Here is 3 feet down in a hole 20 feet long 2 feet wide reflecting on my life looking this is my grave because my body is dead I suppose not alive anymore I lost the one true love overhead one day and another life maybe I have the opportunity to have her as my wife but my storm has already passed and Shy never come back again because three strikes I’m out even though not all of it was my fault it’s mutual where is the thought it was because I was told that they admitted there from them Their thoughts of how their part happened to cause pain and strife of life and the struggle that I have with my life and finding the one true love that I ever had lost and never going to have that’s my life in a grave

The STORM comes in fast. But doesn’t last.
My heartaches my soul shakes as time without my soulmate grows.
I toss and turn and always yearn for that smiling glow.
The tears come hard and so does the pain even standing in the rain can’t wash away all the pain.
INTP Loves INFJ forever untwined in the mathematical universe until the end of time.
That’s my STORM

I just feel like I’m dying inside without you here by my side my life in shambles from havoc that I wrought. No one to blame but myself  now living with the consequences of not having you the only one I ever truly loved knowing that I have caused you heartache and pain I’ll never be the same alone wondering in the darkness. Looking for that amazing life we shared in this universe as my soul gets pulled into the portals with nothing that I can do to stop it you’re my balance yin to my yang my elemental my soulmate

Come and whisper soft hello mother dear as you used to long ago mothers here it will  sooth my troubled breast it will allow me interest for all I love you best mother dear oh how long it seems tonight mother dear since I saw your face so bright hover near but I know I love you more while the years are passing more than I have ever before mother dear how are fancy or and or mother dear all the happy days of your with you near how are you murmured soft and low as you kissed my cheek a glow precious child I love you so mother dear so my grateful heart Shelby mother dear with a love Though incomplete ever hear and though far away tonight yet or spirits in their flight still my mingle with the light mother dear

Here I sit crying looking at my life to contemplate all the wrongs that I’ve done to the one that I loved for fear of losing her it’s too hard to bear my life has been turned upside down for fear of drowning my heart is broken  and it’s no one‘s fault but my own fear trusting. Fully loving my fault my body is drained my mind is insane tired of hiding tired of playing games just want her to share the same just want My partner in crime to be there till the end of time loveMe no matter what even if it means killing me in the end

Here I sit all alone I did **** I don’t condone I’m not worthy of this life all I really wanted is for her to be my wife I have failed to be the man that I am now I lost her forever for I’m not sure whether she would love me again jugs and alcohol are not my friend it’s time to just fast forward to the end my life is over now pregnancy for the tears that come out of me a blinding him like a river

My heart aches with every breath I take for a lost the one true love and soulmate in my life no I don’t think she wants to ever be my wife for the mess I’ve made is not grade a and an F on failure on my part I’m just crying my soul with every tear I hear all the pain I’ve caused one last chance to be who I really a.m. to 12 or on my heart aches with every breath I take for a lost the one true love and soulmate in my life no I don’t think she wants to ever be my wife for the mess I’ve made is not grade a and F on failure on my part I’m just cryingsoul with every tear I hear all the pain of close one last chance to be who I really am  is all I really want I love you KC  please forgive me in this insane and Unforgiving universe.