That runs a river
Sliver in a country run
Discovery
Of able bodied
Plumbers ***
The fox of Terry
Tears of Tierney
Swift fox that runs...
Like faucet *** the water
Flow like my goddess tongue
The water ****
As children of
Detox from
Poison discovery of oxen blood...
The oxygen in surface..
Embryo of toxic tongue...
Call Michael he's still the hottest
Blood being... with a ****
Oh God he's hung
But I'm glad he's found
His love...
She's lucky... so I'm positive
Hes got his son
Should he watch with love her body
Curves.. and talk her love
I bless his koffin
With all the love in
Gods keep he has awesome come
And 3 6 9 like stone cold Austin
Drunk....
Thats Steve..  repeat... dont sleep
On product of the watchful dumb
Rise above.
Rise above your fears.
Face everything.
Dont cut and run.
They have the habit of chasing you
Battle your demons
Be comfortable with loneliness
Dont be mad or bitter
The world owes you nothing
You owe the world a great debt
And it is your duty to carry
The seed of fertility.
To birth knowledge.
Planting it in even the darkest corners
Where sunlight rarely blesses.
Carry on your best intentions.
And see the work you've started to completion.
Push yourself to break.
Than heal and break again.
But dont forget compassion
Where flaws exist. Insecurities flourish
Where insecurities live.
Fear consumes
Where fear exists there can be no love
So make sure to bandage your flaws with love.
Water your seeds with optimism
In Hope's they will bloom.
Even in the darkest corners.
God does not remember your sins
But rather your bravery
In repentance.
You are his child.
Believe in yourself and others will soon follow.
For an idea becomes a motive a motive becomes a plan.

A plan becomes a deed.
But first the idea must be sparked than the flames fanned and watched carefully to avoid a wildfire of mishaps.
As good intentions sometimes become.
If left unchecked.
Consider the feelings of others
But care not what they think of you.
It's easy to get consumed in head games.
So remember nobodies perfect
And magnifying your flaws does not make them invisible.
As ****** up as my persona got.
I never lost my inner meaning
Being of a stolen freedom
Seeing demons.
In the depth of dark sky.
Breathing in a narc high.
Like why is thoughts with baby momma.
Equal upto dark eyes.
My family substance over wreckage.
I seen  in them as smart guys.
Sparse time.
To start rhymes about my hard time.
Sadness sometimes over runs me.
I find tradgedy in truth.
My past is scattered ashes.
Do you have a clue
What does that matter dude.

I rose when in defeat.
I smoke and go to sleep..
My beauty hides.
So deep inside. I know the oceans deep..
Enormous like a storm above.
That torments the sea.

My parents loved me always.
No not a perfect home.
We had dysfunction chaos.
Drugs pain. Yes some of those.
I started smoking dope.
To cope at twelve years old.
My body was an alien.
Maybe that's what
Made me crazy made me gag and choke.

I have two little kids.
Yes I'm the proudest father.
But I came out as transgender.
Last December.
And had to tell my daughter.
Her dads becoming mommy.
I've went through nothing harder

I've been in psych asylum
So many times who's counting.
Upto 15. Times and I'm
Olanzapine. and ******.
When in a minor tantrum.
Self harm
Slit my arms so wide.
beyond this
size of bandage.
And time does damage.
My last relationship was based on *******.
Bi ****** havoc.
Guy guy girl sandwich.

At nine
Kissing tongue in throat
Playing truth or dare
*** if you didn't
All the cool girls
knew you were scared.

So many times I cried.
And wondered who was there.
An emotion to exclusive.
To be given up to you and shared.
So I kept pretending to like girls
Yeah its fine if it's in truth or dare.
All the while
Tightening around my throat.
And truly scared
Like a noose was there.

Moved away at 17.
Spent some time in Manitoba.
Got beat down so ******* hard
One night.
Thought I would end up in a coma.
Now im 30 years old.
And mostly hoping for a moment.
I can. Be open. To exposure.
Captivate your heart.
And calm the stormy ocean
That torments your emotions.
I'm always trying to write my best poem.
Best vocab
Best rhymes
Most heart.
**** it.
**** it

I want that **** like venom needs
A parasite
A healthy host to feed
My needs. Like trophies in storage
Since you ghosted me.
Dusty and more expensive
Then just a storage fee.

I'm enormously
Neurotic.
Talk sick
In case you haven't been watching me
I'm that mental projection
Distortion
Border nostradaumus prophecy
I cause clocks.
To turn back years.
In talks of. Sharing bonds.
And stocks in an economy run properly.
And cooperation
Of all social scopes
But the racists need labotomies.
Cooperation isn't just for some.
Its how me March
Into our prospering.
And foster healthy dialog.
Between the darkness
We've been harboring
And enlarging
Love to overwhelm
The hearts to rid us of
Everything disheartening
Creative equation with space for attraction.
Like satisfaction ain't coming
And I paint it to blackness
Its a way of maintaining
A comfort with sadness
Like kids graduating
Amid the quarantine madness
Ain't even wearing a grad dress
Or a ******. No detox
Just a beat box and a mattress.
Fill my cup of coffee
And be thankful
That I actually have this
Miniscule little wishes...
That fit within this cage of silence...
I love his little fingertips..
the mind i find as safe and priceless...
With hard as sin. To forgive
But hes the greatest triumph...
With satans violence..
At bay and making shaking blindness
He stakes love as the greatest
Kindness...
The praise of making. Ways of binding...
The legs of justice
The face of lions...
Hunger for a saviour timeless.
Like grapes of whine..
The date behind us....
With waits of fate the makings of a major shining
Living in the glory God...
I feel amiss.. its mercy stationed...
Its hurts my nature..
But curves my greatness...
Feeling worthless. .
And less than sacred...
Because im second place? Yeah What is this?
Set it straight. And beg forgiveness...
I'm less than great..
But my decision..
Is to make or break... my final wishes...
Delusional. Rumors
Stalking the night moon.
Like who's in the white dress.
Black heart. And a white groom.
Mind like a mild flue.
Sick but not gonna die soon.
I'm fed up like a fat kid.
That just ate out of the drive through.
Sick of this ****.
Can't get well no matter how much I try to.
**** the rumours.
**** the night moon.
**** the tux.
This ***** say goodbye groom
Grotesque awareness of a deeper sadness.
Emotions wrapped in freezer plastic.
Burned so deep my deep tissue
Meat. Is completely eaten.
By a disease.
They call the demons madness...

I pray I sleep. I dont lose Jesus.
And he saves me from.
My weakness in my deep disastisfaction

I run in circles.
Taking shape electing nerves to volunteer for damage

In freestyle pattern
Blood and broken bones.
Injury with freezing feet detachment

Rcmp detachment
Though I'm freaky bad *****
Jesus sees i matter.
completely reaching into my
Entire being.
Till I've excreted all the demons.
My entire  ***** matter...

This flow is patented.
Like easy flow toilets.
Or a period pamper
I'm the ****.
Don't ****** say it
You can smell it when I wipe your *** and appear. To wreak of laughter

Your direction like a detective
With a single bias.
Waving all your way. God might just save me
Crazy ***** you think its modern science...
My diet is chicken breast
Bacon grits.
Vision longterm science
My *******
Have enlarged six sizes

Naturally occurring hormones.
From this problem reliance
Monster kindness
You think genius comes in
Shades of grey.
For gay dudes. Straight chjcks and
The common minded
Try being more accepting
You ******* ****.
Racist *****.
Trump you obnoxious tyrant.
You started selling bleach ingestion
As disease prevention
And the public wants it.
Hope you like your women squeeling.
You ******* pig.
*** we won't march in silence
Blacks. Immigrants. Lgbtq. And the common minded.
Rising up like Phoenix from a firey grave.
Display. More common findings.
Than a tie die shirt. Goes with a hippy.
And coffee. Goes with last nights ******* ***** diet
Sweeten the ***. Smooth as cream.
A dream the next guy offers.
And we all stop and buy it
Politicians will  never come through as
Honest.
Lets just not pretend.
So we all know we've exited the closet.
Seemingly spoken tides...
Reach the lunar eyes
Of moon and sigh...
The blooming plume of mother
To brother... grew inside...
And true devine...
From tomb to rise...
Disease will soon subside...
Or loom a while...
Than shrew and die...
While ruined people collect
Paystubs from bezos...
Its a movement time..
For beauty intervene...
And jovey explains the gay side
Truly from a straight dudes minds...
Brandy and her man candy
Will have it... soon.. and the dog...
Will
ruin mine... soon behind
Is Richard... loose his mind...
But somehow I feel
I'll be two behind...
Pursuing some fresh face
I never knew this time....
To love me... beautifully
Indisputably.. truly
In the gruesome blindness
Of my chewing grind
That I fuel the fire...
And swallow
Impunity as a true devine...
Hailey is my Angel's keeper.
Take me break me
Face my sacred healer...
I need her.
My creator...
She tastes like sweetest flavour..
Scars so deep.
Without her keeper of my angel is danger...
Shes a poem so wild that feeds an ocean so deep. The streams and rivers hate her....
So beautiful.
A mother sky. Could free. Her tears with laughter.
Shes a damaged lullaby.
Springing into my lonely heart..
She sees fabric.
She mends tarnished cloth
Of my stitching as it falls apart....
I **** at poetry but I love you hailey so much
My life is filled with happiness
Where once lived
Bitter sadness.
Think that hip hop shouldn't
Always be about
Who's biggest and the baddest
.....
Its reflection of your passion
The song that lives on
After your body passes
Yeah death maybe tragic
But it's just a thing that happens



And its
So hard to imagine
Like my dad collapsing
Into spasms
Before
They packed him in the
ambulance in transit
To the ******* royal Alex

But like I said
This **** just happens
It's a perfect storm that passes
After the sky has fade from blackness
And the waves no longer crashing
You can Finally Understand
That sometimes this **** just ******* happens
Hold your ground
She stalks the towers.
Neath the banner of your freedom.
She's a demon. You feel the talons
Pull you down into the bowels
Of her being.... she speaks in madness.
Magic and ***. Her ancestors ancient  beings of summer seasons. clearly they dislike the company she frequents... when she's in the hands of men who feed greed and take  no mercy in their dealings

Be warned she's not the least bit
Harmless or defenceless.
When you see her
She's a mortal soul extractor.
Razor teeth. And gorgeous features..
That sink her teeth
Deep in your tissue.
Till your so relaxed you hardly feel her. But the real her....
Is deviant. A fiend.
A winged serpent. Known by Those who keep her. .......As a beast of God's good medicine they
Swear. She's an ancient form of healer.

I miss her if I'm honest
She treats me bad.
And that hurts my feelers.
Just know when my kids learn about her.
Shell meet them under the safety and guidance of their teachers
Writing about ****. Kinda ******. I know alot of people on this site dislike me. I'm not a true artist or I'm a psuedo intellect. But I got a lot of good **** going fof me. God love ya I ain't mad
I was surrounded. By homophobic peers.
A nostalgic fear. That's wierd.
Is I'm trans. But im
Taken for a ******  or a queer...
Romantic thoughts of my buddy.
And **** near.
Thinking have my *** after this beer.
Masking damaging emotions.
And mis packaging them as wierd..
Causing. Diligence. For sabotage.
And nothing is as it appears.
I made stories. In fantasy
That tragically randomly appeared
While masking
Kindness. Becoming blinded.
To manage trans queer
Fears to answering my peers.
I lost sight of vital
Answers.
Reverted back to tears.
I craved submission
But my position as a man
Was damagingly clear.
**** Yoda dont read instructions
I can handle it from here.
**** my raps I'll say it twice.
I'm a man and skins elastic
The body is actually not half as bad
As it appears...
Heart break.
Massive slits to breathe
After we brake off this date n.
I need *******
Patience. Everlasting love
And conceptual culmination.
Into unfathomable creation.

I need time and space from your ******* face.
And every day that goes by
Notice. **** it I
I've become. A soldier. Of lifes battle cry.
You ******* trapped me so ******* bad. That i
became a picto graph  a flash away from being held for ransom.
In your scrap book. Kinda factory line
Instead I'm seeing jealous glances.
From you and my bestfriend up on your camera slides.
So **** if I.
Evoke a bitter feeling.
Can't stand it right
Sorry for the lack of healing.
But see the me beneath.
The demons.
And the reasons
We both cheated.
Is were both fractured living  damaged lives
Need to
Find a sea of urgent trust.
And retrieve. What trust we must ensure. So maybe we can survive
A choral reef of deep sea meaning
Unexplored. Unless your letting random guys come and land inside...
Oh fuvk I'm getting jealous.
I know its cancerous.
And you deserve to get so mad when I....
******* dance with devils rhymes
**** the chance of metal lids
Now existing in these images
I did drugs.
We both did some ****
We made some kids.....
We got it on. Now were stuck as dad and mom. In the abyss...
With out a clue a ****** hope in hell. And not a ******* *** to ****...
So excuse me
If my mood is rotten.
Think I've gotten more maladaptive.
Habits. In the 5 years we've been rocking this.
Than in some 20 ******* years.
Of smoking ***.
Popping pills. And kamikaze.
Flipping quads. Until
I'm ******* knocked unconscious *****
Cherry pie. Sweet sweet sweet. Cherry pie. And jealousy. Don't forget jealousy
Heart by hand.
Hold me in the touch of night.
Slowly. Roll.
And know I'm hidden.
In the wilderness of your rigid might.


The curves you follow.
Fingers thin and hungry.
My body aches.
Your touch is rain.
And *** is something
But my time is my money.
You gotta tame
This fiery frame.
And make me change
My wicked ways... though honey
Deep inside
I'm feeling faint and funny
My moon is dim.
But your my saviour when
Your natures sunny...

A great awakening
To take me
On a path
That's truly blessed
You make me
Fake a smile
I confess
But its the best I got
When I'm depressed.
And in my head
I'm dead to night
My moon is dim
And birds can rest
Just take me in embrace
And I'll dive deeper
In your depths
If i felt so good. I guess
By manifesting awfulness
Than mannequins and fashion
Should never be closeted.
Dramatic looks and and fabulous
add up to i look confident
While seeing through a hole
Is your view of my awesomeness
But the key is through
gods promises...

And hazardous the information
Bikini bottom like im SpongeBob
I heard you got a *******
For my little boots and fun thong.
Where you wonder whats your tongue on....
The hottest flavor from up north
Thought you knew it slim
Like cmon....
I'm phat I guess like phat farm...
other  animals
Like what's wrong....
I go ape **** for a little jack ***
Until I chop my melting tongue off.
I got sugar in the game.
I'm sweet but nothin else will ******* come off....
I've been sticking with god
Because of the sickening odds.
Practically
Impossible. Solo means inventions.
Direction. And protection is gone.
Alone I am frail.
And sick as a dog.
So I trudge the path that was asked all along
And satisfaction brings
Family. Friends.
And the family dog
Lucifer's madness
I asked him begone.
It's my angel. And me. Becoming.strong as family bonds.
Birth of my baby
As the world catches strong
The love in bask
In the heart
Of the one sent from god
her story
is a magic book
like fairytales
giving enchanted looks
she grew up not expecting much
but what she had
was more than any man could tell her

she was a six gun shooter with a mouth
seeing stars when i go down
*** she always knocks me out
im in love with her
and it doesnt get any better
shes just got that intelligent kind of brain
and im dumb enough to let her

her story
might be hard to navigate
but it starts in lower class
and a cheque book running late


her parents werent the kindest
maybe one was kind of mean
but she grew up so *******
caring, its a thing you wont believe


now in her story
i wasnt quite prince charming
and the truth is
i took part in a few things quite alarming
it was two drinks
down before we left the bar
than i winked at some girl at her car
and she slapped me so **** hard
Little hades is a heart break
dark hellscape
But all the men who enter ******* smell great.
Returning from a paradox...
With flames and michaels ******* she'll crates
But here's the cells fate...
Of replicating. The devastation
From my pelvis break...
Like well great..
Leon and le hi. Since he was
Swell pales. Knee high.
Water break and naji.
Exits with his cell mate...
Surprise we all arrive from hells gates
Like devils waits in danger...
The dead return..
The men still smell faint...
Creative genius.
Left the room.
No soon.
Too soon.
We thought the habit
Leached and drew.
A poisoned wound.
But none knew.
Just what the **** youd come to do.
You changed the world.
Accept it.
Your made for excellence.
Not second best and.
If your fed up.
Make your mind become.
A messenger of truth.
In place of critics. Fakes.
And jesters...
Blessed is the hunter.
Keep my brother safe. If he loves her.
Give them comfort.
Help. The studder in my veins.
Impart the arch Angel's gabriel. To lift me up n give their  wonders
Come from rumblings.
Of hunger.
In the den of Odin's offspring.
Give me. Glares of wildfire
Come from lightning
In the summer.
But make it known.
My throws of toxic body odours.
Are the keeper of the dungeons
Wonders.
My body. Reeks of *** and slumber.
Peek obsession.
Bleed the demons. That live under
Covers. While my stomach suffers.
**** it. I'm the last to know it...
It's a mass emotion.
I display the world. My joy devotion.
In Hope's I'll make it out
In fact. And grow a set of ****
You witless *****.
Your still the **** we know it
Definition of chaotic order.
A slave to *******
Made to order.
Comes by way of border...
I dont like this pain I snort up...
Sort of rage.
The famous sort of
Plague that takes frodos bags to mordor...
No more...
Looking like a bummy ******
More like something from me...
I got down on one knee...
And made that ring. My waking money hungry ******* nothing...

Laxatives. With irredescant tubs of honey....
I think that means my **** glows
Thats the buzz or something...
But lovely type of roses...
Smell like heaven
As it discloses something...
As long as I'm not hungry
I'm clothed and I don't
Have to take them off for money
I'll be happy as a pig in ****...
Cheers to the mess you know and still ******* love me....
We live the saddest lives
Beneath these satellites
Dont infect her. I'm protector
Your the baddest guy

And I got no plans but I
Cant **** to satisfy
****** her. No surrender
I won't feel bad if I

**** to feel gratified
It's really sad but I
Protect her. U infect her
And I won't mind the satellites
You'll just have to die
So scream out one last time


Chorus
There is a massive hole
In my gravity
My bodies feeling chrome
My thoughts are maddening

So swing for the fences
Cut jump and let's begin
They think its tragedy
I know it's sin for sin
Heavy rock song. Dark but awesome
hers
is a tale of romeo
and jules green
an affair defying time and space
and in the in between,,,
she asked for my name


the honesty we call
this center place
is talking chairs
queens and magistrates
where walking walls
and dinner plates
seem like music
yeah they seem like music

when her eyes seen forth
her mind turned rogue
she forgot her home
and left it in the wind

hers story is the in between
where chairs
and queens scream
set me free
oh
Keep track
Deep rap
Need that
I'm a meaningful
Indespensible
Weapon of a never ending spirit of a mental condition
In a dream match
With sickness dripped in lyrics
Stripped of greed to
RIP your ******* a new entrance
And an exit
I know you ******* need that
While the big guy
Puts a beginning and an end
To all existence
Like a never ending sentence that delivers.
Every breath
In a never ending connection
It's a network
Death first
In a red Hurst
While the best birth
Wouldbeconception
Of a genius
Work of science fiction
With a silent auction
Pop quizzes test first.
Like a coffin
Lined in lead fur
Hope my life becomes
A med nurse
I need medication.
Inspiration
God. And love because
The rest hurts
Hey
Hey
Delicious with the resin play
Resonates from sentient abstraction
Attachment to a wedding date.
Meditate. Celebrate. Get straight
Set the blast and detonate.
Appreciate the sentiment
Settle 8 with 7 lakes.
Wedding cake.
Credibility of sentry wait.
Attach weapon. Level plane
Like noodles over bacon
Staple diet othe mis informed
My **** are swarm enemies ofthe state
Warrants born
From ***** fellas I ignore. Or take home. In lieu of buying toys to make me moan.
I'm so tight its wierd.
Accepted everywhere like visa
Steering clear. Of tears of breakups.
Cuff my heart. And
Make me lose control
And close my nose.
And warm my toes
On that's supposed.
To know my husband takes me home
And hides my ugly ****** up ****
In his hard erected robe...
I know. Explode. Control.
Let go. And know.
I'm home. To curl my toes.
That froze. In minus 30 without
Shoes to stay in soul.
So slow no show time.
Mostly empty words.
Encourage me to go
Beyond the realm of teenage female
Needing resale prices
On her **** sluttyclothes
Isuck **** at poetry.
Knowing me.
I better close with glory.
Or I'll be broken
And a clone
Memory erased.
The taste of satan.
Linger to my dome
Ripping lines in celebration.
Hey babe its just dntertainment.
Touch the high your craving
And fuvk that guys who's famous...
While blazing furnace flames.
In a ****** range.
Like turn the bang up
Chop it....
I'm determined like a slave.
Freedom from
This human being conscious....
Only thing thats breathing
Is this freedom cotton...
I'm a demon to some people.
Please tell those people stop it....
I've been peeped as pie in
Math as almonds is to chocolate...
Best chopped up...minus
The brain chemicals
*** they always feel awesome....
one secret is all I keep
In this secret closet......
I'll reveal all of it...
Like Steven wallace...
In a graffiti tag with the police
Chase. *** the grievance
Costed...
We need this reaching God speed.
Dream to beat all it
Reach for all
A place of genius conscience
But we can't be in between
Conflicts.
Toxic feelings.
And just being awesome...
*** were to. Deep in apocalypse
To reach for god man....
God don't want a few
He ******* wants us all man....
A Devine listening.
Of trippy artifacts and papers...
An artform
Transferred into books on tape....
pragmatic
Saviours..
A feeling made to make a gangster. Feel his greater nature...
Glowing hearts.
ramblings of a sinner..
That shape
The grayness that's still left in winter...
A bitter tongue.
The mic
Like satan's innards... entrails dinner....
A failing game that plays the master.
Against new beginners.
Without a foolish filter.
I make snapchat
Means suit aces
And a duece for kicker...
Lil bit of sickness in the red sky.)))))
I thinks it's best I.))))))
Let the lies ride.
And fall back on photographs.
I've collected in my )))))9 lives.))))
*******--- asinine 999intentions.999
Its--- declassified but 666sensitive.666
My mind is fighting for the right time))))
To get this message into
Any bodies right mind.))))
*** and overdose on white whine.))))
With ******* ingestion.

A suggestion**. In your search.
Before you ever ******* fly high ...))))

I'm not in my right mind.))))
**** the lime light.)))))
Maybe I'll be angelic in the future tense.
But for now I'm down to night ride.))))
It's a cause for blood.
And in the mix.^^^^
I hit the  final flat line.))))
And fifty bricks^^^. My eyes.
Are going white. Ohshit.^^^
I think think its finally the right time.))))
To get rid of my addiction.^^^^
Hit the bricks you ******* high life.)))
I don't need a sickness.
Living in my minds eye....)))
Right mind
He holds a pen in one hand
His heart in another
The vessel of precious blood still beating
Dripping sweetly, carelessly on the weathered and worn parchment of his life
The stain a hypnotizing hue,
Slowly as surely the man puts forth his pen
And from the dribble of ink a word is formed
The word ,,, a ghastly form
The sorts of laughter in a funeral
The mighty mask of conscious preparation
Escapes him, no wit to be found,
And the world is his audience
Afraid and unaware
He strikes the word from meaning
No clever story to resolve the conflict
No victory toast no victor song,
The man once was held his heart
In hand
And all he wrote was FEAR
Drunk and trying my hand at intoxicated poetry, hope you enjoy,
Crazy as a crazy gets
I'm on my david Suzuki tip
Major stupid ****.
Framed by a smooth built script.
Like jews knew hits
Where written in jehovas fists
Know me *****.

Swear I'm naked in figure.
If its dough they want.
I got a bake in mixture.
Fragrant spritzer.
Of a champagne sail away.
Neath skies of give aways.
Trip vacations. Swag bag winners.
project  housing remaking
Villages. With billions made with in
A money system. To feed hungry children.
lobbying dummy politicians.
To drop guns and hit man.
Like gods got nuns and Christians.
We don't slum but the slums
Got big plans
Once this business sharing website
Hits man
Its like witness to a switch stance
Watch it *** either way I'm going to hit man...
here amongst the muffled chatter
lost thought, and people
scattered
is a living breathing, neural network
connection in eternal matters,
and all is calm for now,
at least,
my firey tongue and mind at peace
for what to come of whispers
shout,
and living in reasonable doubt
of what is real, taste, sound and feel,
like pathways carved
of which will always heal,
and dreams again like connective bones
strangers words as im arriving home
a silhouette in a cloud of smoke
the lingering pictures
of images and motion
broken into
clouds of potent smoke, I choke,

breaking through a circuit tissue
a surgery complex not guaranteed
to fix you,
cerebral surges, and urges coming,
to in turn reword my name
as the taste is funny
its on my tongue
in perfect tone,
but left alone
I know this time im home
Motionless resistance
Devoted. Bro.the  Flows now
Like knowing your ****.
Growing up with Christian's.
***** in.
The sin of knowing
more than being different.
Hoping someone listens
But god only exists in fiction.
Fairytales and during Christmas.


Living in the borderline
Blow
My nose
My throat is closing
When I snort a line....
Its *******  horror time...
Satisfaction contain
Thirst to be quenched
Drenched in rain
My pain hence
No common thread
But thinking
Get my head set
Pulse check yep
No pain
No aches
No brakes
No not dead yet
But I haven't settled this debt yet
Might be kept in attic space
Fanatic chase
Of gravity
In the system storm
Of death yes
Get my meds checked
Heck yes
Its drastic plastic
Alteration
Will I get *******
Or a wrecked neck
*** hips lips
And ****
Are most def
On my check list
Heck yes
Testify
Whether I
Protest or reserve regrets
Your birth is perfect
I'm the best blessed
Hope I'm not
Just in my head mess
Reality
Gravity
Saturate my past tense
Give me up
My name is rain
My soul is not of death
Not interested in first breaths
But God bless
A babies cry is the best yes
Hope I'm not delusional
Or bound to lose you
Over foolish pride
Ruined lives
Or a moral compass death wish
If it's in my head than
An illusion
I won't forget than
I will hang my head high
And live no regrets man
But if your real
Im beyond blessed
Love you to death
No questions left
Bless your every breath
My life my gift my treasure.
The word to earth
From eternal heavens
To maternal me in presence
Testimony of a man. That molds unnoticed poems
Shapes created out of focus.
Over flowing like the Jordan.
Most my motion is off point
But well rounded. Like my shape
In round three of coma.
My persona flown from
Unknown
Shown I've known
So gone
My face and heavy bones.
That mend like.
Fishing nets. As the river flows.
I shiver cold.
My liver folds.
My drip from little Saleen
Like a minute bowl
Of rice
That keeps my
Appetite minimal
As my little bones
Feel a different home
Of skin.
And thin veil
Hope that glistens like
Sun shimmers
In a river boat.
As minutes float.
I little know.
My glitter hopes.
Are little votes
For confidence
Change.  No pain.
A little though.
But better go.
Into the setting sun
Like let it go.
The force of life.
Has you with him now
Started off aweful
But thanks to re adjustment.
Got cups like a cabinet
No Kleenex stuffing
Thank you very much miss  hilary duff man
Keep it up and...
You'll get schooled up in the dumb class....

Dominican republic. Where the tan lines border on disgusting
Highway traffic marker kind of stuffiness
Snorting  lines just keep on coming....

Hot and fresh. So get it. While I pull out oven ready muffins.
Top 5 **** scenes on the internet
Are all of women getting ****** while stuck inside of ovens
Something of a taboo subject
So let's not actually discuss it.
Cheeseburger Eddie's television stuntman.
And mcdonalds ba da ba pa loves it....
Made of luncheon meat lasagna and snack size muffins in my lunch kit...
Getting harassed for stashing ***.
Like a drug mule smuggles stuff up in his luggage....
Security like **** search and seizure
Wheres your gloves at...
Steve o. You on jack ***. But where you from and wheres that *** at...
I'll stop bragging about something that hasn't even happened yet.
Like cmon girl ******* **** that...
But ima tell you like cartman
Hes just a boy you shouldn't a done that....

Oh god I hope this isn't foreshadowing.


I'm not ready for remediation to the dumb class...
And line consumption should be subject. To legalization. In a subclass
Jail oh great. So I'm terry crews ******* ******* stuntman...
Who wants mcdonalds. When you got healthy choices from Janet at the public mental systems lunch van...
******* in conclusion.
Is where steve o. Keeps the *** at....
Product of a service tech
Have you met your service rep
They call him nervous Jeff
His hands are made to surf the web
But hes here to perv your neck
Instead.
Your surely dead.
And curtains. Close.
And nurse brings meds
Adrena chrome. And nervous
Mess
Approach. You. Smoke you.
Like a perm with dreads.
Your body burns
Wheres the furnace check
You squirm in bed.
A ****** debt.
Somebody keeps your words in head
Like there learning them
You encourage them
Like your perfect and
You feel the universe
Like fate transpired
This time you ******* earned your bed....
When you wake up.
Pray you learned from this.
And deserve every day
Your on this earth to live
My bad bro.
My message. A second in suspense
The head suspended
By one thread.
Kept undead.
Left unsaid
Spoken in a word that voices choices
In a war not endeavoured yet
Of light and breath.
Against. The stench of death
And letting go.
With wholesome gifts with in a heart.
In blessed protection of a lesser tension.
Heaven. Of an endless story.
Period end of sentence.
Let's begin with getting headless
As I'm meant to face my fears
Menace every second
*** I fear I'm not accepted.
But its false I'm like American express.
Accepted everywhere and just in case
They dont accept it I'm also cash and credit....
When I get to heaven. I'll determine my application as  either a lover or a weapon. *** I'm definitely not defenceless... pretend for a second
I'm pretending. And meant for less than.
I'll be satisfied with my intentions to bless every woman child and men with. My imagination. Emotions. Thought and intelligence.
Its good to try your best and develope mental stamina to dig deep when things get hellish quick.
Relish it.
I've developed this
And bask in it like I've been telling you
I'm meant for heaven in hope of never selling an imbellishment
Listen for a second.
Calm your tongue
It wags with anxious.
Your calloused hands
Hold something precious.
Your dignity.
Your virtue within
Your love that blesses us to eternity.
Your unrelenting cause
Of thy fathers glory
The burden less beast
I am
In which I carry all the love he has shown me.
In failure I find
The resilience. Of his love
Is boundless.
Never ceasing.
Never ending.
And forever you are ours to cherish.
Who has bros.
Like the monopoly creator
I dont.
Constantly. In scrutiny.
Probably wager.
My closets
convict tailored.....
My life is chalked in failure.
As long as I don't talk of
Haters.  Gave it up

I'm in an episode of the Brady bunch.
But he
Go ham between my buns.
Just ******* making lunch
It's crazy stuff.
Head on lettuce
Its wet yep
crispy tasty crunch
my illness is
Of the severe variety.
Limits against
What appears behind me.
Like a wierd design
That keeps re designing
Tears drying
On the sphere of where
What once was here
Now appears blinding
In the seering right
From  facing dreams
Of first light
After steering clear
Of ******* on the first night
Gotta get the thirst right
Thanks for fallout boy
For naming every symptom
In my curse right.
Not sure if I was manic.
Addicted. Or the worst mind.
Looking like  dirt right
But flying *****
Dont leave the perch behind
Until the ******* first flies
**** I'm the worst guy
Pull my **** from the dirt
In 6 months mother earth is
Giving birth guy
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