they warned me about you
and how toxic you are,
addictive, i didn’t care
you were mine i had you all to myself
but i spoke to soon as i realized
you were my drug and i soon
came to an overdose

what did i do
did I deserve this?
your care free
while I stay up
wondering where I messed up
i still love you.
your lips
so soft
yet so poisonous
you had a way with words
that’s where I messed up
believing those words.

blue sky’s, they matched your eyes
everything was so pleasant when you were around
your aroma matched with the sweet satisfaction of honey, your touch so light yet fragile and delicate, that blue sky turned to gloomy grey sky’s along with your eyes, so tired and yet dead inside

I love you
but no i hate you
cuz i am you, your confusing
but maybe we could add some more color?
i don't know maybe some more um yellow?
it seems that it'll be a cause of distraction
from all the blackness you've tried to cover up with
happiness but that happiness is fake all just a form of your
imagination but of course the world is mine right?
why can't i have the one thing i want the most?

anger?
what are these mixed emotions
trapped inside of me
anything sets me off like a ticking
bomb I can’t stand it I want to self
destruct, inflict harm on myself
sometimes to others, it’s driving
me crazy it’s a feeling that’s eating at my skin
as if it wants to escape but it just won’t

I am blossoming everyday
with all the fallen petals
i grow and grow
more and more
with excitement
I will hold the future

liar
you're liar
who was that
that wasn’t even you
the person i fell in love with seemed to disppear
now you’ve turned into someone who i don’t even know
maybe i feel in love with the idea i had of you in my head
maybe i was the liar.