liar
you're liar
who was that
that wasn’t even you
the person i fell in love with seemed to disppear
now you’ve turned into someone who i don’t even know
maybe i feel in love with the idea i had of you in my head
maybe i was the liar.

I love you
but no i hate you
cuz i am you, your confusing
but maybe we could add some more color?
i don't know maybe some more um yellow?
it seems that it'll be a cause of distraction
from all the blackness you've tried to cover up with
happiness but that happiness is fake all just a form of your
imagination but of course the world is mine right?
why can't i have the one thing i want the most?

they warned me about you
and how toxic you are,
addictive, i didn’t care
you were mine i had you all to myself
but i spoke to soon as i realized
you were my drug and i soon
came to an overdose

anger?
what are these mixed emotions
trapped inside of me
anything sets me off like a ticking
bomb I can’t stand it I want to self
destruct, inflict harm on myself
sometimes to others, it’s driving
me crazy it’s a feeling that’s eating at my skin
as if it wants to escape but it just won’t

what did i do
did I deserve this?
your care free
while I stay up
wondering where I messed up
i still love you.
your lips
so soft
yet so poisonous
you had a way with words
that’s where I messed up
believing those words.

I am blossoming everyday
with all the fallen petals
i grow and grow
more and more
with excitement
I will hold the future