I'm gonna drown myself in sorrow
I'm gonna drown myself in fear
So I could feel something tomorrow
So I could free myself from air

In deepest corners of my lungs
The chemicals are always hiding
Intoxicated... but I'm so young
The fear is always oh so blinding

I smoke, I drink, I cry away
I hope one day I'll be ok
Is this reality not up to date
Is it too late to feel okay

In deepest corners of my lungs
The chemicals are always hiding
Intoxicated... but I'm so young
The fear is always oh so blinding

I'm doing so well right now
Not crying many tears
Just talking with people
That honestly care
Please don't let me change
I wanna go forward
To look at the sky
And see bright tomorrow
What beauty can't see
I don't wanna know
Cause I've felt the pain
For way too far along
I'm doing good now
At least so I hope
So bring me the future
Wherever I go
It's strange to write nicely
No pain in this song
I don't feel much different
But here is a thought
Someone must have calmed me
And told me it's fine
To cry many tears
Alone in the night
Someone must have showed me
That there is the truth
And people who care
Will stay there for you
If ***** just came back
And acts like it's nothing
That they didn't cause me
The pain in my stomach
Do not let them in
There's no need for toxic
Feel good about you
And feel free from hypnosis

I was always out of style
Always late to trends
I thought I was unique and smiled
Until I really lost myself
I understood what I did wrong
And why I always felt alone
Why people looked at me and smiled
But never really came to talk

Cause my style was ugly
And my style was weird
I never had something to offer
To myself or to my friends

Cause I was always out of fashion
And I was always late to trends
I never knew what went together
Or how to match the colors well

Don't lie to an overthinker
You don't know how it kills
To lay in bet at night
And think about those things
I thought you told the truth
But things just don't add up
And what am I to do
When this is so messed up
I lay here till the sunrise
I went to bed at nine
It's been like seven hours
And you're still on my mind
I overthink these things
I know that it's not good
But I am not the one who made
Those thoughts become my truth
So do not lie to an overthinker
You won't help them survive
Truth hurts and that's a fact
But lies will only lead to die