How can it be?
Just a few days ago,
I felt okay about this.
This whole thing:
Us,
The future,
And what it could hold.
Probably good things.
But just like all good things,
That have happened in my life,
They have been ****** away,
Into the vacuum of despair.
Now I'm terrified,
And I can't tell if this will last.
I don't know if I want it to.

I feel like I'm stuck.
I'm crying,
Crying for help.
But no one can hear me.
They're deaf,
I'm mute.
No matter how hard I try to relay to them,
That I keep sinking down farther and farther,
Using my hands and my ****** expressions,
I seem to have forgotten
That they are also blind.

Five months
One-hundred-fifty-three days
Three-thousand-six-hundred-seventy-two hours
Two-hundred- okay, you get the idea
It's been a long time
To me, at least
I mean, houseflies only live to be like a month old
Forget about houseflies
I want to write about you
And how amazing you are
How someone can be so amazing to me,
You make me feel like I'm at the top of the world,
Despite my fear of heights,
I am calm
Whenever I am with you
How is this possible?
That is a question that I have been pondering for,
Well,
Five months.
I don't know how to explain it
Looking into your eyes makes me feel secure,
Hearing your voice puts me at ease.
I don't know what it is
I don't believe in soul mates
I don't believe in forever
That's what I used to think
My entire outlook on life has changed
Positive things stand out greater than the negatives
Small gestures now mean so much to me
I'm more grateful and appreciative for what I have
Life has improved so much
All because of you
There are a lot of things that I would not be able to enjoy
Had I not met you
Going on adventures at the beach and at parks,
Laughing together at seemingly stupid jokes and puns,
Making and eating good food,
Even mundane things like windowshopping
Have been turned into fun days that I look forward to,
And look back on fondly
Because you were there with me
I can look back on these past five months and think one word:
"Yes"
I love you so much
And I want the whole world to know it
Happy five months,
Even though I'm kind of a day late
(That's because I was with you yesterday)

No one’s made me feel this way
Not once before
I don’t even know what to say,
I don’t know what’s in store

But I’m sure it will be good,
Things always are
It’ll be like it should,
For you are my star.

My star, my shining light,
I think I’m in love with you.
You burn so very bright
And make my feelings true

You’re different from everyone
I know this for a fact
If you decide that you’re done,
My feelings will still be intact

They’ll never go away, my love
I’ll sing songs and write to prove it
You’re so gentle, like a dove
Eyes bright like a candle that’s just been lit

It’s you, my dear
Nothing else matters to me.
Everything has become so clear,
I’m finally able to see

It’s refreshing to be in your presence
There’s nothing else I’d rather do
Even when I feel tense,
I know I can count on you.

Love was always a foreign concept to me,
But you make it seem so natural.
It's relieving to feel this way,
But it's also really scary.
I want to love you for as long as possible.
I want to make you happy.
I want to give you everything you want.
I want to be everything you need.
But...
I don't want to disappoint you.
I don't want you to be upset.
I don't want you to think badly of yourself.
I don't want you to leave.
Everyone leaves.
It's almost guaranteed.
It'll hurt like hell
When you leave me

You had hurt me,
To the point where you were dead to me.
I went days, weeks, months, even,
Not thinking of you,
Until that god-awful day.
When I saw you again,
It was like seeing a ghost:
Fear filled me,
Then sorrow.
I wondered if you knew,
Just how much pain you’ve caused me.
I wondered if you were sorry about the whole thing:
The consant upsets,
The crying,
Ignoring me,
Repeating the same old routine.
You’re dead to me, still,
I just wish you’d stop haunting me.

I was calm,
And then,
You.
You showed up,
With your warm brown eyes,
And your dark brown hair,
Your constant smile.
I never see you frown,
I never want to see you sad.
You’re beautiful,
But, you don’t know me.
How creepy am I,
To write of your attractiveness?
It doesn’t matter,
You’d never notice me.
But, oh,
How red I get when I see your face.
And, oh,
How heavy my breath gets when you are near me.
I long for you every day,
I long to know you,
And to touch you,
And to love you.
And I hope you would, in turn, love me, too.
How do I end such a creepy poem?
I just wish,
One day,
You’ll notice me.