and i am
sitting
in my bed
listening
to this song
which
makes me
think
about you

i recognized how
you stared at me
while
i wasn't
looking at you

i also recognized
the smile on your lips
while
looking at me

and you have
no idea
how happy
you made me
because of
that gaze
and
that smile

caught between
being jealous
and
the wish of
seeing you happy

and out of
the nowhere
my stomach tingles
when i
think about you

in my head
i know what to say

but then
i sit next to you
or
look into your eyes

and the words
won't come out
of my mouth.

i'm speechless.

it's funny, isn't it?
how our heart always wants
something
it can't have.

that we do
stupid things
when we're in love.

how much you can
miss a person
who isn't even yours.

how we're scared about
losing someone
who isn't even ours.

it's funny, isn't it?

do you know that feeling?

the feeling where your throat aches
because it is tightening?

the feeling where your neck hurts
because you start to stiffen?

the feeling where you can't speak
because your throat's to dry and tight?

the feeling where your eyes burn
because you hold back your tears?


don't do that to youself.
don't hold back your emotions.

you're allowed to cry.
you're allowed to feel emotions.

because what makes us human
are feelings and weaknesses.
don't let society turn you into a robot.

feel everything.
the pain, the happiness, really everything.

and then do your thing.
no matter what "your thing" is.
do it.
stronger, than ever before.

i build myself
a dream world
just to be
with you

and i like this
version of us
so much more

that i sometimes
forget that it's
not real



that we're not
together

that you don't
love me

that it's just me and my
imagintaion

it feels like i know you
well,
even though
i don't

i feel like
your eyes
say more
than
thousand words

and they
tell more
than
you say

it wasn't love at first sight
it happened slowly

every time
i saw you
i fell
a bit more
for you