Lucy: Poems

Jan 28 · 122

Lucy Jan 28

I lay awake, thinking of you during these long, lonely late nights.
I wonder if we'll ever truly meet, or if ill only see you in pictures.
I wonder if we'll get married and grow old toghter.
all i can think of, during these long, lonely late nights, is you.

Dedicated to my partner <3

#love

Jan 21 · 91

How I Disappear.

Lucy Jan 21

How I Disappear.

I have a bad feeling that I'll never be on here again.
My parents might figure out how im on here.
or not.
maybe ill end up running away.
maybe not.
maybe ill move out at 16.
maybe not.
But somehow, i will evenutally disappear.
I hope someone remembers me..
But if no one does, thats ok too.
Im forgettable....

Eveuntally im gonna disappear from everything. Discord, HP, everything.

#disappearing #leaving #death

Jan 20 · 73

The End

Lucy Jan 20

The End

Today is the end.
The end for me.
The last.
the final stand.
the grand finale.
the last lap.
the ending of the girl named Lucy.
The ending of my world.
the last chapter.
the final word.
I suppose you wont cry for me.
I suppose you wont wonder where i end up, heaven or hell.
i suppose you wont be at my funeral, if i have one.
i suppose you wont visit my grave.
But you will remember me.
Won't you?

Jan 18 · 240

One Day

Lucy Jan 18

One Day

One day, I will finally meet you.
One day, I will be able to speak to you in person
One day, you and i will hold hands
one day, you and i
one day, you and i will be toghter
wether that be in a starbucks, or in paris.
i will be there.
for you.
always.

This one is dedicsted to my partner.
1/18/25, 12:05 am

#love

Jan 13 · 869

My life, in a poem.

Lucy Jan 13

My life, in a poem.

My life has been long and hard.
But i have survived.
My life has been stressful, and difficult.
But i have survived.
My life has been short.
but it feels long and wasted.
My life has had its ups, and downs.
every night, i lay in bed, and wonder
"Will this be my final breath?"
"Will this be the ending of it all?"
"Will this be the end of the girl named lucy?"
I just wish, that i could be free.
Free from this body.
Free from this deadname.
Free from male pronouns.
Free from this male body.
But i will never truly be free.
as long as i live.

This is like a vent but also kinda me dumping my sorrows on the internet.
hello poetry is like a safespace for me rn.

#depression #dyphoria #gender #life #death #selfharm #suicide

Jan 12 · 152

My Pain...

Lucy Jan 12

My Pain...

My pain Is Eternal.
But no one can see it. no one can feel it.
Only I can see and feel this pain.
Only I can hear it laughing at me when i look in the mirror.
Only i can feel it when someone calls me the wrong name.
only i can fix it.
but there is no hope for me.
my family cannot see or hear this pain.
only i can.
only i can fix it.
but there is no hope for this mess.

My gender dysphoria has been getting worse.
This poem describes my pain.

#gender #dysphoria #depression #pain #hurt

Jan 11 · 912

No One

Lucy Jan 11

No One

No One cares about this trainwreck.
No One wants this trainwreck.
No One loves this trainwreck.
EveryOne says they love me, But No One truly does.
EveryOne says they care about me, But No One truly does.
EveryOne says they want me to stay around, But No One truly does.
EveryOne says to me, "Life is better with you in it, Lucy."
But No One truly means it.
No One Wants Me Alive.
No One Wants Me.
No One Loves Me.
No One Cares About Me.

This is something that has come out of deep, deep sorrow and pain.

#depression #suicide #selfharm

Jan 10 · 60

My iPod

Lucy Jan 10

My iPod

My iPod.
I got you, secondhand for Christmas of 2017.
When I looked through your hard disk....
I found music i never heard of.
My Chemical Romance, Queen, Michael Jackson, Prince.
You were my only friend during the rough times.
During the times I was crying in a corner, you were always close.
You were in my pocket, your hard drive holding years of music and and videos of happier times.
You were there when my great grandma passed on.
You helped me, through lonely teenage nights, to soothe my soul.
On the night that i nearly died, you were there.
Unlike a person, you will never leave me.

My 1st gen ipod touch broke...
This poem is dedicated to it.
i recently learned about personification in writing class.
Rest In peace, LuLus iPod Touch 1st gen 2017-2025.

Jan 6 · 69

Misgendered.

Lucy Jan 6

Misgendered.

I'm tired of being misgendered. Wrong clothes. wrong name. Wrong body. Wrong hair. Wrong eyes. Wrong puberty. "Why arent you masculine enough?" "why arent you a normal boy?" I was never normal. I was never masculine. I am Lucy Eliza. I will always be Lucy Eliza.

This was a vent that i decided to put into poetry form at the urging of my partner, Elio.

Jan 6 · 149

Eternity

Lucy Jan 6

Eternity

The day will come when i am with you
but it feels like an enternity away
the day will come that i can change my name
but it feels like an eternity away
the day will come when i can be free
but it feels like an eternity
but when i think of you
it never seems like an eternity
- Lucy Eliza 1/2/25

I used this one to get into hello poetry. it was something i was going to send to my ex, but we broke up before i could send it.

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