She knows all there is to know
and just a little bit more
and yet
she goes to bed
tries to sleep
then realises
she knows
to much awful
to sleep

she holds on to hope with tight fingers
forgetting its a glass jar
abruptly shattered
into a million fragments
when she squeezes
screaming out
when cut by the pieces

I love your freshly shaven face
with pale eyes like a storm
soft and new
sprinkled with dewy youthful radiance

having two versions of you

sandpaper and rough-skinned
salt and pepper beard
explaining life's experience in various grey hues
fingers follow deep lined wrinkles
the path to your lips

I have so many secrets
secrets I have been keeping for so long
I am keeping them from myself

you sear me
a match burning slowly down to its tip
hands like thundershock on bare skin
caressing progressing movements
near grey eyes
goosebumps
shivering
slivering
sliding
grab me by my white cotton shirt
fistfuls of unspeakable passion
I fall deeply
serenity found
on your concrete chest

hand me your thoughts
so that if i may
draw on them with the scribbles of lights
blindingly bright yet addictives
wish nothing
but scrape your darkness

hand me your breaths
the sweet breaths of the north wind
even if yours as cold as winter
I'd catch them as they fall
between the curse you would say
melting mine with yours

hand me your hands
for me to take them
palm up as a sign
that we're just imperfectly perfect
like piece of puzzle
as i held yours
effortlessly and perfectlty

I am homesick for a time and place where you said you loved me and you meant it.
I am homesick for a place where i am happy.
I am homesick for a time that never did exist, and I have become more storybook and pseudo- nostalgia than human being.

I’m in the never-was and could not be,
I’m in a daydream,
And i’d like to leave reality
Behind
Just for a moment
So kiss me and hug me and tell me you love me
And we’ll pretend we care about each other
And we aren’t just in this because we want to hurt ourselves,
That we aren’t just in this because we want someone else to confirm that no one else cares about us.
Let’s just pretend a moment more,
okay?